i have not recieved any responses,, so im posting this again, as i am disturbed.

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please guys, I'm in need of advice. help me understand what is going on. and why.. i know the game, but i have a problem.

recently, i have been reading various sex stories online... i love to read, and when i came to find out about sex stories, i found it interesting, and erotic

as of late, i came across cuckold sex stories, having heard this term before in several porno's , i knew what it meant, but still had only limited knowledge on the topic ... i started to read some of cuckold sex stories.

here is the problem.. i find it very erotic.. i actually get hard reading it, and find it sexually erotic... i can Imagine my self in both places, the alpha and the bitch... what scares me is i think i find the "bitch" position more of a turn On.


i know the game, i know what is at stake....

i know that happens when a guy lets a girl take control of the relationship, these cuckold stories just show me that even more.

i know PUA, i agree with it, even as a child, i never agreed with my female elders that i should pay for a women, pull out her chair, give her special SPAM.

even as a child, being around women so much, i found there feelings of entitlement to be un-American.. and very distasteful

even as a little kid, i never agreed with the "girls can hit boy, but boys cant hit girls" rule........

when i was 11, my teacher was forcing us to pull out chairs for the girls in class, after lunch......i was the only boy to tell teacher that it was sexist to do that,, the other boys agreed, so she made the girls pull out the chairs for us.. (after that day, she never attempted to have any one pull out chairs for any one ever again.)

Why, am so so turned on my these cuckold sex stories??.... when i think about being in the place of the bitch, it turns me on so much, that i could bust very fast..... (i also get turned on, Imagining my self as the alpha in the story, but not nearly as much)

i am fairly good at resisting a women's manipulations, but girls have gotten the better of me before, even since learning pua... (it's almost like a trick,, wow, women really do play mind games, don't they)

i Think i would never allow my self to be a cuckold, i don't think i would...but at the same time, what if i would?.... what if find the sexual, what ever it is I'm feeling, addicting?.

i don't know what to think, i feel confused....

on one hand, i could never seem my self letting that bull-shyt fly.

on the other hand.. i guess i could...

on the other hand i see my self being the "bull".. the alpha, in the fantasy

and yet, i feel i may be more addicted to the bitch side of the fantasy.

on the other hand i see my self walking out, and dumping her and saying "your not good looking enough to put up with that" (no girl is)

i already feel fairly addicted to these cuckold sex stories... i find my self wanting to read them...

Why am i so turned on by this?

what is wrong with me?... i know the rules, i know the game.

WTF is wrong with me?... please help, this is bothering me, allot

why do i feel this way?.. what the hell is wrong with me?... i get so turned on by it, its disturbing.

please help, i need advice, something to help my work this out in my own mind.
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Info about me.

age 22.

knowledge level of pua - intermediate

number of girls i have had sex with - 4

total times having sex - 4

number of Blow-jobs - 2

hand jobs - 1

top HB i had sex with was a 7.9

current sexual status: none

main issues with not getting laid: logistical, no car, bad house, limited friends group.


- first time i learned about cuckold was in an interracial porn site.... the girls were much hotter then i seen on most sites.....

in these interracial porno's, sometimes there as a white guy there, being cuckolded..... i find it Weird, and a huge turn off.....

seeing these guys being cuckold, made it hard to jerk off to these hot girls... it was a turn off.

i now find those old videos to be slightly more erotic, maby even noticeably more erotic, but i still focus more on the girl and imagining me being the one to fark her... sometimes... hmmmm........

i no longer look at those video's with cuckold in them, as i got bored with the girls on the site, and moved on.

i also read one hot sex story, about a hot girl getting plowed in front of her father, because she had dirt on him , and would tell the mom... the dad got cuckolded, but at time, i did not focus on the fathers pain,, i focused on how hot it must of been to be the lucky guy , banging the girl....... now i focus on both.. disturbing.

Please help me.. i know the rules of pua, i have agreed with them since child-hood, even though before i found pua, i was forced to supress those idea's (my aunt hit me with an ad-hominum attack, when i said i didnt want to pull out chairs and pay, and stuff)

of course, now i stick to my guns, and as ussual, most girls accept my rejection of there entitlemnt syndrom, even if i verbalize it

- but what about these cuckuld thought i seem to be having?

what the hell is wrong with me?

help!

Why do you think there is something wrong with you? So you are getting into the cuckold fantasy, so what. It's just an erotic 'fantasy' that you enjoy, it doesn't define you as a person.

I know an individual that is submissive in bed, but throughout his daily routine, he is a complete Alpha. He can game women with the best PUAs out there, but he enjoys slipping into the submissive role behind closed doors. It's like a switch he can turn off/on.

I have also read stories about CEOs of major corporations that are into bondage. You would expect these corp executives to play the 'master' role in this type of fantasy, but 95 percent of the time they enjoy being the slave (this goes for men and women). Why? Because these individuals spend their day ordering people around and being a 'slave' gives them the opportunity to relinquish control....it is a form of 'release' for them. After it's all said and done, the suit goes back on and they are back to work calling all the shots.

I am not a head shrink or medical doctor, so I can't answer your 'what is wrong with me' question...however, i don't think you need to beat yourself up over it either.

