| Geez, I wish I had something more creative to start with. Seeing as I'm not trying to pick any of you up, then I should be able to mess up a few times and still be okay. My name is Justin, I'm 25 and currently living in Austin,Tx. I been studying the game for about two years now. It started with the double set of diary and rules from Neil Straus. I had been having some success but seemed to plateaued in the last couple of years.
It started when I noticed all my friends graduated from college. Suddenly all those parties with lots of women started becoming less frequent. As my list of true friends dwindled down to almost none so did the parties. I am still in school myself. Only now it's the University of Phoenix. Granted I have an Associates and been to a real University (Texas A&M) I am still wanting to finish my degree. I just feel like a loser when I have to say that is where I am going to school especially in University of Texas' backyard. Right now I'm an assistant manager at a liquor store. Nice gig, really close to home, and I always get to meet people. I feel that I something is hindering me from taking full advantage of this. I make enough money to live and have nice things, but by no means luxury. This leads to one of my many conundrums. In this town you either have money, a hippie, or in a band. I am not any of those things. All those guys get the girls I want, or at least it feels like it.
I recently did an overhaul on myself and upgraded a few things. I lost 20lbs, I am still a member of a boxing gym and 24 hrs. fitness, I got a new hair (which the chicks are digging) new television and new hip phone. I just feel that my love for 80s stuff, in particular the music, kind of impedes me. I want to be cool, but when everything that is cool I find dumb or phony, I can't take it. Like there is a difference between PUA and douche bag, and even though I can befriend the douche bag, I can't fake my hatred all night.
I know I just ranted a shit load, but don't get the wrong idea. I can still break a set with the best of them. I just feel that I am not putting myself in the right situations to succeed. I'm not sure if I'm making excuses, but after a 50hr work week and full time studies, with working out and the feeling of not being where I want to be in life, I just feel like blah. Is there something that I haven't thought of doing yet that can still salvage my outlook. I have the confidence in myself that no matter how old, ugly, fat, or underachieving I can become I will still find some success. I would just prefer to circumvent those things before they happen.
I look forward to any advice that will come my way. I hope to be able to reciprocate any knowledge that will help my fellow brother in achieving their dreams.
*One side note. I just wanted to see if anyone had some advice on this particular situation that I am in. A really good friend of mine (one of the last few ones I have) was in a bit of vine. I'll spare you her story, but I will just say I am letting her live with me. I won't lie, she's hot, very hot. Again, it didn't matter because I knew where we stood, and I didn't want anything with her. It wasn't until recently that she started teasing me. Started spewing lines like, "I wonder how good you are in bed?" or "Maybe we can do it?" Now I made the mistake of jumping the gun and trying to lay her. It turned out to be hoax and ultimately a way tease and joke with me. The sexual teasing still runs rampant in my household. She will wear just her bra and panties. She will grab my junk, rub up against me. This is a girl that wants me to massage her, but doesn't want me in her. Now there was no PUA stuff used to find this girl obviously, this was a working relationship that flourished into a real friendship. It was all cool, but now I find myself lusting after her, thinking I'm on the cusp of landing a 10 instead of all those 6s and 7s I'm used. Then again, I'm not sure how to play it, if the window passed, or if there is still time. Or more importantly if this is something I should even waste my time thinking about.
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