So far so good. This journal is really starting to look very developed.

As for something you can do to make you feel like you're making a fool of yourself, one very simple thing to do is dance around like a dumb happy fuck. Doing something like this will look and feel completely normal within a club or a busy New Orleans street, but do it anywhere else and you'll feel silly. Go ahead and embrace the silly.

So i finally came up with a basic list. Tell me if it's straight or not. I like my list, all though i'm not looking for an LTR. I definately like these traits. I would like to remain friends with the girls I fuck to keep some stable pussy around me. So this
is my list. I'm going to make two, physical list, and traits list. So, bear with me......

1.) Respectful
2.) Reliable
3.) Trustworthy, loyal, supportive
4.) Smart, Intelligent
5.) No drama, childish games, and doesn't try to start bull shit.
6.) Kinky, nymphomatic, likes dirty kinky sex
7.) Can keep secrets, and keep shit quiet/ on the low
8.) Likes to try new shit in the bedroom
9.) Tri-sexual..., i don't care too much for her being open with it. (Guys, gals, and willing to try shems.....)
10.) Likes to try new things in general. Have fun doing new activities, like star gazing, or walks through nature.
11.) Adventurous, likes a sense of danger, exciting, and spontaneous. (Likes to have fun).
12.) Passionate, and Charismatic
13.) Can let things go, and understand that i'm not perfect.
14.) Challenges me and others around her to be better people.
15.) Has some character and integrity (Where needed). Doesn't have to be all innocent and church girlish, but has some sort of understanding of dos and dont's.
16.) Into exploring new cultures and understanding different ways of life.
17.) Into being just friends that like to hang out, chill with each other, help each other, and fuck. Nothing more...
18.) Into natural beauty, and appreciative of life.

So there are a couple of types i'm willing to try.

1.) Slim and petite girls with tight bodies and a soft face. Tits don't have to be big, asses just nice and shaped well.

2.) Thick girls, kinda busty, with out the guts though, or at least the big ones. Nice faces.

3.) Girls with nice fit bodies don't have to be she-hulk because that's disgusting. But can be nice and fit like Lyen Wong .

4.) And finally, there is the occasional chubby girl, actually chubby. Every once and awhile there are chubby girls that look damn good. I'll try those too.

Some general requirements of all of them.

1.) Soft face
2.) proportionate bodies and figures.
3.) Doesn't have battle scares that aren't caused by traumatic events. I'll be a sop and sometimes except girls who got fucked over due to traumatic events.
4.) Doesn't have tacky hacky, fucked up teeth, or uncurable acne. Hate girls with bad non-matching dyed hair. It is such a turn off.
5.) Keeps her self up good
6.) Wears nice cloths, dont' really care about the style she's into.
7.) Doesn't wear clothes that don't go with her body type. Like I hate girls in baggy cloths.

Um pretty much it for now....

I'm about to do this shit now, in the middle of the halls of school, idk if this is such a good idea.....

Yeah I stuffed toliet paper down my drawers. It wasn't an impressive turn out of laughter. I was unimpressed by the number of people not laughing. People seemed to just not give a fuck. I guess that's how people really feel??

Today i went out of my comfort zone and talked to a random girl on my way back to the dorms with no real intention other than to start a conversation.

It went like this:

I went past her on the scooter then said
Me:I'm tired, quick, push me!
Her:*smile but confused*
Me: We can take turns! You first.
Her: *laugh* no thanks
Me: alright then, how bout a ride? Much faster than walking. *smile*
Her: haha i'm alright
Me: *shrug* alright then, see ya later! *rides off*

She wasn't that attractive, not bad looking just not my type. I didn't get the desired results, but i had a small conversation (ended quickly but oh well) and a bit of laughter so i guess it wasn't a complete failure. Especially considering that was my first real opener since learning about PUA

Alright, this is the third, and last damn time I'm writing this field report. It's driving me crazy. It's all because I’m too lazy to do shit right now. So I'm just going to get this shit done. I hate writing so much shit. So much happened today. And I can't even remember all of the ten girls I opened today. I remember most, but most of the interactions I had today weren't even special. On the flip side, I had a great time. I opened 15 sets, 5 not game related. I had a random ass conversation with a guy on my way home on the bus. It was great. It seems that banging women unites all types of men, even an uncle tom and a hoodlum . So on that note, I used a standard intro with all my game related approaches. "Hey my name is ....., you seemed interesting and I wanted to give you the chance (or privilege) of getting to know me."

