So last night I went out. I did not sarge because my depression was not letting me get to that place internally but whatever, at least I felt okay w/ going out. Anyway, so this HB needs a light and me being chivalrous or something, I go to my car to get a lighter. As we were smoking she told me a bunch of cool stuff, like how when she is out she has seen guys check her out but these dudes never approach her and that most guys just won't. So, because of social norms about women looking to forward if they approach, she usually does not. The lesson is that there are probably a lot of women just waiting for dudes to approach them because it would look weird if they made the first move and, that you will set yourself apart by having the balls to walk and say "Do you have the time?" (lol, that is supposedly one of AFCAdams favorites IDK whatever). We also talked about sex. I heard from someone on this forum that women like sex just as much as guys but it is just compartmentalized. She sort of agreed with this, saying that she was more comfortable having sex with a girl as a ONS than with a guy for maybe this exact reason. She only had sex with guys who she really liked and had taken some time to get to know. With girls, there was never any need for this. If the feminine mindset towards sex could be adopted, might that make us guys more attractive because they would put at ease. Well, it might make HBs more comfortable being around us if they feel our attitudes towards sex match their own. What do you guys think?

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Call me Sly.
My goal: To become a Pickup Artist in everything but name.

And yeah, This is (still) just the beginning.

True that. Theoretical knowledge can only get you so far. Real world experience is so much more satisfying. I believe a balance must be struck. Without theoretical knowledge, in many cases I would not know how to begin.

Yeah, that night my depression made me unable to adopt a mindset conducive to sarging. I did my best that night even though I was incapable of getting in state where I could sarge. My depression ebbs and flows. Things happen that drive it one way or another and I don't have control over what does what. I try to always drive it up, but sometimes it falls back down (Probably neuro-chemical). I just gotta keep living and doing what I can to make myself feel as good as I can at any particular time. That potential for feeling good is like a barrier. It rises, it falls.

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Call me Sly.
My goal: To become a Pickup Artist in everything but name.

And yeah, This is (still) just the beginning.

Mostly just therapy. I have had three distinct episodes of depression in my life since about October of 2001. I tried drugs (prescribed that is) during the first one and it only made it worse. It was a few words from my therapist and cleared it up, that righted the ship, that balanced the chemical imbalance et al. The second one ended when I read Anthony Swofford's Jarhead and Other Battles back in the summer of 2006 and it just made me think about what it meant to be a man, to be human after Swofford had to do the same in his life. Wow, it is quite a book (I also liked the movie, though I know it was not as well recieved). This current episode has gone on since August of last year. I put off taking drugs for over a year, just contenting myself with going to a therapist. Oh, and TPoN helped me lot, for a brief moment (like 2 days) Eckhart Tolle's words made my depression irrelevant, I knew I could accomplish my goals regardless as to whether I was depressed or not. TPoN still continues to be a prescence in my life but I usually only read it when I am on an upswing. After my father said he would be willing to completely foot the cost of any prescription drugs, I decided to see what they could do. I got prescriptions for mood stabilizers and anti-depressants, though I have only filled the one for the former, and, I cannot say conclusively whether they have helped or not. I am open-minded to the affects of the drugs, if they help, cool and if they don't, whatever (TPoN really helped me become more open-minded and just open to stuff in general). That is where I am at right now, though I would like to see my therapist again, and my father has made overtures about possibly paying for further sessions with him. Thanks Hobbit.

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Call me Sly.
My goal: To become a Pickup Artist in everything but name.

And yeah, This is (still) just the beginning.