ummm im definately out in the sticks...i shuldve been more specific....upstate ny. but i mean its not terrible here, but i grew up here and everyone knows me....or knows of me. so....idk. i guess i may or may not have a bad rep lol. but i also have a few towns i can go to where i know bar owners and things and go have fun but its very rare so im stuck, praticing my WIT instead of GAME at the waitresses i work with in this small family owned diner...luckily i get paid well enough that im not mad because i get paid to do jack shit and crack mean spirited jokes on bitchy waitresses.

Lol Santino, sounds like the town's got too small for you! Remember i'm just a complete newb at this like you.. what i'd say is, you have two options that i can see, either read around this forum, and figure out what helps you, and enact the suggestions.. or figure out a way to link up with other AFCs/PUAs etc so you get some solid experience down...
for me, reading the stuff here, and the links which follow, and then using them to think about my own behaviour works for me.. but it's dependent on the type of person you are... =)

do you know what an 'alpha'/confident man does when a beautiful girl goes to kiss him on his cheek?
he completely expects it -
http://youtu.be/JbfdF7Jd9-s

final 30 seconds, don draper kissed by Joan on the cheek. A girl can't do that to me at the moment, because i'd freak out - i'd think she was either going to kiss me, or would flinch badly.... but something like that cannot be faked, you can either read girls and know what they're about to do, or not.

Day 9 -
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ns6G8QYQJtk
Day Nineeeeeee made me do it!

Well a quiet day, went into uni, had some work to do - i do feel more confident, more open...
i had a strange moment in the library though...now a few months ago, i'd had an awkward stilted conversation with this one girl, the convo just died, she's cute though, great body, cute smile... and well, i saw her again in the library.. and i could see her occasionally sending glances my way, like when i was on the fourth floor, she was on the third, and she looked for me, but then she disappeared by the time i got back to the third lol... but i didn't approach her... it wasnt 'anxiety'... so much as i didn't see what use it would be for me to talk to her... she'd already weirded me out before... so why bother? i don't need someone weirding me out again after i make effort...?
i dont know if that was me being shy, or just, being cool lol...
anyway as i was leaving uni, the receptionist sent me an opener, so we just got talking for 30 min haha, just a nice friendly convo, i practiced eye contact...it was nice just to talk to someone.. that's what i'm working on to be honest... talking to people confidently,
like on the bus back, i saw someone i knew, and i could say 'hi' loudly and clearly, and not just mumble it like 90percent of other people
these are tiny changes, but changes are definitely happening...
i really need to focus on uni next week or so though, so i may be quieter, we'll see.

Day 10 -
Interesting day at uni...
well i think my testosterone levels are through the roof, because i dont you know, anymore =D,
didn't talk to any new girls unfortunately, but i was giving positive vibes all day to my friends etc and generally having a good time..
i did make eye contact briefly with 3 girls...
one girl in particular ugh, so close yet so far... i was entering the library, she was leaving, i genuinely did a double take because she was stunning, and she looked down and blushed, and then i was like i have to meet this girl... so later in the library, i see her top of the stairs, just about say hi, and then her male friend who i know, says hi to me, and completely cockblocks me, she smiles and runs down the stairs...
ughhhhhhhhh, i should have completely ignored him and said hi to her properly, that would have been verrrrrry alpha,
ah well.
i think i am getting more confident definitely, i feel............. sexual again? I don't think i've felt like that in a long time...

Day 13-
i havent posted for a couple of days because i've been very busy with schoolwork..
i do feel like i'm getting more confident...
i dont have time to go over everything that i did so just highlight
day12- in class i did the vibing thing again, really ran with it, flirted with a couple of girls and was generally friendly - it was fun - one bad thing, i had a golden opportunity to talk to a random girl who i 'like' who studies in that building... and i missed the opportunity, just watched her walk by..

day 13
made eye contact with a girl in the library, she was hot, and then i didn't talk to her, idiot..
made eyecontact with girl on bus, i smiled at her, and i walked past lol, she smiled at me too haha, first time that's actually happened...BUT i didn't talk to her
i DID end up talking to a random girl on the bus who sat next to me, she was very warm and friendly, i didn't vibe with her - but i think i was trying to NOT vibe on purpose because she was giving me MASSIVE eye contact - i did invite her to the salsa thing that i'm organising tmw.. so we'll see how that goes -
i know this sounds terrible, but i saw her more as marriage material than GF material, and i'm kinda looking for the latter than the former right now... someone a bit.....bad...

