Hey, don't really know were to even start. Guess I'll just write whatever is in my mind.
So, I'm 19 yo student from Europe, I think I'm good looking, 6.2 ft a bit skinny though, but I'm working on in, I go to gym and recently started taking some martial arts lessons. Also I'm looking for some sport that requires a team, probably ice-hockey etc. That's because when I was young, I've never been in a team, I played tennis, did some swimming and other individual sports. This probably leads to my first problem that bugs me. I'm not used to being in a team, which makes it difficult to find friends. I'll try to explain this in more detail.
When I was probably 13 yo, I had my first girlfriend, which i dated for 3 years. I was the first one from my class that had a girl, so, you know, I didn't really care what others thought, but they were probably jealous, because just a few of my classmates were talking to me, the others were just negging. During my 3 year ralationship, I also dated 2 other girls, though it wasn't something serious, just chating making jokes and text messaging. haha, it makes me smile now. So after i broke up with all of them, I really changed, I became very closed, because I realized, that I hadn't had anything more in my life but just them. So, for a few years I had only a couple of true friends, that were very similar to me (now we don't communicate a lot) and no girlfriends, just a few girls that I kept as friends. One was really close to me, and I kinda liked her, but I was scared to make her my girlfriend, though she was definetely giving me IOI's. She knew about me very much and helped me a lot mentally. We still talk, but rarely. I think also one of the reason why I became so unsociable, because I live in a small country and almost everybody knows each other, so I didn't wan't to let everybody know me, because I thought about myself that I... I don't know how to explain it. I thought that I was different from all the others, but now I know what's the real deal.
MY LIFE CHANGING EXPERIECE!!! Last summer, accidentely I got in my hands Neil Strauss written book THE GAME. As I was lying on the beach by the sea I read all the book, my head was overheating of all those ideas and opportunities, but I still wasn't sure that it was a true thing. So that summer I didn't take any step forward, only working on my mind and building a new ME. During the winter time, I got some new friends, started going out a lot more, building up confidence and on one party, I got really lucky, I made out with two girls and got laid. A whole new world opened.
A month ago I decided to give it another chance and read the book again, only this time overthinking it in more detail and decided to browse internet about PUA. That's how I got here.
I still don't think about myself as a PUA, and actually I don't wan't to be one, not that it's a bad thing, I just think that it's not for me ( I don't like to keep on holding on one thing in my life), I just think that PU is a very useful thing to becoming a much more succesful person! Making our life more adventurous and not being like all the others
Your replies are more than welcome
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