| i will begin by saying sorry if my post is too graphic, im new to this community.....
im extremely furious right now. the whole situation occured over 3 meetings. but i will try my best to refrain incongruent details and tell the story exactly how it happened. so just bear with me.....
DAY 1
I have known this girl for over a year, and the pick up community had given me more confidence to try and f-close a friend that i could only kiss close last year. She contacted me 2 weeks ago and wanted to hang out so i then said okay and took her to my place, not looking for a full close since she probably wouldnt have wanted to since i hadn't seen her for awhile. I negged her alot and did the ESP number routine on her. I then proceeded to make out with her until she had to go home.
DAY 2
i hung out with her again several days later in which i took her to barnes and noble and then back to my place. i did some plam readings and a form of the cube. to my suprise when i went in for a kiss twice, she leaned back? a big suprise to me. I did some stories to DHV but she wasnt getting excited at all or getting into my stories. she proceeded to do what every girl does when boredom arises. she said i was very boring and last time she had more fun. she told me every 2 minutes, you are so boring. i proceeded to be a big dick and pick apart her insecurities due to my anger (pretty stupid of me i know.) i then drove her home because i saw no point to a kiss close first date going to a no close at all second date.
She texted me immediately saying " What was the point?" in a nutshell She said she was just "playing" with me and she did want to kiss me the whole time. and now here it is, the impt part..... she said she"WANTS ME" and i said the same. her and i made a mutual decision to not be assholes to eachother next time we meet and we will just do stuff. i thought this stuff included sex......
Day 3
Okay, now comes what happened tonight. and why i began to doubt all my ablilities and lose hope in my game today. She texted me the next day and we planned a meet for monday night at my place... again. I picked her up and we proceeded to my place. we did some boring small talk and started to make out. then, i move her to my bedroom and i fail to do and push/pull in regards to kino escalation since she already said she wants me. all the while we made out she complained about my face tasting bad because of my lotion. apparantly my after shaving routine of st. ives is bad. I ended up asking her to spit out her gum if i washed my face. (her gum mouth wasnt making it easy to kiss her.) We proceeded and soon we were completely naked. Here goes the graphic part. I performed oral sex on her several times as i soon realized... she would not do anything for me. she began an hj which ended abruptly,
I heard her whisper, " you would be the one to make me do this" i asked her what shes talking about and she said "nothing."
we continued to make out and then she stopped......................
when she asked me " do you want to do this"
i said " yes if youre ready then i am."
she laughs, and then asks again.
i say, " yeah, but im not exactly ready yet you know?"
i said this to push for oral sex or some stimulation in my favor which would lead to sex, us talking really wasnt getting me turned on and i thought my 30 minute effort would pay off but i guess not....... The next 30 minutes were silent, a few makeouts but nothing else. she would not do anything else. i then said" do you want to do this" and she responded " yeah"
nothing happened..... she began to put on her clothes as i said in a last ditch effort. " i still respect you you know" she laughed and said, " i respect you too. i took her home and stayed a bit while i talked to her mother whom hates me and disrespected me so i said bye and walked out of the house. The girl texted me an hour later to ask why i got angry. i didnt tell her straight out about why i hated that she couldnt finish the job. but i said " im a little mad because the night didnt turn out how i thought it would." i proceeded to say i had to go to bed and id talk to her tomorrow. my conclusion is that she doesnt realize the concept of give and take. im left high and dry, i might as well have whacked it myself instead. she wasnt helping one bit.
Okay. theres my long ass first field report. not really so much of a Game infused attempt since i known her for awhile but still i would like criticism it took very much to hold in my pride and not bitch the girl out tonight. Thanks for your time to those who read.
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