10/15
Wow approach anxiety out of my mind today from 11-1:50 or so. Literally i couldn't approach for shit

the first place i went to, i knew absolutely nobody, went alone. I recognized the bartender, we talked for a bit. Literally AA out of my mind.

I actually did manage to approach the hottest girl there as my first approach, she was outside of the place. but i basically just grabbed her cigarette out of my hand and kept tryign to light mine with it, while she laughed and was like "dude i got a lighter..blah blah" i basically ignored the shit out of her and left after that. Really ppissed off i didn't continue with that one, this girl was a 10, super hot

Okay well this place had a lot of other girls and stuff, couldn't approach for shit. basically chilled with the DJ for a bit and danced to myself in the "vip" area like thing. I had a lot of girls look at me and stuff but i didn't approach any of them. Should've pissed aboout this


As i left to grab a cab, three girls came up to me and stopped me and made me to go the next place with them...whateve ri went. 2/3 were really attractive, the other one was somewhat cute. we get there, i see one buddy of mine. still AA throughout. me and my buddy do karaokee there one song, after i like bribed the one girl there who i talked to a bit and negotiated...this whole silence thing in 60 years is brilliant. We were like #59 to go, basically no chance of going that night. I was like okay I'll pay you $10 to go next, she says "$10 gets let's you go 10th" i'm like "so I'll pay you $5 to go 5th" she laughs and says no it doesn't work that way, i just kept looking at her silent, she's like okay then. then she puts us down for 3rd actually.

I did talk to this one girl, but she was married

Anyway ditch that place to go to another place. go up to the bar to get some awter [i didn't drink this night]. some girl pulls up next to me, i introduce myself. she's kind of standoffish ignoring me. randomly 25 minutes later she's literally caressing my dick my dick. I didn't make out with ehr, but i pulled her to the bathroom for a blowjob...awesome this girl was a 10. I couldn't pull her back it would make things awkward because it turns out this girl was one of my good friend's good friends from another school and she was staying with him....told her to shut the fuck up about this happening. as i left the bathroom

i approached this one girl, tapped her on the back. introduced myself. she was ridiculously all over me, pulling me aside. another 10. i ask her to introduce me to her friends and stuff. it was ridiculous how interested this girl was. I ended up pulling her back..gorgeous girl. took a while tough, other people kept jumping into our sets, and she would keep introducing me to all her friends and stuff. it just got annoying at one point because i ltierally met like 20 of her friends.

I think i may ahve approached like 2 or so more girls.

But i noticed one thing I'm good...didn't notice how good i was...but AA is killing me now. before it was AA wasn't the issue it was all that other stuff. Now...completely changed

10/20

Well AA was kind of gone tonight i think...i was able to approach sets and stuff

The bigger issue falls in the fact that tonight i actually got rejected....not used to this. wtf. this was at my college bar too. I'm like holy shit...maybe it's because i was wearing glasses and looked like shit tonight...but basically i had girls reject me straight up tonight.

As I went inside, i got locked, i overheard something two girls were saying, jumped into the converastion. one of the girls was cold as hell, i tried to eject set with a free face pretending nothing happened..but decided to look back into the set a few seconds later..i forget exactly what happened but the girl that was like "no" before just started laughing with me. I kept going on

I went to the bar to order a drink, the girl next to me was waving her hand at me saying no...i'm like okay whatever

I wasn't feeling very social overall. I did approach about 8 girls or so. the first one, was a solid interaction. we were moving/trying to move through the bar, i tell her something about the line, i jump in front of her. she tells me she's just going to follow me though. i turn around introduce myself to her, she's a law student blah blah, we're talking and whatnot, eventually she start's talking to some friend of ours, didn't bother pursuing and bringing her outside to smoke after that.

Met some dudes/alums a little later.

I walk up to these two girls talking..they kind of ignore me and whatnot, they are in some weird conversation i kind of pick up the fact that they are lesbians...through their conversation while i was smoking

I said a bunch of small random things to some girls as they tried to sneak into the bar, nothing really

went to another bar

went up to the bar, started chatting with the girl next to me...she was open and stuff, then some dude jumps in, a friend of mine, she starts talking to him and whatnot..she still looks at me and stuff. but some dude was buying her drinks..she mentions something like this to me about how everyone here is a gentleman buying people drinks. blah blah. she ends up having to take a drink with them. while this is happening i bounce. I approach this one other girl...she's basically "no" to me no questions asked...wow another blowout...