1.) First girl I opened was going to her boy friend. I opened her, and she was all like, oh I’m going to see my boyfriend now . I said, what's your name?? I held out my hand to shake hers. She didn't shake it, she just looked. I walked a bit towards her, and she kinda just backed up. I knew my time with this set had ended.

2.) The second girl I opened was walking on the bridge. She was nice; she had on a black shirt, with some nice light wash jeans. I decided it was time to approach. I approached her, walked up, gave her the standard intro. I reached out for her hand once she introed me, and we simply held hands. She said she was going to meet up with her bf, I kinda froze I’ll admit. But I did hold her hand for awhile. So I don't really know what that got me.

3.) After my last set, I went up to the library to see what was going on in there. I walked around a bit, faked like I was looking for a book. I then walked around to the back, and saw a girl I previously opened. She was completely focused on her facebook. So she didn't see me coming . I waited a bit b4 I approached because of my stupid MM. I then went over there after I talked to this one guy I knew a bit. I used him as a warm up to get ready to talk to her. I then went over to her desk and put my hand down so she can see me. I asked her if we've met before. She says no. I just pull up a chair and see what's going on with that. I talked to her for a bit, asked if she was waiting on a class. She said theater. I said oh, do you like theater. We got into this little conversation. I used sexual framing during a wrong dumb ass time man . But it's all good, I simply tried it out. Tried holding her hand, so she wasn't feeling man. I just decided to eject the set and try again later.

4.) I wasn't deterred by this. I simply walked away from my previous set. Lingered in the computer area upstairs for a bit. I logged on here to see what was going on. Then I got off and went down stairs to see if I could sarge some more. I walked into the cyber cafe, were the gamers roam. I saw the girl I had been seeing for awhile, she was starring at me hard awhile back. So I saw her, I immediately became social with the little gamer boys drooling over her. I opened them up, and then I opened her, and told her she was interesting. She said, "Oh yeah??" with a smile on her face. I talked to her abit and saw what was up. I tried to hold her hand and what not. I used to small hands thing, and I held her hand. I smiled to distill the tensions when she yanked her hand away. Yeah bad idea or good. But anyways, I found a reason to sit really close to her. I reached back into my old gamer days and found a game that I still love to this day, (Age of Empires II: Age of conquerors).... yeah I know nerdy...... I commanded and told her I was gonna pop it in. She was coming up with excuses, but I did it anyway. I sat right next to her, super close and what not. So yeah that's what was good. But then she was like her ride was getting outta class. So I knew when I was locking down too much.
Let her go, I know that I will pick this back up on Thursday.

5.) The next girl I opened was some cute mixed girl. She was one of the least interested of all my openings. The whole time she was looking forward, I still probed, asked questions. She looked at me a few times. Idk, I’m not gonna bother her with my game everyday. This is one I think will take some time. I really didn't escalate on her too much. Think I did my standard hand thing, about it.

6.) The next girl I opened after that, was some slim girl. She was good looking, and she smiled at me. This is the first girl that I've ever sarged, that actually smiled at me. So to me this was a good sign. I had not yet ever truly received this sort of interest signal. So it was a first for me. I opened her after stop being a pussy, and I talked to her for a bit. I fucked up on this . Tried insta-dating, and number closing like after 3 seconds. Bad idea guys . But she remained calm, she was like, "if we run back into each other, I’ll give you another try , game harder next time ." So that's all good man. I'm just gonna give it another go next time.

