| Okey...if you are reading this probably you think the title is interesting,or who knows why did you think that reading this would have some benefit for you,whatever may that be.In the next few minutes i will share my personal viewpoint,you are welcomed to comment whatever you like.This is the story of my life summarized so you will have the patience to read it!
(English is actually my forth language...sorry about the spelling or other mistakes i make)
It all happened when a scorpion needed help to cross the lake to find a new food source,he was desperate,knowing it was the only way he could survive.He talked to the toad and asked for his help,to cross the lake.The scorpion climbed on the toad's back and hand on tightly.
At the middle of the lake something happened,the scorpion attacked the toad,which with his last breath asked why."it's my nature" the scorpion said seconds before it's death,and sunk into the abyss!
I got carried away,but hope you get the point.This is the core reason i am writing this post,and share whit you a part of my life story,hope it will be interesting and you will learn something.
It all started after my last girlfriend,he left me after 3 months,and i didn't know why.The truth is i was a wimp,a supreme nice guy,and i didn't know why i failed,so i turned to the only place i could get help:the internet.After a while a started reading like crazy,watching videos on YouTube,assimilating everything i could about the subject,and the truth slowly became clear.I failed at every step i could take,and it hurt me.What was next was a long and agonizing.Every time i wanted to do something,i found a reason not to do it,so i came back home,and read the e-books again,wanting more information.
After a few months of this and constantly thinking without doing anything it came the time to go on holiday,to my grandmother's.There i met her,the love of my life.She was different,she made me feel different,and i was a nice guy again,because i thought that she wasn't like the other girls.Meanwhile i found out that i am not like the other guys(fizically I'm the same,but i have OCD,obsessive compulsive disorder,this condition make me a little...different).Every time i was with her nothing else maters,she was different to,her Jesus freaks parents made her a "slave",when she was little she stayed all the time in the yard,most of the human contact being with her parents.That obviously changed her.But every E-book i read told me that it's only an illusion.That in the end she is the same like all other girls,for a time i didn't want to believe,but the elusive "female logic" proved to me that even if she's a little different,in her core she's still female.
I left after 2 months,needing to come home.If we where to make a family,or a stable relationship,than i would have to wait about 8 months,than we could move in together...
She wants that from all her heart,she is loyal,really hot,and i don't know the reason why she is whit me.It was hard to believe,but after puking on her after i got very drunk,lying to her about some stuff,starting a fight with her parents that ended with her father hitting her and making her stay 2 weeks in her room(i know..crazy)and after starting a workout program just that she will be more attractive to me(i said to her that i like woman that are in shape,so she started working out of her own initiative)...and so many more i realized that this is a one time shot,if i blow this i will never find a woman like that,it's mathematics,the law of the universe or divine intervention,but that is how i feel.
Now i have a few months without her,and the question is,what must i do?Every inch of myself wants to become a pua,not because the sex,it was never about that,it's about proving myself,i want to show every girl that give me the "you are such a looser" look that i can do it,every friend of mine that had girlfriends that i can do it to,but if i go down that road i don't know where will it end,because i know i can do it if i really commit.
And the question for you,if you really had the patience to read all,what if we are all scorpions?Woman with there strange logic,and man with the need of meeting and mating with most females possible?Are the laws of evolution still everpresent or can we really choice what we want?i want the best of both worlds,but both give me different signals and information...is there only one truth or are there many?
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