I go to another bar a friend of mine opens me, she's one of the hottest girls in the school. we hug say some works blah blah.

Back at the bar, i meet two girls, both freshman.. they both are on their way to leave

Anyway i go back to that other bar and i poke some girl and she's definately lying about her name and stuff..i kind of stay in the set.. but it's clear that some other dude is about to pull her back and stuff. she hooks a little bit but then she bounces

Overall crappy night...wtf happened?

10/21

Back to normal, for the most part

I kind of read through Rob and Zacks 4 Elements of Game...great product

went out after reading like the first 40 or so pages

Initially waited in line at some club i never been to before. I hey to the dude next to me, start saying something. roll up to the bouncer to ask him a question. come back in line, ask some black dude behind me for a hit of his black and mild. start talking to the dude in front of me...him and his two friends have two girls with them...both are plastered as fuck. I kind of just fuck around with one of the girls who is being gay and literally talking to every person in line besides me...yeah i was being reactive now that i think about it

the girls weren't allowed in for being too drunk, i call a cab for them. i hand my id to the bouncer...the dude literally starts patting me down...i'm like wtf. this never happened to me in my life. he thought i was drunk because i had no clue that i was supposed to turn around and hold my hands up and stuff. i was just confused

okay inside now, i walk right past the girl taking cover $ without even realizing it..got in for free saved $20. i actually went up to her and asked her a question like 10 seconds later. i go to one of the bars, ask the girl bartender a question. go over to this other bartender and him him a question. Apparently some NFL player was there. So i go to the VIP area, the dude won't let me in. I tell him...look i'm from NY and want to say hi. I then go up to the DJ introduce myself get his info in case he might want to DJ at our fraternity party sometime later. I go back to the VIP place, the dude's "busy" i'm like bullshit. i literally just push my way in, say what's up to the NFL player. he was being a fag at first...honestly i don't care about him, he plays for a rival team i'm a patriots fan. I guess once he realized where i went to school and where in New York i'm from, he opened up ridiculously to me...i don't care about this whole DHV thing as a whole but it's crazy how much education/wealth is a DHV

Finally i bounce. I open my first set. she's leaving with a friend. i keep her aside start chatting a little bit. i get her to give me her number. kiss her on the cheek good bye. text her right after some of the HPRJ stuff. Name, interesting fact, hometown. 1 minute # close right there.

I go up to this other girl, she's not receptive at all she looks awkward i ask her what's up, she points to her boyfriend. okay bounce

I go up to the bartender the girl one again, start chatting her up exchange names talk about some stuff here and there.

Go outside, i see these these 4 girls and 1 dude in the set. the dude was talking to this one girl. i decided to go to one of the friends start talking to her. i bring her inside with me, we're talking. face to face i get close to making out with her and keep pulling away and stuff. i'm sitting on this stool, her friend shows up and she starts grinding on me while 'm sitting with her friend is dancing in front of her. I tell her, okay let's go to the dance floor. we start dancing for a bit...then some dude comes in and literally pulls her away, grabs her literally from me and start's dancing with her...I'm just astonished wondering wtf just happened. i kept holding onto her hand but this dude just kept pulling her away..i decided to fuck it and let her go...this was an easy pull wtf

Okay went up to this one girl sitting down. start chatting with her, it's going well. issue is i had trouble leading. she wouldn't look right at me the entire time, she would give me eye contact here and there when i talked. but she was facing sideways to me and wouldn't turn towards me no matter how much i asked. she would chuckle but no facing me. i tell her to go outside with me to talk...no she's staying here. i kept pushing it, about 3 times i tried. her friends come into set 4 girls 3 guys. i start talking...eventually conversation dwindles with me and her. tried to at least leave with a phone number...she doesn't have her purse on her, it's in her car with her phone. wow...gay. i'm under the impression she's lying but whatever. i ask her guy friend what the hell i have to do with her. he basically said just go grab her ass and force her to respond a certain way...yeah not happening

Anyway i introduce myself to this other girl she just seems awkward and stuff..weird thing is this was the ugliest girl i approached that night...anyway i bounce

I go up to this one girl sitting down, we start talking a little bit. i tell her to scoot over and i sit next to her and chat. i tell her to come over to the other area, she says she's coming inside. her friends are trying to make her leave. i tell her to get my number. her friends literally pull her away. i pull an alexander moment basically shouting her name across the entire bar outside. then i go in, give her my number again HPRJ name, interesting fact.

