Hey,

Call me KnockoutKid. I decided to join this forum because I have a crush on a girl, and for once I don't want to fuck it up. Everytime for the past years I've had crushes on girls, I either never told them or fucked it up big time. I get alot of compliments on my looks, and I consider myself and fairly attractive and easy going man. I'm usually the center of attraction everywhere I go and was always the clown making other people laugh and feel comfortable.

So my cousin introduced me to a friend of hers at a family halloween party and from the moment I saw her I really felt a connection. We spent the night hanging out and we really had a great time. My cousin told me her friend thought I was ''very hot'' but she also told me that her friend just came off a big breakup and still has feelings for her ex-boyfriend..We chatted a few times, but she's VERY indepedent, my cousin told me I had to show very little interest not to scare her away. Tommorow I'm leaving for my cousin's place with a friend and the girl is going to be there. She actually invited me to a bar with her friends since I'll be in her town for the weekend.

I never had a problem getting girls attraction, but when there are feelings involved its a whole different story. I get nervous, anxious, even obsessed about the girl, and usually fuck it up before anything has even begun. Either by showing too much interest, not being able to contain my feelings and a sense of insecurity. Even if I'm considered attractive and easy-going, I still have trouble with my self-esteem, especially towards girls. I'll be reading and asking around the forum basically looking for tips to try not to fuck it up this time.