Hey, 

I'm new to this forum not really new to the community. I started gaming 3 years ago but over the last year and a half I slowly started slacking off, stopped going out, getting back into bad habits and slowly reverting back to an AFC.

Not that I was ever a MPUA to begin with but I hope to get back in the game. 

My main problem has always been my inner game/self esteem.
I'm sure it's been said again and again "it all started after a girl I was with for a long time hurt me pretty bad", but even before that because I never thought I was good enough for her(I know, standard AFC thinking.) I also over analyse everything a girl does while I'm trying to game her. I'm constantly the "nice guy". When I have dropped the nice guy in me I have done well.

I've had girlfriends and a couple of one nights but you can only fake it for so long. When you constantly compare yourself to other guys you thinly are "better than you", you've sabotaged any chance at really being confidant. I have bad posture(which was getting better), I constantly look down or away from the people I talk to because I find it hard to keep eye contact. One weird thing is I find it easier to keep eye contact with a pretty girl, I do have a thing for pretty eyes so that might be why. 

Now that I'm not in school though I find it so much harder to get girls. I never had real game and I started noticing that after highschool ended. It's a wonder I've gotten the girls I have.

So like I said when I started getting into The Community about 3 years ago I had success. My confidence went up, I found I could talk to anyone and actually have conversations. Not just asking questions and answering with 1 or 2 words. My game was improving and then I guess I got comfortable and slowly but surely slipped back.

Anyway, I'm a 21 year old Southern California native. I'm not currently attending school. I take care of my mom, who has Multiple Sclerosis. 
I'm 5'11 or 6 feet tall when I'm not slouching, 140lbs which is kind of skinny but I've always been. 
Right now I'm pretty pale but I am able to get a nice tan when I actually leave the house lol
Over all I know I'm good looking and people have told me the same but I must not truly believe it or I would be confident.
I read a lot, that's what I do with a lot of my free time.

Ahhh, I guess I just went on and on. O well I guess you might have a little idea of who I am then.

-Akomplice