| First things first, I am a man that can think logically about girls and recognise good situations and bad situations and objectively I know when I should leave it and move on. But the problem I have is that I have a kind of madness where I get myself into stupid situations that I previously spent ages telling myself NOT to get into. I don't know what it is, maybe it's self destructive, but I think it's mostly that I just like sex and think with my penis, therefore breaking a lot of my own rules.
"Yeah, I shouldn't sleep with her... It would only lead to trouble in my life and it wouldn't be a good thing to do and I'd get into all sorts of hassle... But I'll just send her flirty texts and agree to meet up so we can definitely not have sex... Oops"
I am in a bad situation, and the bad situation begins thusly with what I am about to tell you about:
Whilst going through my business of living, breathing, working, socialising with friends and gaming girls I got talking to an eighteen year old girl I work with (I am 22.) Her boyfriend is basically a dick and has cheated on her multiple times and she was upset and asking me what to do.
You're already thinking "YOU WORK WITH HER! DON'T SHIT WHERE YOU EAT!!! SHE'S ALSO A CLOSE FAMILY FRIEND OF YOUR BOSS! LEAVE IT!"
This is what I myself thought, but anyways, she was just facebook messaging me and I was giving impartial advice along the lines of "Dump him, he isn't showing you any respect etc etc." After this she was all bright and smiles around me at work and I couldn't help but begin to notice her beautiful green eyes... The swell of her bosom... The fullness of her lips... The velvet cascade of her hair... Dat ass...
We got a bit closer, just as friends and one night she was upset and rang me (got my number off a friend) and wanted to hang out. I went to her place, we watched TV and chatted and then kissed, but I felt bad due to the aforementioned rules I had made around her and because of a girl I was already seeing. So I left and she went back to her boyfriend.
Anyways, she's still flirty and doing all sorts of kino at work (though she is a bit tactile with everyone) and eventually we reach the stage where we're regularly making out and stuff. Yeah, stupid thing to do but when a bit of blood goes to my willy, my reason and judgement go out of the window.
Some time passed, then she's all "I've got to give my shit bf another chance" so I was like "fine ok, whatever, plenty more girls in my life" but after a while the absurd cycle repeated itself until recently I bumped into her whilst out shopping in my local city and we ended up at my place and I fucked her. Then a couple days later I'm hit with "I felt a bit pressured, I'm disappointed in you taking advantage of me and I'm giving things another go with my bf" and I was horrified that she thought I had taken advantage when I specifically asked her if she wanted me to have sex with her and she said "Yes." But whatever, changing the narrative so she doesn't look bad.
This is when it gets odd/bad.
A few days later after I was just living my life and not speaking to her, she tells me she can't stop thinking about me and that... SHE LOVES ME. I kind of froze and just said "ok." At this point I'm thinking "SHE IS MENTAL" but I see her at a mutual friend's party and my bad judgement (and alcohol) kicks in and we're a bit cuddly and we kiss and stuff, and she says she has chucked her bf yet again... Cut to me fucking her last saturday. Then on sunday I see her out with her boyfriend again! Now by this point I had begun to feel a little bit attached and we had shared some nice times together in the interrim period of the party and me fucking her and I was considering giving things a go PERHAPS.
She told me "I've known him for so long, it feels right, blah blah blah" and she is now back with her on/off boyfriend once more. At this point I realised she is insane and I told her to fuck off basically, and I haven't spoken to her since.
Ah but of course! I work with her! I saw her today for like, half an hour as our shifts crossed over and I just ignored her. But I am working a full 8 hours with her tomorrow and I don't really know what I should do, I need to play this carefully. Should I take her to one side and say "Look, I know there has been some shit between us and I got a bit pissed off with you but we work together and it's in our interests to just get on as best we can"?
Normally I would completely cut all contact to get her out of my life, but it isn't as simple as that, and besides there is the endless cycle of her leaving her bf and showing interest in me (which won't be reciprocated again!)
I am well aware of how stupid I have been, but my life is full of absurdly bad decisions linked by me asking for advice on how I can undo my sporadic decision making.
Also, on a sidenote, her boyfriend must be a complete PUSSY to put up with all her shit! He has no testicles whatsoever.
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