Texts me me her hips are pierced 10 minutes later

I go up to this one girl sitting down just to ask her if she's okay because she looked out of it. her brother comes in and says yo back off blah blah. i'm like dude i'm just checking if she's okay blah blah. he start's like patting my head and i'm thinking "bro don't do that." but i just said some joke to him calmed him down and had him leave.

Went up to this other girl. She basically points me at her friend and is hey this is Nina blah blah. do you know anyone here blah blah. I'm like wow way to be a bitch. "nina" and i hold hands for a while..then she introduces me to her juicehead...literally guido, boyfriend. i'm like wow...this is absurd..i leave

go back to the bar, chill with that girl bartender again.. the juicehead comes in with those 2 girls, the one i approached and that annoying one, and orders cranberry vodkas for everyone. i start cracking up and me and the bartender start chatting about how ridiculous it is that guys order bitch drinks like that

i'm about to leave at this point, call a cab company asks for the address, no clue where it is. some girl starts telling me the location.

I start chatting with that girl for the next 25 or so minutes while waiting for the cab. of course she pulls the boyfriend card on me after 18 or so minutes...her boyfriend is the manager of the place. while i waited for the cab, she said he could drop me off and whatnot...wow this would've been weird

anyway bartender girl leaves

the bouncer dude is there asks why i'm still there, girl says "oh i'm helping him get a cab" and he stops caring

I start having a conversation with him about gentlemanship and self control and whatnot and the whole patting down nonsense

the bouncer sees a cab going up the street and literally stops it himself and then tells me to get on...awesome finally


Better night than before...could've approached some more girls. I have 2 solid phone numbers from what I see. I'm pissed i got cockblocked by that dude
There are a few other girls I despite not opening

10/21

I'm just chilling on a sidewalk at greek row. Some girl walks by asks me if i'm alright, asks to sit down next to me. we start vibing and stuff, she tells me shes going to this one bar which is ironically where I'm going as well. We exchange numbers and she goes to get her friends before grabbing a cab

I arrive at this one bar, i start talking to this one group of people, three girls, 1 guy. This 1 girl keeps messing with me saying she's going to report me for jumping over the fence to get in because i'm not 21 yet. she keeps saying if i don't do anything for her she's going to get me kicked out and whatnot blah blah. I thought this girl was interested but she went on talking to her friend alter on. This whole group thing was ahrd to handle. Maybe because I didn't go ahead and approach the girl right off the bat, i kind of just half-assedly did the whole thing


went inside sent to the bathroom to fiddle with my hair for 5 minutes and look at myself in the mirror...i'm a narcissistic fuck. Random dudes just kept bitching at me about it

I leave the said bar and go to the bar the girl was at...of course all my fraternity brothers were there and i was dumb enough to keep my tab running...piled up like a $140 bar tab by the end of the night.

Literally could not approach for a while, chilled with my brothers went to the outside smoking area because i saw these two girls going there. I start talking to the hotter one, we start hitting off and vibing ridiculously, her friend lets me continue saying she's going to the bathroom and letting her friend stay with me. I bring the girl to the bar, i ask her for her number because I knew logistics weren't in my favor that night because my roommate's girlfriend was in town. She kept texting me the whole night. I did kind of mess one thing up, I moved a little too quickly with the leading out of the bar with her, i told her let's go to another bar pretty quickly. I need to move things slower

Basically all night I was super uncalibrated...i had like 7 shots of jack, and 5-7 beers after going a while without drinking so much. But I became an approach machine. But basically I need to stop drinking, easier on me when I'm not to move things forward

I was hitting it off with teh bartender initially too until I became stupid and started touching her face...wow i felt retarded.

