Man, dude, you know, i'm figuring out more and more everyday some of the old shit i used to do. Man, today we had some emerging leaders program at my school. I saw some cute girls in there, and i saw speaking loud as my chance to impress and win them over. This shit is so weak man. I'm forgetting the reason why i need to do this. Talk to women any more, it's like I know i can get them, but it's not the way i look, speak, or dress that fucks me over. It's the way I act..... The dude who ran the show saw that I was trying to impress instead of express. Everyone there was so real besides me. I was so fake man. I felt like a dummy. Who the fuck am I trying to impress. Why am I chasing these women?? Who am I really fooling but me?? I'm just so embarrased of my self. I can't believe that I've stooped so low.

I am in control of my self, my destiny, me....

Such profound wisdom in such a short phrase

I kinoed hard twice today, well not hard, just overt kino one. It was the dumbest thing I think i've done so far. But it's time to send my self to the pua sluaghtering fields.

Today I went to Jessica to game her hard. It kinda sucked. I did a number of wrong things today. For one, my compliance testing sucked. I kino, wayyyy too fast. I came right up to her, and after about a minute I picked up where i left off from last time. I warpped my arm around her shoulder after like a minute. She pushed it off, I talked for a few minutes, and then tried again. She pushed it off yet again. Then she told me, "I don't even know you, what if I have a bf??" I said, "Well you can get to know me. Lets start off with each other's names. Your names is?" She said, "Jessica, yours?" "Dave." Shook hands , tried to hold her hand, and she slowly retracted it. Then she asked me, "do you just goup to random girls, and wrap your arm around them? Are you that confident?" I said," I'm just trying to show i'm interested." She said,' why are you so interested ??" "Well i'm trying to look for characteristics. To see if I'm interested." She was like, "Why are yo uso close??" I was like, "you nervous??? " She was like, "No not really.....well yes..." She was busy, I had to go to class. I tried to get a hug b4 I left. She was like, "you touched me 3 times, take that as your hug." I was like, "oh it's like that?" "yeah...." I left, don't know if I blew this set or not. Pretty sure I did. Escalated super fast. I was so uncalibrated. maybe I came off desperate?? Idk man.

Did some kino later with debbie, arm around shoulder thing again, she was like, I'm trying to learn, which we were in class. I tried twice. She was like, "ok, serously." So yeah.

This pretty much what I did today.

I think the thing that upset me the most, is the fact that I'm falling for the girls in there. I'm so stupid and desperate, doing the whole whoreitis thing. The girls were so sexy, hard working, and overaching. Couldn't help but to put them on a pedastal, compared to all the other dumb girls I talk to. Fuck man, I need to get the hell outta shit trap. I don't even understand what's happening. I was trying hard to impress those two girls. And I feel kinda dumb doing that shit. I'm i don't even know....... I'm falling into the old stuff i used to do 3 months ago. God damn it.

whoreitis (crushing hard on more then one girl, just because they are hot and cool)

Wow, I know the older guys say this much more often, but you truly don't understand this stuff until you look at the previous 4 months of screw ups. Be a challenge?? man I couldn't even grasp that concept until now.

It's just like anything else, expect that you could win them or lose them. Remain indifferent as to the outcome.....

So today, for the first time ever, I did something related to night game. I went to a random house party my friend sent a text to... It was ok, but it kinda blew at the same time. Took forever for the dj to hook up the music. I was so outta place, I introduced my self to a few people. My friend Jim didn't show up to the party he texted me to..... But it was all good. I sat there, introducing my self to some random people. I talked to a few girls at local colleges, ran into some old classmates. It was all good. I did some kino unlike before. It was ok, it wasn't enough to get a girl horny. I finally understand why I have to go to night game more often. I actually touched a girls thighs and hips on the dancefloor. My escalation with this girl was all off, I was touching her tits and ass in like two seconds . It was horrible. Nonetheless I learned some cool stuff at that party. Girls were blocking me from dancing with their friends, meet some cool ass guys there, the dj, and a cool highschooler that gets down. Highschooler is probably getting laid right now..... But at any rate, other then trying repeadetly to get girls to dance with me, the one dance I did get taught me what I was missing. For the first time I had a girl in my arms, and her ass on my cock. Didn't even know wtf to do with it all. It was so strange and new to me. I have much more to learn. I need to go to clubs and house parties more often.....

I think I will take up more hobbies. I was recently given and oppurtunity to do acting.