7.) Re-opened a set real quick with this one girl I know. She's pretty cool. I just wanted to see if she'd let me sit super-close to her. She did. It was nothing special. It was just seeing if I got compliance. I asked her to watch my stuff, but she had to go, god damnit. I'll get her eventually.

8.) I finally remembered the girl I opened in the back of the cafeteria. This was an extremely short encounter as well. She was like sleeping lol, I used that as an excuse to wake her up. So basically I just got warmed up. left and what.

9.) The next girl I opened was some girl named Jackie. I had her back before I dropped my accounting class. I had never really got to talk to her. I started up a conversation. Did the standard hand thing. She kept blabbing on and on about accounting. So when I re-open her, I'll just use the whole accounting topic, and then slip into another conversation. I followed her to the registration office, and faked picked up a dropp add thing. So yeah.

10.) The last girl I opened was a girl who was about 22 or 23. So she was a bit older then me. She wore a lot of mascara. She looked like she threw down alot. I opened her up, had a brief conversation. She had shit to do, so this was one of those things were I slipped in and talked for a bit. I forget how the hand thing went with her. It wasn't too special though. My boy Jim was holding my shirt, and when I she got finished she walked the other way . Oh well, I'm gonna stay persistent on this one to see what's up. She seemed like a bad girl. I wanna try one of those out. First time I tried a girl a bit older then me. I’m just mad she didn’t qualify for my older woman challenge, Maybe next time.

So yeah that's my post. Today was an interesting day. Had lots of encounters. I'm surprised I remembered most of them. Take your time reading this; it's a lot of stuff. Leave comments at your leisure.

That's great man, yeah the first couple of interactions you have in a day will suck because you aren't warmed up. Sounds pretty cool. I wouldn't worry about. Just lemme know how that is. But yeah make sure you read the forum rules before posting any more, just trying to look out for you and all.

Thanks, i'm serious about improving my social life through PUA and i'm willing to step out of my comfort zone a bit, even though it's hard.

I don't know what rule i broke, so i'll go read them now.

Maybe you haven't broken a rule. I think as long as you don't start posting things that distract from the main topic your all good. I like that you are trying to improve. So I welcome other guys who are going through mid-game struggles like us to feel free to post. Yeah man, it's hard to step outside of your self. But once you do, you feel much more comforitible afterwards.

So today I was pretty inactive on the sarging side. Only opened like 3 sets. The first set I opened was fucking awesome, it was the first time a girl was just blunt and said that she wasn't interested. That was fucking awesome, saw her in the elevator and I opened her. Sat next to her, and told her my name, and she was like, "I'm not interested." It was awesome man.

The next set I opened was this one girl I reopened. There was this reptile demonstration on the bridge, and I got to kino her alot because she was scared and shit . Yeah I actually did some overt kino. I probably should've escalated harder, but yeah it's all a learning lesson.

The next set I opened was like 4 or 5 muslim dudes, cool ass dudes, they had two bad ass chick friends. I knew Joe, old friend in highschool. So I took it upon my self to introduce to everyone. Carressed their hands a bit, but not much. I think they had bf's, I wanna keep shit discrete. Didn't really talk to them too much, i had a mini-conversation with them. Then I had to take a stupid test........

One awesome boss ass thing happened today though, I greatly expanded my social circle with two cool ass guys. I now know 4 guys who get it in, if you know what I mean. Some hot ass babs, and it's all good. So on that note, I end this post. I've switched my strategy in school to strictly social circle game. No more blunt sarging on campus. It's stupid easy to do this on the street, less then it is to do it in school. So i'm gonna start going downtown chicago to cold approach and what not.

