Hey a few years ago, I started to dabble into the whole PU scene, I started doing okay, being a challenge, and all that, had a couple girls chasing me.. but I locked myself into a relationship with a chic who really wasn't my type and settled for her for a while. But I cannot settle anymore, it's been burning and tearing me apart for years, destroying my confidence.
So I've started again, I am 31 from TX. What recently really solidified my decision to start this journey is I tried to get a girl from work (I usually don't play at work, but she passed all my criteria's for who I want). I did what I normally do and she started making comments about her and I sleeping together. But I blew it badly, I said things I would never say, acted like a puppy, now things are a bit awkward. If you guys only knew how i acted, you'd punch me square in the face. I would assume this is partly because my confidence has been shattered over the years.
So I am basically starting from the ground up all over again. Working on affirmations to try to regain my confidence. I've been approaching random women and making some small talk, if not just telling them hi, trying to get back into my confort zone.
I know I can eventually get where I want to be, but man it's difficult as my best friend is a "nice guy" and gets kicked around. So here I am, as failure isn't an option for me.

nice to have you aboard man and i hope you get back to your old self, or even a better self.

and a piece of advise, your alpha, you don't have to explain yourself to anyone. work on that and take in as much information as you can.

-teen