Thank you for response
Fucking her was not my goal. Even though I knew all the roads are available. The situation was unpleasant for sex, because we were at a party with a lot of other people all walking and passing around. Everywhere else it was cold due to the late evening. I didn't desperate for sex so to sacrifice the comfort we had

. And.. I didn't and I don't have any plans towards her, except I know that we will meet again day by day after summer.
Why should be faking that? Well, the only idea which gets into my mind is um.. I don't know how to call it, maybe to fit me, not to lose me or so.
I have a natural interest in the situation as if I can't detect if I am making good kino, I will be screwed in the future.
I am 20 so I consider myself still quite young. I want to learn as much as possible, and I want to be able to know the girl is really aroused by me and when she is faking her emotions, because later, anyway, it will come to the light and I will be screwed.