im curious as to why you werent being yourself in the first place?

as i said before i think its probly because i dont have the confidence to just be myself yet and im still having the illusion that i have to behave myself when around girls i like or else they wont like me.

although most of the girls i had knew who i where as a person before we hooked up, basically im saying only 1 girl from all o the girls i had was a stranger to me before we got attracted to each other , all the other times i always werent interested in them or at least wasnt showing them, and we we're hanging out a couple of times.

and one more thing, im have a very direct form of telling people what i want as being myself, and that tends to scare off a lot of people. for instance a girl got so frustrated by me not responding to her hitting on me that she cracked and asked me angry,"do you want to have a relationship with me?" akward....

the way i see it, my biggest problem is not that i dont have girls in my life or that im not likeable amongst them its that i dont know how to take it from there, i need to get experience on my side and the only way thats gonna happen is if i go and meet lots of girls, go on dates etc.

i've always gone by, if you're serious about a relationship with the girl, you might as well be yourself because its going to come out eventually. if she doesnt like who you really are, then it doesnt go anywhere and you've saved yourself a lot of time and effort. sure she might be everything you like, but if she cant accept who you are, then the relationship wont go anywhere.

F*CK, i saw a bunch of pictures uploaded days ago... and ive seen it with my own eyes, the mistery dude is real. it is long distance, he exists and the pictures show that she loves him and he's a fucking weird ass looking motherfucker... i can tell that he fucked a couple of girls on the side right away just from the pictures, so FUUUUUUUU.

well what can i say , learn my lesson and if she doesnt look like omg i really fell in love with this girl just ditch the situation from the start and dont bother to hassle trying to think what she wants , trying to make something that is simple in something complicated, eating my heart out and shit... if its not good from the start dont bother.

although i was really into her , im gonna stop everything with her period.

That's life .

Peace.

Vio.