day 12/182

First #close ever!!!

today i kinda went infield on time.

As BAWLZ on RSDN had suggested, i pulled on dvd 7 of blueprint and played it, and also my lappy to scrible notes in notepad. So i heard tyler talk about state/resistance.

And I went infield.

As soon as I entered, I saw this 1 set, i pased it but i had eye contact. I immidiately kinda ran back and opened the set. BOOM. no anxiety or resistance. today was going to be fun. LOL.

I approached a lot, here and there.

I have some inner game issues I will get handled, but check this out.

Got my first ever #close!!!!. DAMN.

I walked past an average 2 set and then ran back and opened it direct. acknowledged the targets friend, told her i found her cute, a little fluff, and authentic talk. total fucking natural. told her im in a hurry, and so was she, i grabbed her # before I left. it happened so smooth and I was just leading her.

This is the first time ever I’ve #closed a chick. damn. lol.

After that I opened a few more but lost focus.

Anyway going out tomorrow too so tomorrow will be better.

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day 13/182

went out pretty late. i was out all day but i was working.
there is a massive change in me socially. in just 13 days. wow. I do things I normally wouldn’t have ever done.
I’m more in my own reality now.

I sarged for like what, 5 minutes. LOL

I opened just 2 sets today, over the course of the whole day, I wasn’t out for sarging but had a lot of work. didn’t persue both sets but I had attraction in both.

I know what I need to do. I need to push every set for the close. I know it will come with time and I’m not sweating it.

out till tomorrow, peace.

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I was home all day, wentout to meet a buddy and approached a 2 set.
that was it today.

but here’s the deal. its been only 2 weeks. I use no fucking scripts whatsover. My conversations are so authentic.
I’m socially much more fearless. The transformation is so noticiable. I’m beginning to like this.

So two weeks in, these are my goals :

1. be serious about training. Model hardcore animal style high intensity weight training, and apply model(focus,intensity,fearlessness, nomind/presence) to training infield. train on time, everytime.
2. never miss a set
3. no bitching. I want to fuck so plow everyset. no ejecting. as someone told me on some other forum, there should be a polarity. the set is going somewhere or I get blown out. no half steppin’.

I just need to be aware of where I’m lacking and keep working at this shit everyday.

My vibe is sorted out and overall girls react pretty chill to me. They like my presence. I come off authentic. Its so cool to just be yourself without all the propaganda and masks man. People love you for who you really are.But I think the key is accepting yourself for who you really are, or rather loving your true self, and projecting that you love and accept yourself so others can follow your lead.

out till tomorrow, peace.

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day 15/182

day 15/182

alright today was one of the most fucked up days. i was not on my purpose and it was fucking lame. I bullshitted,wavered from my path and purpose.
I have recognized something.
When you start having the drive to actually do something in life, you will start disliking people who are boring-fucks and do nothing with their lives.

Anyway the FR. I have been non-serious about my training these past 15 days, and that my friend sucks. bigtime.

yesterday I wasted the whole day with chodes, but in the morning (as we didn’t sleep, it was around 6:30 am) i was horny as fuck. So i approached quite a few girls. First set was super appologetic. second, umm somewhat appologetic. From that point onwards I stopped giving a fuck.

third set, pulled the trigger. went for the chicks # 4-5 times with successfully being able to change conversation everytime she said no, but I had some sexual intent she was connecting to. she had to go on a job.

anyway mistakes : i wasn’t kino’ing at all, i didn’t qualify her and i kept talking about random shit when i should have talked about her more.

But today is the first day when i felt horny and actually was approaching just to get laid. I like that part.

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day 16/182

Okay I went out and started off.

I opened a lot nothing fucking hooked. blowouts left right.

This straight off stemmed from having a very uncertain reality I just don’t know what happened to me. There was like some sort of ‘fear’ of approaching. Towards the end of the night I pushed myself a lot to the point where i just burned out, and my health was burned out too.

I discovered something. I have super-weak ‘frames’ of reality, a weak sense of identity and I have no fucking boundary function whatsoever.

Its supereasy for someone to knock me off my purpose and path, I have superbad inner game.

Well, recognition is the first step.I’m going to have to work a fucking lot on myself.

to the point where i just realized … doooooooooooooooooooood(duuuuuuude). I am fucked. there’s so much work to be done on my self.

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day 17/182

Day 17/182.