Went to the outside area again, chatted with some other girl who goes to my school

Went back inside approached this group of 2 girls 2 guys. sat next to the hotter girl and tried to get her to talk. she would listen to me but she wouldn't say much. she seemed interested the friends got in the way though. Also the line that froze me came out "hey this guy's going to earn more money than all of us combined." One of the dudes told that to the girl

Blackout haze:
Approached a few more girls

Went to this other bar approached a few more girls

memory starts coming back
I approached this one girl we just look at each other silent still holding hands from the handshake ridiculous amount of tension, and then three boyfriends of her's jumps in and starts pushing me and stuff I'm confused.

Then some girl comes up to me and says "hey do you want to make them jeaous" i have no clue what she's talking about. I go to find the girl with the 3 boyfriends and she's still looking at me. I'm thinking wtf...whatever. i go back that girl who came up to me comes up to me again and says straight up "i never had an indian penis before" and "i want your dick in my pussy" in the first 5 minutes or so. I was completely inebriated, and she literally took me to her place. i realized what the fuck was going on at this point and knew this wasn't the type of girl i'd want to get with and left.


I texted the first girl I met that night, and went to her place for the night.

ah yeee dat wot up

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10/26

Went to some venue, basically empty

i went to the bar for a second to pay my cover on my credit card, as i'm doing this i turn around, see this woman, say hi, we're really close to each other, she gives me her glow bracelet, she's taller than me and pretty hot, we make out. i ask her how old she is and then she asks me how old i am, she tells me she has a husband..there was a wedding ring on her finger..whoops. i turn her towards the bar she says don't play that right now sorry.


i go outside, attractive people, guys or girls

i go inside, see some cutie definately on something. I'm like hey whatever you're on i want some. she tells me she's on molly. i want this girl bad. we're hugging noses touching. in the middle of the dance floor. she keeps talking to me. i ask her who she got the molly from. she says the guy she's with tonight...uh oh. i meet drug dealer..."she's with him that night." for my own safety i ditched her

Everyone still not really worth talking to, i see the dude i paid cover to. he's the manager of the place chat with him a bit. he's pretty cool, he leaves. i just chill there on the balcony

two girls come in pull up next to me. i say what's up. we start talking. it's one of the girls' birthday, i give her a hug and a kiss on the cheek. she already had my number because during the talk she gave me her phone to take a picture of them, and afterwards i just put my number in. she knew i was doing it by looking at my glasses. this girl who's birthday it was, was really cute. we hit it off, she tells me she's going to the dance floor. i didn't actually follow her, she's still texting me right now

I did go to the dance floor eventually just sat on top of the speaker, said hi to this one girl...early halloween? blood stains on her teeth and other assorted makeup. she started dancing like crazy up on me without me even initiating anything. turns out this girl was one of the sluttiest people i met. he pulled me over to a table, laid back on it and spread her legs out for me....at that point, NEXT!!! i saw her leaving with some super old dude later on.

I go outside area again, still nobody! the three worthwhile girls seemed clearly taken: the married on, and two girls latched onto some dude. I had another girl fetch out information for me and told me they were dating those dudes. damn

i asked some person for a cigarette, he was with 2 girls didn't find them attractive. cool they had huge breasts but i'm more into a girls' face and eyes and smile. when i asked the guy for a cigarette, one of the girls was like "i'll give you a cigarette if you be my boyfriend" and her sister kept telling me about the girls' child bearing hips and whatnot blah blah. I'm like, you're trying too hard. I left

I went to some other girl later to ask for a cigarette. she goes "i actually bummed this from someone, but hey you're cute it shouldn't be hard to find a cigarette." i really hate being complimented so i left her after hearing a few more words

i continue to chill on the porch looking around...NOBODY that I would like to talk to. i see one of the taken girls, i'm just looking at her while her boyfriend is talking to this friend of his. i keep looking at her, she finally looks at my. i wave at her and smile. she smiles. but i didn't want to cross some relationship line.

