i'm at my tipping point,

i've spent my last three years in high school tryin to figure this shit out, and just when i thought i had it, i fuckin fell flat on my face. don't know what to do. All i'm askin for is some guidance... i honestly dont know where to go. I feel like i've tried it all. i really want to handle this part of my life before i'm off to college.

Thanks guys

be a bit more specific.

well my goal has always been to just be great with women and have an awesome lifestyle. I think i've spent too much time reading random bullshit that threw me in the wrong direction, and i'm trying to "empty my teacup" if you will and restart in the right direction. i feel like i've become a machine of technicalities and have lost the ability to actually be myself and enjoy the interaction. problem is, i don't know what "myself" is (so cliche lol).
for example, i was with this girl tonight and the entire time i just felt like i wasn't being myself but instead this "trying to be cool pick up machine" that kept on n coming up with clever lines and doin stupid shit like when i kicked her out of my car as a joke, or we walked into the woods and hooked up. after we hooked up though she was acting distant and i found out from her friends that she felt i "wasn't being genuine"

1. Work out who you are and accept it
2. If you arent happy with certain aspects of your life, work out why, how to fix them and then fix them
3. Continually reflect on your life, where its going and make adjustments as per necessary to keep it awesome
4. Once you're happy with yourself, attracting girls will become much easier