Boy oh boy. What a day. Afterglow of nicotine addiction and I was literally half asleep all the day. like fucking insomnia.

went out fucking late to the point where i used to ‘think’ there won’t be sets anymore. (this town is dead by 9pm bro.)

wrong.

I still went out.

There were sets.

0 approaches.

2 ciggarettes smoked.

Reinitated a set I had approached. I was fucking clueless in set.
I’m clueless about life. no focus.
Saying that ‘I’m going to get this shit handled’ didn’t work.
Now its time to take action.

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day 18/182

10% in the journey. whatever the fuck happens to time homie. Its been 18 days me goin’ out and what the fuck. Is there progress? Maybe. I got my first #close a few days ago. Its fucking inconsistent.
But I’m taking action. But not giving it my 100%. Rather a 5%.

So I went out. I ran a lot, approached left right.

The first set I went direct. It hooked with my target chick but I approached kinda weak so the other girl started moving when I went for the handshake, the target almost shook my hand but the other chick started walking.
I do street game, so.

Anyway I didn’t have a 100% belief, I was kinda assuming rejection and I was stifled. So that was my first approach.

I remember maybe approaching some other chicks, but aa kicked in so I went to smoke a cigarette instead.

Then I was back. Didn’t approach for a lot of time.

Then I started self ammusing to get out of my head. I started opening sets with ‘His name is robert paulson’ later opening with ‘hey I’m robert paulson and I think you’re hot’. LOL
Then i approached girls with ‘hey can i please get your autograpth(i had a sharpie marker uncapped) and then I would go like, ‘I’m just kidding i think you’re too cute for me not to talk to you’

A couple sets hooked, I ran a set for about 10 minutes but I didn’t like both the girls so I fucking ejected.

At the end of the night I didn’t approach the most beautiful set I had seen all day. I give too much of a fuck!
Long story short, lame day.

I’m going to analyze my last 18 days, figure where I have to go from here and what the fuck to work on etc.

This is 10% of 182 days.
I’ll certainly improve at 20% in.

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day 19/182

Time infield : 45 minutes.
approaches : 0.

I just fucking froze when I went infield today. I didn’t know what the fuck happened. total immobilization.
I tried hard to push myself(actually that’s nonsense, because pushing myself would have been opening).

This is weird : I know what to do in set. I even have an idea how to pull. But I ‘don’t give myself the permission’ to use those ‘success behaviors’ .
that’s kinda weird. knowing that i can be successful but not taking a chance.

I thought this aa shit is nonsense. i gotta get it handled.

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day 20/182

First Set :

I approached a 3 set, approached target direct.

Me : Hey I think you’re cute, I had to come over and talk to you. And I really like your necklace.
HB : thankyou (her bl was towards set but she kinda moved two and fro towards me)
Me : Are you christian?
HB : No i am hindu
Me : omg jesus is going to be pissed at you.
Me : (pause) He’s going to make you born like.. I don’t know, something weird in the next birth
HB : (crakcs the fuck up)

and some chatter

(obsticles tell hb some dude is calling )

Me : tell him that there’s a weird stranger with weird candy over here. he’s going to make us eat the strange candy, then we will be high, and he’ll kidnap us into a garden of paradise.

HB : massive bt spike.

Me : I choded out after a while and ejected.

CHODE !!

Set 2 : 3 asian chicks,

I approach direct.
Get rejected
I plow

(they were holding big grocery bags and eating some dimsums by the street)

Me : omg why are you girls holding so many bags.
Me : you guys are bad girls. you must have robbed a store
HB target : no we didn’t !
Me : oh shit. you must have done some kung-fu and totally robbed the store
Hb target : haha we don’t know any kungfu.

I transition to how my master lives here and I practice kung-fu

then i retransition back to my target that how I like her and I think she’s hot.

The group starts to unlock but I eject.

Props : I plowed whereas before I would have run away after the opener
Chode : I ejected. FUCK !

then I changed venue because the place died out.

I was at a plaza.

I approached 2 girls.

Opener : Heyyyyy. I’m TYLER from RSD! I think you’re hot.
girls : umm.. (they stopped but my approach was half assed and I was stifled ) and they bailed. LOL

changed venue again.

I see 2 set inside a bakery shop. I have AA. I remember ‘jeffy and burn the ships this is sparta’ shit.

I go in to approach but chode-walk to the washroom. When i come out they have left. I run back out of the shop. I follow them for too much of a distance
But i still open.

