Well, this has been some time coming. I have been rubbish with women as long as I can remember, but what makes it worse than a lot of guys is that I am aware of this, and have been for ages. Last week personified this.

In truth, I have known about PUA for about 5 years and knew of it since ages ago, I am now 18. I have read articles and browsed this forum - but to no success. You'd think with the knowledge I possess I'd be ok with women! How wrong! My track record is getting with one girl in a club when I was completely drunk, which is quite pathetic. That is it!

I also think I have some form of social anxiety disorder which I have had all my life. I hate being around people and I can't think straight, in fact the only time I'm truly satisfied is with drink. I don't know where this started from but it cripples me in terms of my life. Many don't understand, but I can't even hold a standard conversation with most people as I just choke. I think I need to address this before anything. Before you say, no - I do not want to see a councillor: I don't have the time, money or balls to go. Because of my anxiety I always come up short and recollect massively such as "What if?". I'd rather be a trier than not at all - but I still don't try!

Anyway, to cut a long story short last night was the final straw of many. Basically I was in a club and a 8.5 started talking to me - I was drunk, but basically ignored her a lot until she went away. I am CERTAIN I could have got with her. It was like a test from above or something to see just how bad I was...and I failed. I am like this all the time, and even more shy when sober. It's hard to explain, but I always build up negative thoughts in my head. My conversations with girls (and people in general) are always short and awkward. I seem to be unable to commit socially.

Basically I have read these forums in length down the years but I'm still no-where. I just cannot bring myself to do anything which shows passion. For instance, people say "Approach 3 people a day"...there's no way in hell I'm doing that.
In my entire life I haven't felt as down. I want a girlfriend, however at least unlike most guys I will not settle for average or worse. This also pisses me off how idiots get girls or even uglier guys (I know it's not about looks apparently) when I am a nice guy - exactly. Right now I am 100 miles away from breaking out of my shell, please help!

wow.... ok first of all its not the end of the world man trust me on that. Second i dont care what u say id suggest talking to someone, do u have a best friend u can dump this shit on because u really need to get it all off ur chest and no i dont mean posting depressing threads on this forum, u really need to have a face to face conversation to someone about how u feel, even ur dad man just talk to someone.
Also u gotta stop beating urself up about this shit, I'm no Gambler when it comes to chicks but its a learning curve for everyone, and really man if u hate urself i dont blame chicks for not wanting to be with u, u have to stop ur negative thinking like as of now ! All the time youve spent up to this point hating on life because ur socially awkward is so when u do become one of the best puas ever u can look back on what u were and realise ur one of the greatest success stories of PUA, that gut wrenching moment you had with that 8.5, the fact u completely fucked it up is great ! and u know why ? because really thats the worst that could happen, u needed that to happen so ud join this forum, post this thread and so me and the other pua's in training and mpuas can help u but like i said u gotta help urself first aswell. Once you get over ur own baggage and love who u are people will love u. Thats why i strongly strongly strongly recommend venting all this to ur dad mum or a best friend someone ur comfortable talking with becasue once all this is out in the open then u have a base to build up from but until then ur just gonna be kickin urself while ur down, furthermore stop drinking thats only gonna fuck shit up even more. So basically to condense this all down
1. Let it go and stop getting so upset and depressed over this, after all ive never heard of a guy never getting pussy, think of the fuckin dirtiest guy uve ever seen on jerry springer and wats he talking about apart from his pet pig ? HES TALKIN ABOUT CHEATING ON HIS WIFES PUSSY !! now if an ugly fuck like that can get action so can u
2. Talk to someone, i dont give a fuck if u think its weak or if ur scared to, because really uve got nothing to lose from the sounds of it uve mentally dug urself into rock bottom anyway so why not try and climb out ?
3. write down 5 things u like about urself minimum, if u can think of more then write more but atleast get 5. Write these out every day and then start slipping it into conversations ur having with people. Even if u come across as arrogant, who cares ! atleast ur telling people something positive about u rather than letting them read ur body language and think u hate urself.
4. come back on here when ur happy with who u are as a person, u said it urself, ur a nice guy and thats great im sure heaps of people like being around u u just got to realise it. So dont worry about which opinion opener to use, or which dhv story ur gonna tell or how u plan to slip into comfort phase, fuck all that, concentrate on u first and then once ur happy with urself everything else will fall into place, trust me on this man.

Truly good luck with everything i wish u the best and i hope u take wat im tellin u on board.

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The more you sweat in times of peace, the less you bleed in times of war..... you'll also probably get more pussy

I have had social anxiety all my life. I relate to you and your fears. I recommend seeing a theripist, unless you want to do self help on yourself which takes 50 times as long and can be really tough shit. I have been studying everything you can name about the human mind for 5 years and I am about 70% better then I was. If you want some good links or books send me a PM. And btw, the conclsuion I have came to, either is be sweating, nervousness, mind blanking, shaking, it all has to do with your own self image in your head burried 18 years deep and nothing else.