| So basically, there's this chick that I cannot avoid thinking about, no matter how hard I try. Here's why: our interests are common to the point that all my friends (musicians who I will likely see and play with for the rest of my life) are the same as hers, or at least know her. She always--and I mean always--comes up in conversation. I don't have to bring her up, but somehow we always end up talking about her. Her reputation is this: people all across the country are AMAZED to find out that there is a musician who, in addition to being a talented player, is an ATTRACTIVE FEMALE.
Facts to know about our relationship:
1) I had a huge crush on her a couple years ago and everybody knew it. I've never learned so much at one time because I've never fucked up my chances so much with one girl. But I did find out later that she had an iffy-crush on me as well, which is pretty amazing, because I did everything wrong.
2) She's extremely flirty, in a cute way--not dirty. Because of this, I'm never sure if I'm connecting with her, or if it's just that she's like this with any guy she finds remotely attractive.
3) I definitely think, however that there are little things that I have shared with her personally (stupid things like different faces we make at each other at various points throughout a day).
4) At one point in the past year, she was literally on top of me, and within my grasp. But there were three things stopping me: my friend was in the room at the time, I was hesitant (see # 6), and I was just nervous in general, and not on top of my game.
5) She lives across the country from me.
6) She has a boyfriend.
7) There are no better specimen that I know of--I can relate to no one as well as I can relate to this girl, the cause of my one-itis.
What the FUCK should I do?
--Peace
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