I never thought I'd be signing up for a forum dedicated to picking up women. I'm sure that comes up a lot here.

Let me first start by saying I've never had much trouble with girls before. I've opted mostly for the friend-of-a-friend or fish in a barrel in the past, which resulted in a lot of drama in the case of dating within my social circle and a lot of fat chicks / seriously screwed up chicks when I've found them otherwise. I'm not a virgin, but the girls I've been with I haven't been very attracted to, if at all.

I'm a good looking guy. I'm always complemented on that. The problem is, I went to a private school in my younger years with basically two cliques: the rich kids and everyone else. I made friends with the everyone-else. That got me thinking from a very young age that I wasn't good enough and didn't deserve good things. Don't get me wrong, I love my friends. They're great people. But the scars are still there. I wasn't even 13 when I submitted to the belief that I wasn't good enough for christ's sake.

I know now that that's total bullshit. I've read some material on PU and appreciate it now, though I was genuinely convinced that it was a load of BS at first, like it was just some gimmick that was so out in the open now that I'd be called out on it if I ever tried using the information.

I was wrong. I did a little experiment a week ago. Normally, I go out with my friends most nights of the week. If I'm drunk enough, I'll go up to a group of girls and start making an ass of myself. I'd say something rude, needy, or just plain stupid. It never worked. What I did differently this past time was actually preparing a few things to say and talk about... just a couple good openers and a general routine. It made a world of difference. I didn't close or anything, that was never my goal. My goal was just to have a positive interaction on a cold approach with the opposite sex.

What I learned over the past month or so was that what's offered by the seduction community in general isn't a formula set in stone. It's a bunch of ideas that, if applied, can increase your ability to interact with ANYONE, not just women. It's about being confident, knowing what to do, and actually having something to say.

I look forward to learning from all of you and getting better at this. I am, at this point, recovering from a serious case of oneitis (another friend-of-a-friend). I know now, after reading, how the whole mess went wrong. I gave her everything and she turned me down for that very reason. I let her ruin me. I handed her my balls on a silver platter.

I don't want to be limited to the girls that happen to cross my path. I want to decide who I'm with, not leave it up to chance and circumstances.

Here's to getting my balls back.