| Greetings guys, It's time to empty my mind after another sleepless night.
The story you're about to read isn't a common one, it'll probably be the first you'll hear.
My story starts from about 3 years ago, I was since very little addicted to video games.
After i manned the fuck up, I decided to spent the summer socializing again wich i pretty much never did.
It went pretty well, or lets say, pretty awesome even?
Wasn't long before i decided to go to this big rave with my friends that I was just told we were gonna meet up with some English chicks.
I was very excited as i am from nature, very happy to meet people from all over the world.
As we were talking about it he gave this girls email who'm we'd meet and next thing you know, the two of us are chatting till long in the night.
After getting to know her for a few weeks I fell in love with her, and so did she, the only thing we we're afraid of was the distance obviously.
We waited to see what happends if we meet up and decide from there if things could possibly turn out good for us.
A few weeks later i met her in the capital of my city, went on the funniest adventure ever and made out with her. We became a couple from that day on.
I decided to pick up a part-time job and even tried everything i could, just to see her as often as possible.
We pretty much saw eachother every month for 3-7 days, and it was amazing, it wasn't to long nor to short and we were quite in love. After a few months, she came up with an idea to be together. The school i went to was pretty shit, and there was no future available for me there, so she told me to get to college and live with her. I was 17 years old so my parents weren't to happy at first, but explaining the situation and options, they decided to let me do it.
Summer came and she was coming to spend the last 2 months here before I'd go back to England with her for the next 2 years atleast...
Then it all happend again, I never really socialized alot so I didn't have to much friends, but the friends i had weren't considered good friends by me.
So i pretty much stayed home with her and got hooked again to my shitty games. With not to much confidence i went with her in England, but i couldn't stop gaming. So long story short, I ruined my relationship, My studies and basically the best choice of my life because i got my old shit routine back.
I moved back to Belgium, and I got pretty depressed by myself that i lost my complete confidence, my future, my ambitions and everything that was left.
I decided to continue gaming. It wasn't long before it got an obsession for me. It was a game i could actually make a living off, travel the world by and follow part of my amibitions wich i always had.
after discussing it with my parents they gave me the choice as they knew how much i wanted this, I found a good group of people and we nearly hit the top, but then fell the bomb.. I knew what i was doing wasn't good.
I was playing 14-16 hours, sometimes even full days just to stay in top-shape forgetting how important mental stability actually was. I couldn't function normally anymore , Couldn't sleep, couldn't quit analyzing and i decided to just rage quit the entire thing. It got me more depressed because I just spent 2 years of my life for nothing, and the people i played with became the top team in the world, earning alot of cash and living their lives.. Travelling the world every 3-4 weeks and having a very solid social group because of that.
this summer, I went to a therapist, and he pointed out so many flaws in what i've been doing, that I've been able to see them through and change myself.
It went really good for 2 months, I met alot of people, I've enjoyed the company of many beautiful girls, I was finally the person I am supposed to be. Succeeding in everything i did, getting what i wanted.
Now school has started again and I'm feeling the old routine coming back. Starting to play alot again, destroying both my mental & physical health..
The reason why I would post such a story here, is because I have a feeling this is the only place where people have maybe experienced the same but in a different way and managed to get alot of advice here. (I to have changed because of the PUA forum, alot...)
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