| Last night I told Jill how I felt about her and that I really cared. She said that takes courage.
Before last night I found out that Jill was intrested in this guy named adriano. He is my firend and she was/still is obessed with him. . I just found out that she really liked him before the club. At the club, I told her I invited adriano, but that he didn't want to come because Jill was going to be there. Telling her that adriano didn't want to see her pissed her off. I had to console her for a while, then I played the cube on her cause I didn't have anything else to say. After that, we went outside and she smoked a cig.
Then some girls came by and picked her up and took her to the dance floor. I didn't really know what to do, so I walked to the bar, but then changed my mind, and stood against a pole. As I was standing on the pole, I started talking to this girl that I knew. She started following me around because she was drunk, and I'm good looking and nice. Jill started talking to other guys. I was just hanging out. Then I saw her walk past me. She kind of pretended I wasn't there, but I grabbed her arm and introduced her to my friend that was following me around. She moved on. Then started talking to some loser guy.
A couple of weeks before, I remembered an instance from a previous bar, when I was out with my girlfriends and my friend Cat told me to save my other friend Alice -- from some nice good looking bar guy. I was nervous, but I just walked to them and started talking to Alice. I totally blew the random bar dude out of the water -- even though he was a nice guy.
Back in the club I remembered that I should save Jill from the loser guy, but I lacked the courage to reapproach. I was just as nervous now, as I was in the previous bar with Alice, but this time I didn't have a friend telling me to "save her", and I had to do it on my own.
I finially built up the courage to go talk to her after I realized my parking meter had expired. So, I just walked up and touched her slightly on the shoulder, she turns to me with open body languange like "thank god!" I thought maybe I should of just saved her like I orginially thought, but instead I said "good bye, I have to go". She is like OK and I leave.
So that's what happened.
I saw her again today. We volunteered together for some film screening. She didn't even want to ride home with me. I think she assumed I have the wrong intentions with her. I guess it is like those girls that throw themselves on me. That is what I did with Jill. I just told her how I felt about her.
Some people believe that you can just tell people how you feel about them, but I don't think that works. She is still nice to me, but she doesn't want to ride home with me. She used to let me give her rides all the time. After I started caring for her, she doesn't allow me to give her rides anymore. I am trying to move on, but I don't want sex from other girls. I just want a relationship. The other girls just have sex to offer, this girl has class, and kindness. I enjoy her company very much.
How do I get over a girl when I don't want another girl? _________________ Walk Hard
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