I wondered for a while where and should I post that … I am not active on the forums anymore and if you know me at least a bit you will know why. Yet again I would be happy to help in some way... I've been asked here multiple times for my female perspective on things...now is the time when i will give it. It is indeed very personal and it wasn't meant to be read by anyone. It is dedicated to my boyfriend...or now that i think about it maybe it is mostly dedicated to my own emotions and points of view.
It is easy to pick up random people, but when you finally find someone worth to actually forget about all the games... that's when it gets scary and yet somehow you feel safe.

Society teaches us to be dishonest … indeed, it does. It teaches us to play games... we play it till the moment when we finally realize that if you never stop playing this game you will lose.

I hate when we go to the shop and you are storming through it and it almost feels as if i have to run after you. I hate that you will question it when i say that i saw where they store the coffee, you will know better as if you've been to that store before. I hate that even though i hate onions you put it on everything. I very much hate it when you tell me that i just have to get over it. I hate it when you are not in a mood. I hate it when i have to understand something that i actually don't want to understand. I hate it when you are unreactive when i am storming around, when my emotions are exploding right at your face, but you still sit there silently as if i haven't said a word. I hate it when you don't call me the whole day because it feels as if you don't even think about me. I hate it when sometimes you don't hold my hand. I hate it when you leave in the morning without taking the time to really hug me. I hate when we are fighting because it never ever makes sense and the whole time while we argue i just want it to stop and to hold you close. I hate a lot of things but i love the fact that i am given the chance to get to hate these things. I hate to fall asleep without you because that means that i will wake up without you. I hate when i have to catch the bus and leave you in the city behind. I hate when you have to catch the same bus and leave me here. I hate that i don't understand what you and your friends are talking about, because that just takes away from me the chance to get to know you a bit better.
I also hate my own emotions sometimes, my natural disaster-personality.I hate the fear of making you afraid or annoyed by all this. I know that you might hate to have to understand it but as i do try, you need to do it to.
I hate the fact that we are so alike and sometimes so different. I hate it but i love it at the same time and that confuses me so much. How is that even possible?

I am sure there are many things still to come … that i will probably hate even more, oh how i would love to hate them, for as long as you are there.

But there are things that i love and no i won't tell you that i love your lips, your eyes, your ass, your dick. Not that i don't... but there's more than that, cos i know that someday your lips won't be as pinky as now, your eyes will appear older, your ass will start hanging or maybe it will even get fat, your dick might lose it's functions, well at least the functions that very much concern me. Oh how i would love to get the chance to see your hangy ass or your wrinkly face smiling back at me.
I love how you make me coffee in the morning. I love how sometimes when you think i am not looking you stare at me with these eyes of yours. I love how you will tell me how silly i am and just hug me as if i was a little child. I love it when you look at me and while i am trying to figure out what you are thinking about at this particular moment, you will just ask me ' What?' and laugh. I love that you expect me to understand you without you saying shit, even though i don't always understand. I love when you sing to me and i have to ask you to translate. I love playing video games with you even though i lose every time, i actually love spending some quality boyish time with you, just drinking beers and kid around. I love when you make sure that i am not cold in the night. I love when you pick me up in the air and you spin me around. I love it when i feel so lost in your arms, lost and protected. I love that you are honest even when you know that your honesty might and probably will hurt me. I love to believe that you are my man and i am your woman. A boyfriend and a girlfriend, lovers, friends, partners, a team. I'd love to have a past with you and I'd love to have a future with you, but most of all i love the present moment.

Maybe … your girlfriends have written something like this about you and you don't even suspect … be gentle and stop playing games, it might surprise you how good it can feel .

Good luck to all of you and enjoy

Jez

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I like this

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you sound totally in love...I hope it works out for both of you

You're a good girl Jez, sharing this with everyone. I constantly preach here that there is a point where you have to stop playing games and actually show interest - in an alpha way. The community puts too much focus on being a macho independent man, to the point of plain having no feelings, and you screw yourself over very quickly sticking to that mindset.

I know some girls I've known have felt this way about me - a few words similar to what you've written slipped out in a moment of deep emotional connection.

Unfortunately, the girl's who've told me the most about how they feel about me are the ones who ended up hating me. It's a shame people generally seem to put too much focus on the negative things and not appreciate the positive things.

Hey I say if you love his body you should just say it - what's the point of holding back till the body is no longer as good? Appreciate it while it's there, I say. When I'm naked with a girl, I don't hesitate to point out what I really like about her body - maybe her breasts have a great shape, maybe overall she has a cute figure, maybe she has particularly smooth skin, maybe she has very "high performance" nipples - eg. they get really hard and stand out pretty far... there's always something fairly unique to point out. I can tell they start feeling sexier, and they start posing for me, etc. I know girls usually have low body confidence, so I like to do this. The effect on a guy would be similar.

Conker,

true that. The so called rules of being 'alpha' around here can fuck you up badly especially if you are entering a relationship. Depending on your status, things change very quickly and your mindset should follow these changes otherwise you can forget about building up something more than just 'game' – ONS, STR and so on. The fields are totally different and we need to understand that our actions and reactions have to change accordingly. It's one thing to be alpha when you are single and you pick up people, it's completely different to be alpha while being in a relationship. Many people around here who in my opinion have a very sick point of view, would say that showing your true emotions to your partner puts you directly into the AFC category. Very very wrong. Coming in peace with your inner world isn't important only for pick up. I am currently in the middle of a battle with myself. I've asked openly many close friends (older and younger) for advice … but one thing is for sure, every relationship is different and yet the same and in order this relationship to get somewhere preferably to a good place, we need to develop, grow, realize, be open, listen, listen to ourselves and come in peace with our feelings, accept our emotions and share them.

I am in no way expert when it comes to being in love, being a girlfriend... since all my previous relationships have come to an end... but i know one thing for sure: If you want something real, you have to be real yourself.

P.s
I never said that i don't let him know how attracted i am to him. I do... i not only say but i show too. If not making your lover (partner, whatever) happy in any possible way, then what is it all for? Surely it has to be work both ways... balance, they call it

Cheers
Jez

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I like this one as well: How can you love (or be loved) if you don't love yourself. Sound egoistical, but that one has truly helped me. Because I am confident in who I am, I don't always question myself and can turn my attention more towards my girl. She is the same with me. Isn't that how it's supposed to be? The more you give, the more you recieve.

Gratz on the relation you have found Jez.

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Drink me, make me feel real
Wet your beak in the stream
Game we're playing is life
Love is a two way dream