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Just out of curiosity . . .Were you teased and harassed as a kid? Or were you simply an invisible ugly duckling? . . . What caused you to be so frustrated that you feel you need to be 'loved' by all?
I lived in a city with filthy rich kids. Gowing up, I was middle class and didn't quite fit into the weathy lifestyles of other children. I was harassed at times by kids who were cruel and I couldn't stand up for myself. Each day I struggled living, hoping that one day things would change. One day, someone could help me become this person that had everything, the friends, the guys flirting with them, and the lifestyle that they had. Looking back now, I remember those days where I'd just oberseve kids in my class, and how they'd socialize with others, flirt back and forth and be popular. I yearned for that power, for their look, and their status.
Now that I've changed who I am, guys want me. To have the guy that once ignored me, once made fun of me, want me - it just feels like a powerful thing. But I know he wants sex. His goal with every girl is to fuck them and each girl that he fucks he brags about to his friends as his conquests. And yes Kasabi, I recall before about your explaination of the "fuck and chuck" and have kept it on my mind. But sometimes game isn't about sex, it's about inner game and seeking vengance to those that hurt you. Those that never believed that you were worthy. To change their perception of game and be in control and control their mindset is probably what I'm looking for in the end. Everyone has different goals in game, but sometimes I feel my main goal that I want in the end is to prove everyone wrong. Every person who doubted me, that I could succeed. That I could one day be this powerful person who could control what lies in my hands.
P.S. I did find a hobby that I enjoy doing everyday: hitting the gym
