Okay so this is something I still have not figured out. I can get attraction pretty easily its almost nothing now. Cute chicks and even dudes (im not gay) come up to me all the time saying how pretty I am. I am meeting people all the time. Got most theory down. But here's the problem. I want a gf and Ive never had a satisfying relationship. All the girls that ive been with long term have gamed me basically or they loved me but I definitely did not love them back. my whole life every girl that i've wanted to be serious with has turned me down. Now recently i've been able to hook up with some hot interesting ladies. But I can never keep the flame stroked. It always dies out within a week.

For example last week i met two girls. We basically had a threesome the night of meeting they dont live that far but I swear it has been so hard to get round two. A while back I had a one night stand with this girl at a work conference we hooked up one more time and I swear she liked me so much at first did not want me to leave her but yeah I dont know what I did it just ceased ya know? Im getting really emotionally hurt and I know i should just toughen up but every girl in my life friend or lover disappears within a year. Never had a stable relationship im not really that stable of a person but like I just want some sort of a decent relation ship with a girl. Im really hot have an athletic body girls say im huge ive never been ashamed of the physical but Ive had a history of depression mood disoreder ocd and adhd. I dont know if thats the problem though? Ok Even last night this guy said I was the perfect one night stand? LOl wtf is this all I want is a decent relationship with a girl I like not some ugly girl who likes me. I want more control of my dating life and even though ive been studying theory since 07 I still dont get laid on the regular so maybe its not my good game? Maybe im just getting lucky? Fuck that I dont want to get lucky I want to be the guy that can choose the girl he wants out of the crowd and make her mine. What should i do?

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aiden k. baker