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Just so you guys know, I AM aware of the benefits of staying in the present, and framing everything as what it IS, in a POSITIVE light, but listen man...
No, YOU listen....to what you are saying:
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I was bullied when I was younger. I'm not dwelling on it,
I disagree, and believe that you are dwelling upon it, after observing your posts, but let's continue....
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but I'm stating it since it IS a fact of my life. I was bullied, I never had an actual girlfriend, I never fit into any group while growing up, and I spent 99% of my time alone, without anyone to talk to or have fun with. As a result, I grew up HATING PEOPLE with a passion.
And I still do.
Ahem, as I was saying....
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I'm not "socially aware" of my surroundings, or any of that crap. I only know what I've learned so far; other than that, I am an animal. I don't give a fuck, I don't want any friends; I just want pussy, and money. Fuck everyone else man.
One of the first things I learned when starting this long road what that your mindset and body-language have to be congruent with what your are communicating. Otherwise, the person you are talking to will pick up that something is out-of-synch and start distrusting you. Ask yourself if the way you are being treated NOW might just be a reflection of what people have been picking up from your inner-self?
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By myself, I am a fucking behemoth of a human being. 196 lbs of pure muscle, 6'0, demonically hard work ethic, extremely high ambition, 3x mature for my age, smarter than the fucking ancients, built like a gargantuan, always defying what others say about me, and always on the move to ascend and rule.
What does this have to do with anything?
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Yet, others try to get in my way, like fucking insects. Every guy I meet is a fucking immature jackass with no professional manner, appearance, or care in the world, and here they are fucking every stupid whore in sight. It sickens me; you expect me to believe that, in order to get girls, I have to become a mentally retarded ape? Fuck that shit man.
Picturing some douchebag as a mentally retarded ape in my mind is actually pretty damn funny. Now that I think about it, I'll have to remember to reframe my mind and do that the next time some scrotum-breath bag-licker ticks me off.
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I can destroy any of these punk bitch guys without breaking a sweat. They're like little children; running around, destroying everything in their path, making fun of others like there's no tomorrow.
Then, the girls. All of them a collective pile of cheating sluts. Little fucking whores who only like guys who watch sports and make fun of other people. And the one rare girl who's good, either has a rich, spoiled boyfriend, or is butt ugly/fat/disabled.
Again, I don't think you've gotten over earlier mental stumbling blocks, but that's only my opinion, and I could be wrong.
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All these guys with these awesome girls...simply do not deserve them. Any of you tell me why I should give a shit and respect others? No one ever respected me; I had to fight tooth and nail for everything; where's my girl? Where's my social life? Why the fuck should I tolerate seeing others get what I want?
Larry Winget has a good quote on personal responsibility: "Your parents owe you unconditional love, everybody else in the world doesn't owe you a damn thing." That's a little more blunt than I'd probably say it, but it gets the point across rather quickly. Not only do they not owe you anything, there's no guarantee that they'll play fair either. I found that out rather recently when my boss got ticked off at me, but since I was doing a good job, his only recourse to get me out of the company was to use the demerit system and find nit-picky stuff wrong with my job. After 3 months of this, he finally had enough ammunition to serve me my walking papers. Was I pissed? Hell yes. Was it fair? Hell no. But I got over it after a few days and moved on. Staying angry with the past leaves no room for happiness in the present.
Look dude, I've only been on this board a short time, and I've read a lot of your posts, and have walked away impressed after reading them most of the time. I'm hoping all this is just a rant after a really bad day. After all, every one of us has gotten pissed at the world, stuck both middle fingers in the air, and hollered at the world "Fuck YOU, fuck YOU, and, oh yeah, the little Asian lady giving me the evil-eye on the bus....FUCK YOU TOO!" If that's the case, fine. Go down to the local comedy club, have a beer, have a few good laughs, come home in a better mood, get a good night's sleep, start tomorrow with a fresh outlook. If not, then maybe pickup shouldn't be your primary focus right now. Maybe you need to take care of yourself and find some happiness in the world that you can accept. No, it's not all tulips and roses, but it's not all manure and rubbish bins either.