Hey guys, this is my first post on here.
Recently within the last few months I have fallen for a girl.
I met her at my friends house and we hit it off unusually well. We spent a couple of weekends together and then she tells me that there is this guy where she used to live (all the way across the country) that she still has feelings for.
I thought to myself... well this doesn't make much sense because obviously a long distance relationship like that can't last and as well I heard the guy was a total piece of shit so I figured I would just continue perusing her and just show her how much better I am that him. Well anyways she has always pushed me away because of feeling guilt because this other guy is expecting her to come visit her near the middle of June. She says she still loves him. But then tells me things like, nobody has ever made me feel the way you do and nobody has ever made me so happy and shit like that.
I can't stand the fact that she is going to see another man.
Even worse I fear I have put myself into a bad position where she thinks I am needy for her.
I really don't want her to go there. It makes me feel so bad thinking about it and I have been depressed for about 3 months over this up and down rollercoaster. I feel like I want to tell her something like "thanks a lot of playing with my emotions, I am glad that you could be happy and have such great times with me at the expensive of my emotions. your a shit person and I deserve better". Then again I won't say it because I feel like I love her so much and I don't want to lose her.
Ugg she has me by the balls, I think she thinks she has me no matter what bad decisions she makes, jsut like.. ill be there for her no matter how much she fucks me around.
This girl is really mixed up between the feelings she has for me and the feelings she has for somebody else but ultimately she is choosing to go see somebody else. I feel like telling her "both you and I know that when you go there you are going to choose to be with him, thanks for taking me on this ride!"

sounds like you want a relationship with her... well, think about it, if she isnt ready for one and chooses too see 2 guys, it would be wise of you too see other women until she is ready, but dont ever ask... if she is telling the truth about her feelings, than at somepoint she will breakup with the other dude and go too you, in the meantime see some other women and dont NEED her too much, it wont help you at all too look needy, like you just said

Life is tough man. For me, it took getting my heart shattered to toughen me up and giving me the ability to move on with ease. It's a shitty shitty feeling, but when it's all said and done, it's liberating.

I've said all those dumb things, and told girls how heartless they are and how they're making a mistake. Trust me, that shit never works.

Move on man. Delete all her contact information and do your own thing. It will be a bitch, but I promise you, you will become a stronger man in the long run.

I'm just speaking from my experience. Take this for what it's worth...