Hello there.

I am not from an english speaking country, so don't be surprised if I commit a lot of spelling crimes.

I am 18, never had a girlfriend, and the only girl I ever had something with kissed has "ljbf" me. Yes, I'm still in love, she's the "one-itis", and I'm not denying I'm in this forum so I can get her back... At least partially.

I may not be the smoothest guy in the world, but I do know that if I want to get her back, I'll have to move on. Ironic.

So that's what I'm going to do, moving on. As soon as I get my license and car (summer, if I'm lucky) I'll get away from this small community I live in and start picking up. My country is a bit more uptight than The States, it's in Europe. And I don't expect things to go easy.

Mind you, even though I haven't sex or kissed anyone before of this girl, it was a personal choice. Yes, I was more insecure than I am now, and blah blah. But the main reason was much more gay. I wanted the first kiss to be "special", so I promised myself I'd do it with someone I really felt attached too. Lame, I know.

I'm not the kind of guy who easily attracts girls. I am short, I kind of have buck teeth, and I'm thin (even though I have my share of muscles, enough for girls to like my body).
Still, I've had a reasonable ammount of girls interested in me. I am not ugly, nor socially retarded. So I guess i'm not hopeless.

NOW, AGAIN ON THE "ONE". I know many of you are going to criticize my decision to still leave room for her, but I've known some things recently that made me realize I could have had something more serious with her. She is insecure, and she told me a few days ago that she thought I was the kind of guy who would get tired of her and abandon her.

I am a bit too independent for my good, so I understand her point of view.
Ramblings apart... Because I know few of you are going to read this. I am here to either get her back or get over her (which maybe I don't want to, she is the only girl ever who can make me laugh like hell and give me the time of my life... Btw, she has an AFC boyfriend now), and to get better with girls, generally.

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