I see bartender come out, this was a rather ugly bartender. but i talk to her for like 7 minutes or so while she's smoking with me

at that point i leave...nobody left at the bar worth talking to

empty nights are tough especially with all of these weird people/situations about

10/27

some halloween bar thing going on...bunch of places open. wasn't planning on going out, went out on a whim when i saw a cab going by...I was really in my head today

I basically got ridiculously called out tonight by some people in the school for "not coming with a crew ever" I kind of just decided to go out alone since the year started to get better at this. if i see buddies at bars, i'll go chill with them for a bit, but i've literally just been going alone.

wow this hit me a little too hard

the first bar i went to, i never was successful at, i went 3 times i think in this report...complete AA out of my life and cannot approach anyone

tonight i did approach
basically because of how poorly i did i'll label

Real #1 forgot this) had a bunch of AA, just introduced myself to some bartender chick
#1) girl rolls up next to me at bar, i introduce myself...literally no rxn, she just seems looking around beign stupid. i try to say something, she still acts the same way basically ignorin gme
#2) i go up to this girl, introduce myself as i'm leaving the bathroom...a few minutes later i go back to her start talking about some stuff with her hugging and whatnot, we exchange #s becuase she's looking for her sister...
#3) I go to smoke, see this girl, introduce myself...girl's surrounded by 3 other dudes...can barely get anything in..she's not hooking
#4) I go inside, see a girl dancing on stage, i grab her hands try to pull ask for her name, try to pull her down...no. i go on stage start talking a bit. things fizzle she blows me out
#5) i go back out to see who's there, i see a girl coming in, introduce myself...she's walking other direction...i reopen her, she's working at the place..whatever
#6) I go talk to some girl standing, i try to talk to her, she is bored goes back to the people she was already talking to
#7) at this point, i had that "fury" thing mentioned often...i saw this one really really really hot girl, jumped in, clawed her from behind. started talking and everything, she's giggling. boyfriend at the same time is pulling me on the back of my jacket, and friends are saying stuff to me about the boyfriend...i try ignoring..doesn't work out


boom in my face

go to this other bar for shits and giggles
Empty place
1) I approach girl outside and stuff...i'm not calibrated at ALL today
#2) I go inside, only girl there...she asks me for a drink, i tell her tell me something cool first. i buy her one, then she threatens me for not tipping more...wtf she's a bartender there and just bitched...i would've tipped if she didn't jump on top of hte bar to talk to her friend as i was talking to her


Leave place

Go to a more comfortable location
1) I approach girl...i literally cannot talk today. i say something...she tells me she's 43..bs but whatever...and friend comes in, was standing next to her, they start hugging and whatnot...
2) can't remember actually if there was a #2
3) i see a girl sitting down, sit down next to her chat her up...she's giggling it's on and stufff. she starts texting me pictures of her dog...then we both get up...she said something to go do together...completely zones out about it, and then i lost her...damn it, i saw her going back with another dude..sigh
4) i approached this one other girl, chatted for a bit. she said let's dance..i didn't bother grinding with her just started dancing next to her and some dude jumps in and starts grinding on her
5) i go approach another girl, she's just like "seriously, place is closing and you're trying to meet me now?"

wow......just a bad night altogether

Hey man,
Your indian?! Thats madd cool hit me up on pm....I'm Bangladeshi I'm working on an intersting S.E. Asian project:)!
-Cmoose
P.S. What school do you go to ?

Yale and sorry I don't really have time to help out on some project right now especially

Hey, you write some really detailed reports, but I am not sure what your goal is, e.g do you game for #/F/K close or are you just trying to get out there? And so far how many of each can you tally up?

-Valor

11/4

I go out, first place I go to [loud club venue] I enter...i get kicked out for not paying cover in 3 minutes...gay

okay i go back to my place..change head on over to the bars where i usually went. I started talking to some dude, needed a light. some girl openend me we started talking for a bit, she kept telling me how nice i was and everything...


OKAY WEIRD SIDE NOTE TONIGHT: EVERY GIRL I WALKED INTO BASICALLY HAD A BOYFRIEND OR A HUSBAND. TYPICALLY THE HUSBAND..WTF

anyway at the bar, i start talking to this one dude...he apparently has free drinks all night. gives me a pitcher..sweet.

Okay i start dancing to the jam band.

I open this one girl back at the bar again...she starts to feel "offended" because i asked her if she was a grad student. she stays in says something about her friend loving me for that blah blah. i kept seeing her all night at this bar and we'd just joke around sticking our tongues at each other or making faces to one another.

