Whatsup !?

I'm not exactly new.

I frequent the forum enough, I forgot my old user/pass so I created a new one. However, I've never posted anything.

What to say what to say ..

I used to be a natural. Key words: used to be. Sometimes that 'old' me kicks in. A while back, I found "the one" and, long story short... Didn't end up to well. I became insecure, needy, paranoid (the opposite of who she fell for) until I eventually screwed it all up. From there on in I went through many changes - I'm no longer the "dude" I once was --> the dude that got her. I'm getting back on my feet though after a long depressing few years. (yes,years).

Since my collapse, I read The Game - my friend suggested it to me because he thought I would enjoy it. The introduction had me at awe, this dude was in shambles like I was over the one that totally messed him up. As I read on, many of the techniques used within the book were things I already was doing without actually knowing it. But I took a lot of it without any salt, and had trouble becoming this new scripted me - as opposed to the me that basically already did all the tricks without knowing it. Now I'm a bit confused but still successful, not as successful as before - but successful enough.

Basically, I still have some of my natural qualities - and my courage, I rarely ever have a problem walking up to women - or anyone for that matter - and engaging in conversation.

I'm finally starting to feel liberated from "the one" even though being "good" makes me want to believe there is some way I can win her again. In the mean time, I have been working a few again, and am encountering some problems, so I decided to start posting.