Hey Guys,

Sometimes I use public transportation and yesterday was one of those days. I was sitting on the bus and unexpectedly this woman from my past walks on the bus. I almost didn't recognize her because she had gained some weight and it had been a while since I saw her last.

She said, "Hi, how are you? Come sit with me!"

So, I sat down next to her and we chatted on the way to the mall. Then we sat at a bench and talked some more. I am still attracted to her which surprised me.

I met her during a time in her life where she was going through some tough times. We never had sex but we made out a few times and did some other stuff short of having sex. Then life changed as it often does and we drifted apart.

I saw her once at the library a while back and she wouldn't give me her phone number or even an email address. She said she'd rather not give her info out and that she wanted "just be free." She seems happy to see me when we run into each other and yet seems to want to have no ties to me and doesn't seem to want me to be able to contact her. Maybe I remind her too much of a rough period from her life. But, then why is she so happy to always run into me?

I thought if I ever saw her again I would tell her to just leave me alone. Why would I want to talk to her if she won't even give me her phone number so we can set up a time to meet purposely and not just by happenstance? But, when I saw her yesterday I melted and I couldn't be mean to her. I was friendly and I didn't even bother asking her how we could continue our conversation.

I guess I must not be doing it for her.

I also find her a bit difficult to talk to at times. She's a bit on the religious side. She has some emotional problems. Maybe I should just ask her how she feels about casual sex and see her reaction. I don't really care if it offends her at this point because she obviously wants nothing to do with me anyway.

So, yeah, I'm blowing it with this girl I think. I'm being wimpy and having trouble being alpha and guiding the conversation better and controlling the frame.

So, is she a flake or am I a wimp?

Thanks for reading.

Frankie