Okay tonight self-amusement finally kicked in for me

I asked this girl if she likes penguins...she's like "umm...you mean those flapping thingies birds" she's so confused. she says yes. I'm like awesome. she turns around and starts giggling to her friend telling her what i had just asked her...i start cracking up...did i really say that?

anyway i headed on over to this other bar. see some dudes i know start chatting them up. then i tell him okay i'm gonna meet some girls. go up to this one chick immediately. start talking to her, introduce myself to her friend. we keep talking...she's married. the husband comes in as i'm hugging her..i play it cool, start chilling with the husband and stuff too...wow that was awkward. i go to smoke a cigarette with the wife and her friend who's also married as i'm heading to the outside area to smoke, some dude taps me and tells me "i'm good at this, quick on my feet blah blah..oh you're from new jersey that explains it" i'm like okay cool i guess thanks...dont' know what that's supposed to mean

we go outside i start talking to the girl, some black guy starts trying to tool me, i tool him back saying he doesn't know what the fuck he's talking about, he was trying to convince me that the girls gave me their wrong names and stuff.When i was getting tooled by guy friends the girls were saving me.

Before i went into this bar i did talk to some dude about some HBO shows and whatnot

anyway i go back into the bar, introduce myself to the cute waitress...


I realized....nobody considers me a "threat" in that sense...I'm a "sweetie" or a "cutie" or stuff like that. I'm probably overthinking this. I'm basically a guy they'd like to know and stuff but don't pull the trigger

I go start talking to some girl from finland, we're talking for 20 minutes or so, the friend starts talking to me approves of me and stuff..we joke around. some dude 6'7 jumps into the set and starts talking to the girl from behind...gay...i start shouting at her to get her attention "ey listen to this" and start just saying stuff that makes no sense...literally i couldn't find a way to make this fun for me anymore, and leave the set


Go to this other bar, I see my pledge brother...forgot to mention our fraternity went to a strip club before all of this. anyway, I've approached a few sets...soo many boyfriends and stuff. I approached a bunch of sets all were telling me about their boyfriends and stuff..wow. This is because all the sorority girls at our school are too busy with rush and can't do anything tonight...anyway. I try to chat up these two other girls. i just talk randomly and stuff. Do you like "penguins" what's your favorite color...yeah it was kind of ridiculous.

Me and my boy start talking to these two girls. they are buying us drinks and wahtnot. we made out with them, at the end of the night "oh we're occupied" we're both thinking wtf...

Side note: id idn't take adderall tonight and had no trouble with AA.

11/5

[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qk9GjbbueHo[/youtube]

Side note: i tried the empty tank thing before going out today, again no adderall

I go to this one bar at first, it's pretty whack but

Girl #1) She was sitting at the bar alone. I go up to her, she's all smiling and stuff. she tells me she has hiccups. I talk shit to her about managing to get hiccups at a bar. i give her a hug, tell her I know a trick on getting rid of them, close your eyes and count to 10, i was actually giong to make out with her, then boom fat chick comes out of nowhere and starts hugging her...i'm like what the hell just happened

Friend goes it was nice meeting you and pulls her away...umm okay

I go to the bar, introduce myself to the bartender, she gets giddily...okay that was strange

I go to the dance floor, i jump on top of a stage, there are two weirdos in costumes dancing...i'm cracking up i jump on stage stand between them put my arms around their necks and start dancing between them facing everyone just finding the whole thing hilarious. There's this really cute girl in front of me just looking at me while dancing, is tart dancing making eye contact to her, i pull my hands out bring her on top of the platform, she's all wide eyed smiling as we're looking at each other she says "oh my name is ___, but everyone calls me Bambi, i start cracking up. I tell her something about me being aladdin" she starts dancing up on me...i'm like whoa there I'd rather talk. I put my arm around her and start dancing to the side of her, she keeps looking at me. I tell her come meet me at the bar in 20 minutes and she takes my #. she says okay...I dont think i ever went to the bar 20 minutes later

I went to sit on a couch started texting some random girl. some dude sits down next to me, we talk its his sister's birthday. i call him out for only dropping $40 on his sister that night. Anyway we talk about football or something

while we're talking a really hot girl that i remember seeing a month sits next to the couch, she starts rubbing my hair. the dude leaves, i tell her to sit down next to me, she sits on my lap. we start talking and stuff. She really wants me to kiss her, it's clear.. i don't...again a theme here? okay i tell her i'm about to leave actually, and I head out to go to another bar

At new bar i start talking to some friends at first. I see some like 45 year old dude trying to cockblock one of my friends, i jump in help my friend out by occupying the cockblock.

