Im pretty drunk right now but...im tall, dark, handsome, everyone assumes my life is good. but when the bell rings and its time to go home. im miserable. i cry often at night. just because im lonely, LOL.

Im a funny guy, hilarious. Goofy. I should have my own Tv show. But if you get to know me more, Im the realest person, purest morals. Of course girls never give enough time to find out about that. Only the boys know. That's about it.
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I mean I could do other things, as for inheritance? Im tall (6'5), (something I didnt have to work for) and really good at basketball. Im a top class artist, in "any" art craft. I'm not smart, but im somewhat unusually wise and pretty philosophical if I were to meet you Id tell you your best qualities (that almost no one has told u) and what I think you'd need to work on. I'm your true friend. I'm your one friend that will understand your problem. If I ruined your business or broke your favorite toy, Ill do whatever it is in my power to repay you. Im the stranger who found your iphone 4 at a party in the bathroom and is crazy enough to give it back to you. I can also teach pretty well...
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But Im still a virgin and I only have a month till im 21 ( june 27). Its really pissing me off. I've done everything, Ive even gotten a job. its increased my social skills HELL even my game speed(i used to be lazy), I move FAST, i clean my room, i get shit done. but im still not at the level to bang girls. I mean my highest accomplishment is a hand job a month ago. I havent even gotten head whops. nvm sex.
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Everyone list your qualities. My newest goal has been to change ALL my behaviors. I want to speak to the people most opposite of me. Does anyone here get called "charming", "sexual", "irresistible" ? IVE NEVER in my life been called these words. I FUCKEN HATE BEING CALLED FUNNY. What kind of actions do you have to do to be called that?! ( i want to be called something new!) Please people out there WAY "different" then me. HELP ME. HOLY SHIT! HELP ME, IM A 20 YEAR OLD VIRGIN.

its cool mystery was a virgin to right around ur age if you are as good lookin as you say it will happen especially when your old enough to hit a club

I mean there was one point in my life where I tried hitting the gym i gained like 30 pounds, was lookin massive (190, lol ) and girls were coming to me (thats when i got the hand job). But after I got into a car accident. I LOST ALL THE WEIGHT, i went back to being skinny again. And then, fuck man, fuck.

I just feel there's a personality shift I could use. Girls dont care about looks or class otherwise there wouldn't be all these rough lookin baboons/fat ass kids losing their shit in 7th grade while talking shit. There's something these people are doing that they find charming. In my ghetto ass hood, there's something the fearless thugs and the harmless romeo's have in common.

To me, you look like a person who hates himself.

First thing you have to learn in order to be successful with girls, is to like even love your own self! If you don't love yourself how can you expect anyone else to like you?

From what you wrote, you look like the kind of person who likes everyone but himself. You must change this. It's great to like people and even be nice to them (however not in the "please like me" way), but you must start to like yourself for who you are.

You are funny? That's excellent! Be funny, but not to entertain others, but to entertain and amuse yourself!
Being funny to make people like you will make you a dancing monkey. That is not very attractive. But making fun to enjoy yourself, to make yourself happy, will draw people to you.

Your problem (as far as I can understand) is the frame you are coming from. I know, cos' I've been there myself. Dancing monkey, making people laugh.

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dude there lying i was in middle school and everyone said they had sex one guy said he had sex with one of the teacher i have a cousin super perv who said he lost his virginity at ten i said wow to who he said u dont know her i said i know that why i asked he said some girl from my school we did it in the bathroom and i was stupid enough to believe the kids in my middle school i was the only guy admiting to being a virgin and atleast ur skinny i usto way a 300 pounds went down to 180 got my first kiss 17 then up to 200 bin stuck at this weight havent kisset a girl sense cause i bin angry about myself lately for gaining weight but now reading your forum i realized
that we just got do it when things get thought tthe though get going being pissed isnt going to help
dude thanks you helped me i want to help u

@blind. being funny to amuse myself? I've never thought of that. When I thought of funny I always thought of amusing others...Ive been taught not to seek approval but deep down I've always just wanted people to like/accept me. I feel this is very difficult to remove from a persons head (seeing as I feel that's a normal feeling).

Your the first person that told me i may not be happy with myself and your right. I always think to myself "What if I was like like will smith, or had the confidence of brad pitt, tupac or whoever". I always think to myself what if I was someone else. It's almost like I want to escape. Hell even my online identities ( a well known artist...Cisco is him) has more fame then Mark (me). What does Cisco do that Mark doesn't? All he does is draw/pixel very well and he worshiped by other artist because of it. Even multiple girls Cisco has never met have fallen in love with Cisco not because of him...but just because of his skill. True Story...I feel like life is about status...Girls will crawl to the super star basketball player just because he is very well known and they too want that status...Mark doesn't have that, but Cisco does. This world is crooked...

@vibe, I don't really understand your typing LOL, but it feels good knowing that reading my thoughts helped you feel better about yourself.

I have some sort of self-sacrificing trait as well. I feel better knowing others feel better. Idk...I may lose an argument or speak less knowing it will make someone else feel better. Yeah thinking about it now, makes me seem weak.

Lately I've been trying to think more like a king. Someone who is hungry for power. A chief, someone that's gets more than the necessary resources. In order to help me catch up to the other normal 20 year olds...Idk. Life is complicated. I'm not asking you guys for more though, you don't have respond any more. Perhaps that one hint from blind was enough to get me thinking on the right path.

Thanks, maybe ill get it sooner or later, hopefully ill solve this problem one of these days.

You don't need to want not to amuse others, you just need to see that amusing yourself will amuse others. You ever been around someone who's just fun to be around? Well you have every ability he has when it come to being fun, use it.
Reframe, try to apply that art to your offline life, Think "What would Cisco say/ do"

I was like that, I always felt apathetic toward myself, so if someone made a big deal about something "Eh, whatever, have it your way." You gotta realize, you have control over your own life, no one else does. If you don't go after what you want, no one else will.
Focus less on more, and more on more. Think about what you have now that you didn't have then, and watch as that always increases.

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You sound a bit like a "nice guy" to me. Are you assertive or are you often walked on by others?