Im back.

Over the last few months I have jumped into the saddle and have been opening and in numerous cases closing every HB10,HB9 who crosses my path...I am not especially proud of this since I did it to get out of a rut but it was my way of coping. In my social network I have gone completely 180....from loyal whipped throw around money BF....to Casanova unstoppable no fear Ironman game....now about the Ex-gf in question:

The pain has become numbness and the unconscious mind/dreams of our past have almost stopped occurring. She has texted me 4 times sporadically since my last post here and I responded once with one word "Thanks" when she wished me Happy B-day. I saw her in LA outside a club from the corner of my eye spying on me w/ her new HB8 friend while I gamed a group of 4 women in front of a valet pickup spot...taking the hottest one in my car. Some of her friends have hinted she wants to get back together...for me this is not the case.

Ill be honest...I wanted to marry that girl and Ive never felt that way about another since or before her...it was an addicting drug-like feeling to say the least...but thats what it was: a drug. And I had to visit my own personal Rehab where I reflected upon my and her actions, finally gaining some closure as time progressed.

I have finally accepted uncertainty...Ive accepted that I loved her more then she loved me...Ive accepted I can do better...Ive accepted that a higher power tested me slightly and Im grateful that I came of this emotionally in tact and able to fight another day...when THE ONE does come my way, this past experience of love lost will truly help me maintain a relationship of love found.

Thank you to everyone...and jackb1900 you were dead on...I just was in an irrational mindset.

Somewhat of an old post but I was bored and read through the entire thread..

I think this is an awesome example for anyone who thinks they found the perfect girl and I'm glad you finally moved on.

Thanks Cyndrin...all in all it was an amazing learning experience