So I gamed this girl last saturday and she was really into me, I k-closed that night, then all week we talked until Thursday when we hung out and I got some excellent head. The following night she came to a party at my buddy's house that I invited her too and...yeah same deal. So I couldn't complain. But, I realized we had only hung out with something in our systems, but were always sober by the time we would be doing anything physical, but at that time we were so full of passion that we would talk about where this was going and she asked if I was afraid of the word "boyfriend" and we talked about how long until we have sex (cause I'm a virgin and she loves that) and then yesterday she texted me that talking about what was going to happen was uncomfortable for her. The physical stuff is fine but we should just let this gets where it needs to go naturally. She also doesn't wanna kiss in front of people...well I mean she does...but not as often, but that's because we're usually all over each other and she felt like she was making everyone in the room uncomfortable so we'd just go to her room so that's not as big a deal, but I dunno I've known her a week I guess we did move too fast, but when she asked me to come over last night when we were both drunk I feel like I gave her power by still choosing to go see her after she said we should take it slower. I wanna keep this girl I like her a lot. Now I'm going onto winter break and she lives 4 hours away so I think I'll back off talking to her over this break...I guess as a way to back off.

Thoughts?

addendum: I double-texted her once yesterday cause her phone was broken and I didn't realize it. I feel like that didn't throw the monkey-wrench into the whole thing, but I'm definitely losing power. As sad as it is, I see the fact she let me finger her but didn't give me anything (I didn't ask...but still) last night was a sign that she owns me. So I'm going to have to re-assert dominance over break. I'm going out with a couple girls and going to a bunch of parties so I'll be able to use the "sorry I gotta talk later I'm busy" or "yeah last night I was out with my friend (girl name) and we went ice-skating or dinner or a movie or bowling or whatever" and I'll use that little bit of jealousy to drive a wedge in between me and her finger.

also she wants to take it slow, however she doesn't want to rush solely because we've known each other a week and we got really really close (i did comfort really quick...I used game on her and she wanted to fuck right away, but I don't know how to turn the game off and go into working for a relationship mode) and she doesn't want to rush into things and ruin it cause she "has a lot of fun with me and is crushing on me"....so I dunno if she's feeding me bullshit or I'm overthinking...I'm very good friends with her best friend and I've been assured there are no other guys in her life and she likes talking to me.

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