Day 14-
well strange day...
tonight was salsa night...basically a fundraiser we organised to raise money for charity....loads of pretty girls, i could easily have danced with 5-6 girls there... but i had no time...a) i was stressed as i was organising and b) i can't dance lol...
i think im deffo a 'daygame' person rather than a 'nightgame' guy..
i was a bit surprised one girl asked me to dance with her though... i thought she was outta my league...goes to show what happens when you get too much DLV going on...

Day 15 -
I 'guess' i missed some opportunities today - but overall i'd chalk up today as a good day, again purely for building up my confidence..
went to some religious lecture, obviously at these kind of things, girls have MASSIVE shields up because they want to be goody-two-shoes...so made some EC with girls, like briiiiiiiiief EC, but didn't approach, i just dont want the hassle of that..especially as a couple where with their mums lol...

so yeah, on the bus (i feel like im becoming a bus specialist)... got on... saw two girls, sat in front of them, saw one had balloons, so immediately launched into convo..
had a brief fun flirtatious convo with both of them...
and for like the first time in forever, i actually made a girl blush...
she was dressed as michael jackson (so she told me), so she put on her MJ glasses,
i told her i had the weirdest boner right now, and it didn't feel right for me to be turned on by MJ, she went all shy lol..anyway, i told them to have an enjoyable night, and got off the bus...

i really regret not talking to that girl in day 13, the one who i made the flirtatious EC with, i've been reading about body language today, i feel like even more of a doofus. there was NOTHING for me to be anxious about, she was already ready for me to talk to her...haha, i should have just swung back after i walked past her, and set in front of her, or next to her even, like i did with the baloon girl today..
i hope a couple of girls i've made EC with last week, i see again soon..ah well..

Cool name

goodluck bro

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"Its not lying, its flirting."

lol thanks - he's a good role model lol
he's pure alpha, pure confidence

Day 16 -
I think you know, i could be getting a fair few 'number closes' - but i guess right now i'm just practicing...
i had a meeting today, was in the area an hour early..
was hungry, heard girls like to be approached in coffee houses for some strange reason - so went to the coolest coffee house in the area...
so anyway, girl was taking photos - so we got talking in the place, i wasn't attracted to her, plus we couldn't communicate well as she was foreign...
but it turns out she went to the same uni, same place as me...
and oh, peacocking works lmao
i said i've never seen you before..
she said... i have, you're the guy with the funny hat aren't you
haha (i wear a badass ushanka style hat - best hat in uni if i say so myself))
so yeah, that caught me by surprise, i could have number closed her..but naaah, what's the point of leading someone on? it's disrespectful if you don't want to push things further i think...
anyway, so that ended...
nothing else to report
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i reckon i should 'pull' within 4 weeks of today based on current rate of progress (i hope)

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PS I think i do have a lot of alpha male characteristics, but i do a lot of DLV - a lot of the alpha shit, i do already naturally - i can be charismatic, i can carry the room, i can lead people - it's just a lot of mood swings with me, i can be very high and energetic, or very depressed..
got to get rid of the sad bits, and concentrate on the good - plus life is more enjoyable like that anyway.

Day 17 -
Fucking high right now
so i talked to EC girl on the bus -
got massive approach anxiety, but thought, damn i really have to go for it..
she was seriously feeling me...
didn't get her number..
but did find out she lives in the floor above me...
now i have no effing idea how to proceed...
our first interaction went well, but i don't want to come across as too eager...
at the same time, i want to fuck her brains out..
this girl is hot...

in other news

a perfect 10 blonde said hi to me on the bus as i was getting off - i really didn't get that - yes i am trying to act alpha, but it kinda caught me by surprise

i opened an 18 year old, and then we both realised it was wrong - she was a 10 too, but ummmmm let's leave her for a few years hahaha

Day 18 -
talked to a cute 18-19 year old girl on the bus - didn't get her number... it didn't feel right..
didn't talk to anyone else..
havent met EC girl again - im not going to knock on her door, feels creepy and weird, gonna try to catch her outside again and this time, talk to her properly, should work out okay i hope..

also, i'm tired of people treating me like a patsy, i'm setting myself boundaries... people ask me for too much help and give nothing in return, they can fuck right off.
*annoyed*

This feels like history in the making.

haaaaaaaaaaaaa, don't know about that..
maybe mystory in the making lol..
today is not yet over, so not battlereport just yet...
but i have already approached one girl today lol
will divulge details later