Wow, it took me to re-read this whole post to truly understand what i've been missing this whole time. What's been missing not from some game, but from me. Self-control. You feel kinda stupid when you find out it's really that simple. Not to worry about those events, or what happens, but to control your self, and lounge forward regardless of the obstacles. I've been prohibiting me, with my lack of self-control. I now know what has been holding me back. Most of the guys are so focused on what these lil' chicken heads say on the outside, they are not even focused on what needs to go down inside. Man this shit is kinda stupid, this stuff is feeling more easy everyday. I won't stop working hard though. I'm gonna apply this new chill ass attitude to my field game, see what happens. From now on, i'm more focused on controlling my self then controlling the situation. man all that external stuff, doesn't even matter. Kinda fucked up once you realize.

1.) walk with some bossness
2.) talk with some authority
3.) repsond less, and speak with a few words
4.) talk at a moderate tone
5.) be calm to all things and situations and problems. Regardless of how scary and difficult.

I've made up my mind, on some real ass stuff i'm gonna work on. I wanna break some game destroying habits of mine.

1.) Stop talking about and thinking about women all the time. Having them on my mind all the time isn't getting them.

2.) Stop walking around like I get them all the time, start being humble and what not. Can stop the approval seeking behavior.

3.) Stop walking around and looking for them all the time.

4.) Be more chill. Express, not impress. Yeah, stole that from warped. Stop trying to validate on the outside, and seek out. Start seeking inward. That's what I need to be doing.

5.) Getting my self together. Girls aren't completely off the menu, just not priority one. Get some hobbits, interest, that aren't as controversial as the ones i have now. I'll be all good.

I think this is all for now. I think this post means a lot to me. My ideas of things are changing finally.

I think my first step in getting some decent women is to look at what I need to be doing. I need to prioritize my life.

1.) Priorities- (Habitual organization, and work/ homework)
2.) Total Fitness (Social, mental, physical, spiritual, emotional)
3.) Interest and Hobbies (See below)

I need to get some hobbies and interests. So I've decided to make some hobbies up that I wanna start doing.

1.) Paper Mache
2.) Collage
3.) Star Gazing
4.) Nature
5.) Meditation
6.) Try and learn an instrument
7.) Try and learn a few languages (finish German, learn Russian, and Mandarin)
8.) Create fascinating ideas of the future, technology, and science.
9.) Make mysterious inventions
10.) Make scale models of objects, cities, and other ideas.
11.) Talking to people and having fun
12.) Reading

For now this is all i'm going to pick up. I'm gonna work on these for now, and see where it all takes me. I'm serious about all of these being hobbies. I think if I keep my self a bit more busy, and actually do my work, i'll be much better off with my friends, the ladies, and life in general. My problem is self-control, and prioritization. So as of now, those two are of top priority. Keeping my self busy is also something I'm interested in doing.

Guess I'll make an imaginary 4th category that ties in with the top list. But I'll consider it different from the list above concerning hobbies. This is called passions.

1.) Politics
2.) Business
3.) Understanding of logistics, planning, tactics and strategy
4.) Understanding people and society in general. Making life better for all humans.
5.) Changing the world, and seeing my vision of the world realized.

These are my passions, what drive me, what motivate me everyday all day. If I stay focused on acheiving these goals. Then I will be much better off. I think I'm unlocking some good stuff here. However, my passions are somewhat controversial, so I often do not express them freely with people. These topics cause chaos and divisions. Excluding # 4, most of these will be hushed. I think number for is an excellent way of females seeing that i'm not just a log with a dick. So I'll start using this, and work my way from here.

I realized today that i made a fatal mistake, and it will probably exclude me with a whole group of nice looking young ladies because of my big wannabe player ass mouth. Today I went to go get a drink, and my buddy dro aske me, "wow, did you really have to quench your thirst like that." When i went to the water machine. When I went around the corner I said, "yeah, and to let those girls see me." idk if those girls heard me or not. But this probably severly hurt me. I don't really care, probably will just act like i heard nothing. So that's what's up. Just something I noticed, hope new guys reading this don't make the false playa mistake. You can fool all these guys, can't fool these girls. And they will avoid your dumb ass if they feel this wannabe playa vibe from you. And I think this has been one of my problems in the game. So i'm gonna analyze, and just get my social circle in school.