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I am starting to see them as cattle...this is scaring me. I don't want to be a jerk. I want to be a friendly,social,flirtatious guy. I think success is getting to my head. How do you manage it(for those who are experienced)?
I think if you dislike them, you are gonna to show it when you talk to them so, it will be hard to meet them and share time together. It is difficult. I lost my sister and dad in a accident. I been in the community for a bit. I read the game a long time ago. I got to the point of doing cold approach, no approach anxiety, numbers, day 2s, dates, and even a sex life. After I lost my dad and sister, I got all depressed and even wanted to give up doing anything. I don't see friends much or hear from girls. It made me get even more angry with just how shitty people can be and it has been difficult. Then, I hear people talk about taking responsibility and owning u for mistakes or choices made. This is hard. I am going out again now, I am getting numbers, fb contacts, meeting new girls, getting girls flaking or standing up girls myself. It seems so repetitive but, I am trying to live my life and not be depressed. I just know when my sister and dad died, nobody was around, and it was like nobody cared. I guess this will make me stronger in time. I been pissed with god and why this had to happen? I am in a lonely place but, I am still alive and I wont roll over and die. I wont ever give up. And I realize, I don't need a gf or someone to be there. I don't need friends. Its nice but, I don't need anything or anyone. That is what I am realizing.