Anyway I go meet this girl who's visiting from another school, we start talking. i have a bunch of friends at her school. Indiana. Anyway we get really close, face to face...i should've gone for the kiss..didn't she ends up leaving to another bar with her friends and gives me her # as she leaves, i didn't put it in because its doubtful i'll see her again

I go upstairs see the band playing, i request Jessie's Girl. And Now I'm literally the happiest person in the world. girls around me were high fiving me and hugging me for requesting such an awesome song

I go around see some hot senior girl, i'm surprised that she isn't in a better sorority. but anyway we talk and joke around about some stuff. hugging and whatnot, time for the kiss...didn't do it. REALLY REALLY REALLY FAT friend comes in and takes her away...wow. I reapproach girl later and FAT friend coems in again....what the hell

I go to another bar start talking to this one women, she's getting married. I'm literally just spewing random nonsense to her...OH awesome, here' smy address invite me i'm going to be your ring bearer and you're going to introduce me to your bridesmate blah blah blah.

I met another women who's getting married too. Oh i'm gonna crash your wedding make the toast, blah blah

Literally just being stupid. Literally they're all loving me

I go find this other girl...boyfriend gah okay i still start saying random stuff t oher and whatnot...i tell her i'd totally fuck her if she wasn't in a relatinoship. she gives me the look. I start dying and leave

I see this one girl sitting down, i start talking to her, she tells me she remembers me and that she's too old for me..I'm just absolutely clueless...she remembers me from a fraternity tailgate 2 months ago...then it came back to me she was the girl in the courtyard on the chair that i was fucking around with and being really physical with. i keep qualifying her and stuff, she's more interested, we get close. i dont pull the trigger and leave once the dude with her tries to get into my conversation. I get shit tested right before the assumed makeout and decide to leave

I see this one girl, her name is ginger...i'm done at this point...i've laughed so hard tonght and this was the tipping point. this girl absolutely loved me, she was with her friend who had just turned 30...okay inside i did not want to know that she was that old. bought a drink for girl and her friend. start dancing with the birthday girl, bring her friend in the set as well...Journey starts playing. I'm feeling the love. This girl, hot one, ginger. starts hugging me dancing up on me i'm like okay whatever. i let her, our faces are touching...i could've kissed her...didn't. Again this happened multiple times, i reappraoched the set twice and she was all over me. the very last time, she tells me she's with some dude...i should've closed her

There was this one other girl i clearly remember. I saw her, she was stunning. she starts smiling, she's going to the bar, i go with her...she pulls out her hello kitty credit card...i'm dying again mine is better because it's a national children's cancer society credit card. we start atlking she really likes me. i start being illogical, she tells me i have a lot to learn. i start cracking up. she tells me its good to have a list of things that a girl must check off before liking her, but you don't ask about giraffes in a club. i'm dying at this ponit , we are jokign around with one another. she them tells me she's sorry but she's actually seeing someone at the bar tonight...gah, but she liked my persistence and that there's like a ton of girls out there that would want me

Anyway I somehow end up at this other bar...weird situation

But as soon as i go in I start joking around with these 2 dudes and the bouncer...he didn't card me SCORE. i go in start talking to this woman she's dying in laugher and loving my company, her husband comes into the set i had already joked around with him at the entrace. we're talking...he says he really likes me as does the wife because of how friendly and happy i am and stuff. while i was talking to the woman though, some friend of her's is basicaly "do you know this guy? blah blah" woman basicaly shuts her up

As they are leaving, another girl comes to me and introduces herself to me, it's that woman's sister, she comes up really close to me ans smiles and whatnot, That same friend comes up and says "who the hell is this guy?" again she shuts her up LOL. anyway i tell her she's beautiful and if her personality is anything like her sisters she's probably just awesome and that she's the better looking one. our noses are touching and stuff and looking at each other pretty intently...i dont go for the kiss and they end up leaving


Notice a trend here???

so you feel there's more to the game than the kiss? hmm but you're not going for it because you choose not to right? not because of AA? yo btw check out my field report "sarging as a junior at an ivy" i pulled some sick moves on the dancefloor saturday night.