Opener : Hey girls . I’m harry potter. (i was in a total chode state but this shit works lol)
girls : clueless don’t know what to do.

me : have you seen the movie. etc etc

the girl who was my target and I hadn’t approached her, i approached the ohter chick instead., she (target hb) started giving me massive ioi;s
but since i have bad inner game and assumed rejection, i ejected. bullshit.

then i saw this one girl inside a car.
I had massive resistance. but ‘burn the ship this is sparta’ metaphor made me approach anyway.

talked to her for 15 seconds, no chemistry, i bailed.

after that I wavered again, hung with chodes had beers and smokes. I hate that i have situational confidence and I’m never in my own reality.
anyway that’s it. its been 20 days. Its time to step the fuck up today.

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day 21/182.

Today I beasted.
okay maybe half assed, but I did.

I approached sets with

1. Hey I’m harry potter
2. Hey i saw you in harry potter
3. Hey you’re hot. You should talk to me.
4. Hey you’re cute. You should get to know me.
5. (tornado spinning move) + shmooookin’ Hey I’m the mask. (LOL)
6. (put a baloon in my t-shirt) hey girls, wanna see my baby?

and a lot of other weird shit.

LOL

total self ammusement.

I went in, plowed a fucking lot in some sets.

I don’t give a fuck about rejection anymore.

I don’t know what i’m doing, but I don’t give a fuck. With experience I will get game.

the chode will soon die. a rebirth will happen.

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1st set :

HBasian : (walks past me, I stare at her for 10 seconds and follow).
she walks up some stairs of some shop, I follow.

Open : Hey i saw you walk past me, I think you’re really cute and wanted to say HI.

I talked for 2 minutes but assumed rejection, when I ejected i was surprised as she said, ‘thanks, see you again ‘ . I was like wtf. lol

2nd set : I don’t remember what happened

3rd set : this set was the shit. I opened this set inside a shop and it hooked. I was in set for about 20 minutes and then she had to go home.
I don’t know what went wrong, she told me she will call me but she never did. I kinda had a crush on this girl for a day.

I hugged a girl after 14 fucking months and kissed her on the cheek. LOL.
but it’s a no go.

I thought she was so beautiful (she actually was) and she was such a fun girl. but oh well, I’m still a chode and I need to work on myself.

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day 23/182

0 approaches. hungout with chodes.

outcome : go alone when you sarge.

Manwhore was right. There is no focus here. Yesterday I ran the most amazing set of my life. Shit was so beautiful I was in love for 20-30 minutes. LOL.

I went out today knowing I can create the same experience. But shit just didn’t workout. No approaches. Felt focusless.

Anyway. Tomorrow it is then. Peace.

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day 24/182 - ? I don't remember what i did. lol. on the other hand it sucks.
I'm not going infield on time and I'm not debriefing on time. that means I ain't serious about this shitl.

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day 25/182

I’ve never gone infield on time. need to work on that to change it up.
anyway, got infield.

I had a list of fucking fundamentals with me, what to do and what not to do.

I think I walked around for 10 minutes not approaching.

Then suddenly I saw a 2 set, ran up to them and approached direct. calibrated my BL a little bit.

vibed,vibed,vibed,gave value, qualified. BUT NO KINO. that sucked. went for the #close after leading around the set but she refused. I didn’t push for it. It was okay.

Then I walked around again. wasn’t approaching.

”you cannot be half a gangster- jeff”. i remembered that line from jeff.

So i approached, this 2 set. it was going good until this chick i had failed to shag last year interupted my set. I ran away to talk to the girl who interupted my set.
Took her #.

Then went back to the set. They were behaving bitchy and were clearly ego-hurt that i had left them to talk to those other girls. I sensed negativity, wished them a nice evening and ejected from set.

After that I started approaching mixed sets, direct with this line :’hey are you guys in a relationship?(said to guy) I really think you’re cute I wanted to meet you.(said to girl).
I did about 5 of these sets, it wasn’t really working well.

Then I approached 2 or 3 more sets, everything direct.

Nothing worked, I ejected from my last set prematurely even though she was beautiful.

And then I made the same mistakes again : hanging out with valueless chodes after I finished sarging, and wasting my time with them.

They say \you should be careful about the people you hangout with. I guess I’ll just have to cut them off.

that’s it for today.

oh btw. I’m texting up 2 chicks right now, I know 100% both will convert into future lays. I’m excited.
Peace.

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i like your attitude it seems that your perception of the world is changing