hi guys......I've been dating this hb for a year and everythings been going great until recently we broke up, it was a neutral decision...she came back crying to me saying she wanted me back and i will admit i got oneitis from her, and took her back by talking to her again (i froze her out for 3 weeks, didnt reply to phone/text/etc..) we start talking a few days ago and she told me she wanted to be with me...but was not ready in a relationship(what the fuck does that mean?) and i told her to stop playing with my head (i was willing to take her back, im truly in love with her) and told her if she wants me to take me back, but im not letting her fuck with my emotions.....i got to the point where ive never seen myself do this but i lost my anger and couldnt control my emotions...i broke down crying to her and told her she was a sour bitch and all the hatred stuff feelings i had for her that she's done to mess with my emotions,but she knows i love her...but i went too far and told her that's the same exact reason her father left her mom because he couldnt stand the games she played, and thats why he didnt love her (she was always in comfort with me because her dad never told her he loved her) -saying this i hurt her sooo much, to the point she broke down crying (never saw her cry like this) and told me she hated me more than her father...i felt like such a dick and honestly felt soooo degrading for what i said...i honestly disrespected not only her, but myself and the way i treated her by saying that....i didn't realize how much it hurt her and i didn't know how powerful of the words they were meaning, but i hurt her and didn't think at the time when i said it... she told me she never wanted to talk to me EVER EVER EVER again, text/call anything, delete her number and everything....i felt like honest shit and she saw me cry when i said it,but a few hours later she called me when i was driving to my friends house to talk about the situation, and she asked me where i was going and said she'd accept my apology, but would never forgive me...then a few hours pass and she texted me with a ":'(" face.... and i replied with "i'm sorry" -

my question i'm asking, i really need your fellow pua advice, how bad did i screw this up? i am in love with her, i can move on and find other women, but everytime i think of her it's that oneitis feeling. i can see myself with her and she already knows i do PUA (thats how i found her) but she doesn't care i do it, she knows im good at it..but im at the point where i hurt someone i love so much, and there's no taking it back, but what can i do at this point? the only reason i am posting this, is because i feel low... i did something lower than low... and even my friend told me that, and i really have no idea what to do...i wish i could take it all back, but in reality i hurt her... i know most pua's will say move on and forget her, which i can do...but i honestly can't do that without feeling guilty for a long period of my life, how can i get her to accept my apology or at least (she loves me so much) do i have a chance for us to get back together?

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Well... what can I say.. You screwed up..

You shouldn't cry about your feelings to her that way, and try not to offend her..
But! I think you still have some chance..

If she would be really really angry, why would she call you? Or text you?
If she never wanted to see you again, she wouldn't have done that..

But, I can't say that everything is gonna be allright.. But I think it might happen!

Good Luck