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"Whatever is in the way is the way" - Style

11/9


Side note: i took adderall in the afternoon, masturbated before meditating, and meditated before going out...no drinking

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Okay well i went over to bar #1 tonight

weird...i felt awesome, but could not/did not appproach for shit beyond the bartender who i talked to for a tiny bit...came back to this bar later and the other bartender gave me shit for asking for water


went to bar #2 karaokee place..i talk to this one woman, it's her birthday...she's fat and ugly...i talk to the hot girl she's with for a bit, they end up leaving as a group

i start talking to this other girl...she leaves with her friend

i approach some set of 3 girls say some stuff for a bit, as i'm saying it some dude behind me is like pushing me....didn't really notice it until he like started screaming into my ears

someone sang don't stop believing

i left went to this other place...on the way there...i kind of just shouted at two girls...they turned around went up to them approached...some dudes started surrounding me i'm like wtf...?

anyway i make my way over to some bar

i go up to this girl at the bar..introduce myself, her friend comes in and i introduce myself to her...she tells me to come dance with them...they started getting closer to me but i pulled away a lot...I NEEED TO START GRINDING WITH GIRLS WTF IS WRONG ME WITH THIS SWINGDANCING CRAP AND JUST WANTING TO KEEP SEPARATION...both of these girls were gorgous and into me


anyway i leave head over to this other bar. i say hi to this one girl she responds "roll tide" she's from bama awesome haha. but she's like the supervisor to her friends and kept getting sidetracked, so annoyed

i started talking this one other girl later too we talked for a bit...

I had approach anxiety??? Or didn't feel like approaching one or the either...stupid night and forgettable overall

11/10

Side note: 1 beer, adderall quite a bit, no meditation, no masturbation tonight, haven't slept in days

Went out on a whim

showed up this one club...very loud. Students from my school were all the girls i aproached

AA like crazy...never been to this bar before in my life
I finally approached some girl, we talked for a minute...i can't really chill at these types of clubs...it's hard thigns are crazy tooo much stimulation and friends start pulling her away and crap

whatever i talk to this one girl and her friends they are sad or osmething no seniors there blah blah..i say something..they're like lets' go to "the place i said" i leave

I grab 1 beer

I say what's up to this one girl twice seeing her she doesn't respond okay weird

whatever...i approached this one other girl start talking to her, then to her friend literally as i'm talking to one, this sophomore chick i recognize pulls the one towards her, then i talk to the other one and she pulls the other one towards her...they were receptive...girl kills it. then one of the girl asks to take a picture of them...i bounce and leave right before, pretending i didn't hear and got distracted by a friend of mine

I approached this one other girl while she was dancing she said her name then seemed like she was weirded out and left...okay

Bounce to another bar...none of the girls i approached happened to be from my school
I approach this one girl ask some random situational question...she tells me i go to that place looking for this person...i see her again ask her she gets closer...but honest i was really only hoping to find this celebrity

I guess he just left

I went up to this one other girl and tried to talk to her...cold as fuck

I went up to this one blonde girl w asked her the same question because i literally awnted to know...she says she saw him blah blah. i ask the hotter friend the same thing, hotter one misinterprets it and says soemthing else. then hot friend pulls not as hot in and start talking face to face...i think i blew it whatever. i then go right next to the hotter one...all of a sudden we are vibing for the next 16-17 minutes...two dudes tried to break into the set and i let them run their "game" they all gave up and she just kept coming back to me...then she says she has to go to the bathroom

I realized i know where i messed up..either because i asked who the hell is miranda lambert....or i didn't kiss her considering her lips kept going right next to mine whenever she talked to me......

anyway i see her again, grab her hand give her my number. i reapproach again just asking if she's okay

goddamnit i could've pulled this last girl

As she was in the bathrom i talked to these two other girls and they were cold


Side Note: I'm noticing that I'm a lot less stifled in the day than I used to be