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Keep people off-balance and in the dark by never revealing the purpose behind your actions. - Robert Greene

thank you for the reply... it does make me feel better about these types of thoughts.

i guess i am worryed about these types of thoughts, bleeding into the real world.

many people would say. that if you let a girl cuckold you,, or give her the impresstion that your into it,, she will lose respect for you,, and the relashionship will spiral out of control... i guess i am worried about that

. for example... on yahoo awnsers, i read this girl, who posted that she and her Ex- boyfriend were doing cuckold fantasys,, and she lost respect for him, and they broke up,, she also let it bleed out of the bed room, and into regular life

i think many people, who know about pua, might say,, if you let a girl be dominant in the bed room,, or let her cuckold you in any way, she will lose respect for you,,, this girl's post, on yahoo awnsers, does seem to fit this description

the girl said, over time , she realized, she did lose respect for her boyfriend... and that contributed to the break up,, that is one of a few fears i have about these types of fantasys, and thoughts.

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allow me to post an example of what im reading.

"warning this may too descriptive."

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"Tommy, you may give Jill her orgasm, but if you climax in her vagina, we will have to give you some additional punishment!!! "Oh, no," he groaned to himself, "if he shot his nut, that bitch Priscilla would grab him by his nuts and squeeze them until he passed out!!!" "Did you hear me, Thomas," she repeated?!? "Y-yes, mistress," he stammered, "I-I won't cum in her vagina!!!" It was pure torture for him, the lithe body of Jill was bouncing up and down on his pole as she drove herself to orgasm, while he on the other hand, was forced to try and keep his prick from emptying his seed inside of her!!!


On the other side of the room, Vera was nearing her own climax thanks to the talented tongue of pussy whipped Jack!!! "How is he," asked Priscilla, "I trained him myself!?!" "He's wonderful," Vera said between shallow breaths, "h-he knows just exactly where my clit is!!!" Around the rest of the room, everyone had casually begun to masturbate while watching the two women being pleasured by the submissive pussy males!!! Jill was the closest to orgasm, and her soft moans had turned into loud if not vociferous groans as she bore down on the thick pecker that was impaling her tight vagina!!! "Oh, god," she groaned loudly, "he's so fucking big, he's splitting me in half," while at the same time, several of the women in the audience couldn't hold back either, as the sight of seeing the cute little ass moving up and down drove them over the edge along with Jill!!! For Tommy, on the other hand, it was total agony!!! The little bitch riding his cock had taken no mind about his predicament, and had used him for her own personal fuck doll!!! Gritting his teeth and trying in vain to think about other non sexual things, as Jill settled hard onto his meat, he erupted in a violent cock numbing orgasm, that filled the little blonde's cunt with a gusher of cum!!! Everyone in the room grew silent almost at once, realizing that Tommy had failed control himself as Priscilla had ordered!!! As his shrinking cock slipped from the slippery cunt, Priscilla intoned evenly, "Thomas, you are in a world of trouble!!!

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this story,, makes me want to take out the lube,, and go to town.. and im botherd by that,... i dont like having these types of fantasys,, becuase i know the risks, and what it may mean... and i dont want to give up control.

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im still trying to work this out,,, i feel i need to work this out in my mind,, to find out why, i feel so turned on , by these types of storys......

i would never want this to happan to me in real life,,, but at the same time.......

sigh, hopefuly i can figure out, why this is such a turn on.,, and get it out of my head.

i would much rather enjoy,male domination stories,, instead.. but im having trubble getting into it.

ive been trying to read, male master, female slave sex stories, but i cant seem to get nearly as into it.

any one have any other help they can give me?.. im still fairly botherd by this.

i had to look it up, lol.

what the fuck is it?

women leading men around in dog collars? or is there more to it?

i included a sample of what i have been reading... check the third post in this thread.. middle section.. it bothers me, that i am so turned on by this.

first off. i'm not into the whole domination and submission thing, but i know a lot of people are. i'm not for personal reasons. as a kid, i was physically abused, so i don't find anything arousing about exercising violent power over another person or vice versa. until recently, i even had a hard time giving girls the "rough sex" that many of them desire, it felt like i was "abusing" them. i'm slowly getting over that.

that being said, it's very easy to understand why you would find the female domination story arousing, but not the male domination story. the matter of fact is that whoever is in "control", the other person (or the one being controlled) is the "object of desire". who among us doesn't want to be an "object of desire"? it doesn't necessarily mean you are some sort of queer or something, idk, only you know that. it just sounds like a manifestation of wanting to be "wanted". being wanted is a huge turnon. actually, i miss that. submissive girls are all good. but my first girlfriend ever, who was also the biggest nympho i've ever know was extremely aggressive in bed. we both were. it was like give and take. and there were times when she used me like a piece of meat to satisfy herself. that's awesome! of course, it didn't involve being tied up and having my manhood tortured, lol.

i would say just to chill. and i agree with what Sinful said, i know that to be the truth. i've dated women like that. who were powerful or feminists, or both, who wanted nothing more than to be fucked "like a little whore" in the bedroom.

thanks for the replys,, ill think about what you guys said