| Hello all,
Im Eculeus I'll get the usual intro out of the way.
*I am Currently Located in San Diego
*Im 22
*I just read Niel Strauss "The Game"
*I can't say I have ever studied Pickup however, I have never had a huge problem with girls until recently.
*Hobbies/passion: Drawing, Hunting
*Goals here are to just be overall good with people. And obviously meeting/attracting women.
Ok so my backstory: I grew up in a small town where It was pretty easy to be alpha. During Highschool (like I said small town) I knew every girl there and I had the higschool girls down, so sleeping with them was easy. Even in other small towns it was really easy to go and pick up chicks. My Junior year I started dating a girl from my town, we hit it off and I was in complete control, looking back I was manipulative I just don't think I realized it at the time. She fell hard for me, and I loved her too but at the time I didn't care, regretfully I cheated on her several times.
Due to my occupation I was obligated to move to San Diego. This is where things fell apart for me...
This girl and I continued to date, even though she knew I had cheated on her. Then it just got harder and things went off and on... I really started to fall hard for this chick. During our breakups I met a few girls in San Diego. I dated a couple, broke them off when they pulled out the L word. At this point I compare every girl to her, and can't get over her. Had sex with 5-6 girls during the year of the Breakup.
Fast forward another year, I have to leave the states for a few months. I visit home before leaving. And end up seeing her, we hit it off again. For 3 weeks its like nothing had changed and everything was great- BACK IN LOVE!
I neglected to ask if she was seeing anyone at the time, I assumed we were back together. So I leave the country for a few months.
Month 2 of being away I find out the whole time she had been dating someone. And she say's she cant talk to me. "Ok this sucks" however I have to do my job, so I break off contact with her.
I return in 2010 I visit home, shes still with the guy, her and I end up hanging out: Same story, but this time everything is sneaking around having sex in cars, bathrooms blah blah.. I leave no one finds out, we stay in contact.
I leave the country again. No contact until January of 2011... I find out she has broken it off with her boyfriend, and like an AFC I ask what about "us" she tells me she doesnt have those feelings for me anymore. This just crushed me...(I need explainations, why do I feel like this??) The last few months have been pretty low. I used to be able to do anything and this girl would still love me, now not so much.
*SORRY THIS IS SO LONG*
And finally reach now... As it seems very clear this is a prime example of one-itis Sob Fucking Story. A friend out here loaned me the book the game, I read it and immediately knew I had to find out more. So I jumped online and found several websites that discuss PU but, this one grabbed my attention the most. I feel like I haven't dealt with women in forever, and im headed back to the states soon, I just don't want to be an AFC anymore (that is really hard for me to admit) I feel like I don't even know who I am anymore, back in the day I would have said "whatever" and moved on.
So here I am, willing to learn, however I am not able to go out and use anything at the moment. This will mostly be theory and learning until I return home!
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