1.) Invent stuff
2.) Act
3.) Write Stories

I took a break from being the outgoing social guy today. I tried to stay by my self, and the most difficult part is that people kept wanting to hang out with me today . So much for being alone. Anyways, I didn't really sarge today, one of my bi-friends was looking at this other girl and she was super nervous, so I went to talk to her instead. She was cool, think I remember her name being ashley. Ashley seemed loose, so I just kinoed her a bit. I didn't really feel like trying to game her, so I just left and went home. Pretty much today I didn't do much, hung out with my boy dro and his friends, and hung out with some other student government members. Finished making my work outs too. So it's all good now. I'm pretty much gonna chill on the on campus sarging.

After reading your thread I get you now.
You make much more sense to me now.
I totally understand why you would want to fall back and regroup.
Great thread by the way.
I can definitely take some cues from you.

I haven't been on the forums for a while, though i've been on flash chat. A recent malfunction in the site prevented me from posting a lot of gold. However, i'm back. I've decided to take a break from the constant looking around, searching, and intentionally going out to search for women. This relaxed state has actually helped my game. I now have a few girls after me, but not the ones i want . I also recent went through a dumb ass situation with this quiet girl. So I just moved on from that one.

Anywayz, my boy has a party coming up, female to male ratio is like 3:1. So i'm intending to have fun, and hopefully other things will happen that night .

It's a concept that I have just discovered from all my previous interactions. I noticed the sets I was a bit more playful with and daring that I had better things going for me. I've come with a new personal concept, I have been testing it a bit, it goes with a concept that Madals posted earlier called eve theory. This entails raising the value of all those around you. However, this concept of testing women does not quite follow this concept.

My original genesis of this idea came shortly after I had realized that negging women sucks. And the reason I say negging sucks, well it's the simple fact that negging is a sort of reactionary solution. In other words, guys are trying to protect and save social status in this mode. The idea of this is simply horrible. My reason for believing this is simple. With the mindset you have from negging, you are trying to climb a ladder and get up to the woman's level. However, my concept of testing her, and seeing her reactions, you’re the one throwing down the ladder, and watching her climb up your ladder. In this situation the man is in control of himself, not worried about what the female says next. His primary concern in this mode of consciousness is self-expression, and screening. Two major concepts to any man's game.

However, this is a BIG warning, this concept of testing a woman, and seeing her reaction to your actions. I have tried this out on about 5 girls, not nearly enough to fully grasp the concept yet. However, while testing this shit out, I've discovered that it works best with the "bad girls". The nice sensitive girls I've used this on thought I was insulting them. The rational girls thought it a bit immature. So know when to use this. I think this concept is a matter of calibration rather then a matter of knowing when and when not to use it.

It's kinda playful, so yeah, just a thought, maybe good or not, it's work for me, and I’m just saying what's working for me. By putting a woman in a game and playing with her, you make it more fun for the woman, and make her chase. Making a game out of this instead of making it a war is also useful in my opinion. So, I think that's a good thing in my opinion. Some may like, ideas are welcome, as well as opinions. I'm open to criticisms. So it's just one of my new ideas about game.

This is not a concept for most, but it's something that helps me out with my interactions. This idea entails that all interactions have a speed and pace to them. This stuff of course is not ground breaking, and other guys probably have it out there. So my idea on this is that a person must actively engage the timing in the interaction. I don't recommend this to people who can't understand some more basic ideas. I've just began to grasp basic concepts. So I’m coming up with a bunch of terms to help me remember the concepts my self. I consider the idea of the pendulum critical; it's a rhythm in which you swing back and forth with. This will help to make interactions regardless of intentions more smooth and able to transition. I often have a rhythm in which I have conversations in. Which is why I say to every guy to go find his own rhythm.

I consider the awareness of timing to be a critical concept, and one in which every man must balance. It's another form of non-verbal communication in which people must understand. The community focuses heavy on concepts of verbal, and kinesics communication. Timing is also mentioned, and many concepts behind it, but I have personally taken it upon my self to give timing an extremely high value. Timing to me is everything. Being aware of it and how it affects people is also critical.

A person must use time as their ally, and use it as a force to shape interactions. I will study this concept more thoroughly, but I think I have found my own personal pot of gold. Timing is not just for when or where you meet, but how fast or slow convos go, how and when you want to move some where else. How you present your self is even an issue of timing. To match the timing of those around you is critical. And I think my greatest issues in opening have been one of timing, and tone. Those are make or breaks in your approaching period. This is not something I think newer guys like a month or two in should get bogged down in. However, I think once a person begins to understand the basics, time should be a visited subject.

So yeah, another probably noob concept, that I my self am just discovering. I welcome commentary, and opinions. They will be greatly appreciated here .

So my current plans for next week, are to steadily build up a force of sarging until the next friday after this one. It will occur over time, and steadily build up towards that day. I will sarge hardcore for the next couple of weeks to get me into the mood for the 19th. This strategy is what I call the build up .