Okay... Thing is I had plans for going out today. But I really fucked up this exam and I'm so tired I can hardly type. There's no way I'm gonna have enough energy to approach anyone. Instead, for the first time since days, I'm going to take a nice rest. No studying, no gaming, just a day to finally relaxate and let this tension leave me as it would consume me shortly. Tomorrow, I might push myself double as hard as I would normally. I'm going to have the energy for that. But not now.

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It's good to relax and have a break from time to time.
Here's a playlist for you: http://8tracks.com/lytebryte25/songs-to ... ceiling-to (Songs to lie on your bed and stare at the ceiling to)

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Thanks. This really helps me relax. Have a nice day! cheers

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Yay I passed my Biometrics exam. Only 2 more left... Chemistry and Biophysics. It is soon over and then the Game will go on for it has to.

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Gentlemen, I am pleased to hereby announce I have passed all of my exams. Tomorrow I have to go back to the university because I need some subjects to be signed. Now that there is literally nothing urgent I should be doing besides this, after I'm done I'll take my time to game before I go home. At home... Well that city sucks altough my wing is there so we will be trying, and doing our very bests. At night we will be soooo drunk it won't be acceptable, socially, morally, or in any other means. I need this to forget the big pile of shit that I had to carry on my back at the end of this semester, and I haven't been out at night since New Year's Eve. A report and a classical, huge hangover is coming soon. See ya!

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Day X The day of supreme dedication.

I call this Day X because yesterday might be the most important day during my journey even if I didn't actually 'game'. I've decided that I will change my fucked up life entirely, not exclusively talking about game. Okay so I'm finished with the semester but my results are not at all good. I know it counts good if I can manage to somehow even pass at a medical university, but I know what I'm capable of and that is far better than this, I've just been a lazy bitch during this semester. For gaming I will split much energy for taking action wherever and whenever I can. Me and my wing are planning on buying something to remember ourselves of the road we're on. A necklace, a ring or something like that. The spark I've been missing, now I feel it. This time, it is not going to last for a week I'll make sure. Report coming in the afternoon and from now on every day except for exam days and Thursdays because I'll be at schoool from 8.a.m to 7.p.m which is going to kill me

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Reminds me of the totem from Inception Great idea actually. I'll think about one too!

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Yeah that's totally the point, similar to Inception I'd been sick during the weekend and until yesterday after that crazy Friday superdrunk party, I didn't know that the human body can handle so much alcohol lol, also caught a cold, pretty tough one I had high fever. Now:
1) I'm done with celebrating
2) I'm back at the university
3) I'm not sick anymore
4) I don't have exams or anything else that is urgent to study for
5) In conclusion: The excuses, relevant and not, are off the board.
6) Right after this post, I'm not posting here anymore unless it is actually a report. I'm stopping writing about why I didn't go out today or in the last 2 days even if I had good reasons it doesn't matter because it's just a way of mental masturbation which must be stopped before it takes over me. It is pleasant and convinient to say 'I couldn't go out today because of bla bla bla but after this is solved I will get myself into it with superintense', but I pretty much had enough of it. I'm usually sick once a year or even less, so that won't come around soon, exams are far, basicly, there is nothing, there is NOTHING that is stopping me now if tomorrow there is AMYTHING, that's just ME. If I can't do it tomorrow, I planned a little punishment for myself. It's a secret I won't tell because hopefully I won't need it. It's nothing serious but sure a good enough one to give me motivation. Also I'm planning on some rewards if I do well on the field. Now see you tomorrow.

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