| Cheers mates,
On the forums I will go by The Sweet Heart, but you all can just refer to me as Smitty. I'm just finishing up my undergraduate years of college and I just celebrated my 21st birthday a couple of weeks ago on the 23rd of March and I reside in the Philadelphia area.
All in all, from high school up until now, my success with women has certainly not been within the range of Don Juan or Casanova. Actually, to give you an idea of my struggle, I didn't land my first kiss until 19 years old (a big ouch, I know), and I didn't penetrate a pussy until 20 years old.
I refer to myself as the sweet heart because I tend to be the nice guy at times, at least when it comes to girls. I'm 5'3", and although two girls have blatantly questioned my success with girls due to my lack of height, after reading about PUAs, I realize that my height has not been the reason for my shortcomings. However, I've found that girls are quite shallow when it comes to height. Back to the idea of the sweet heart, my heart tends to get in the way because I am able to look at the girl for her good qualities and care a lot for her. That leads me in the long run to get crushed, as I have seen on four occasions a girl that I liked go home with another dude after a night out on the town to do some form of the dirty.
Well, I reached a revelation the other day. A kid in my class, the one who is fucking the girl I like, said that he has never told a girl that he loved her. He also said that you need to take the girl for a test drive to see if you actually like her in bed. At first, I thought this kid was just a superficial jock, but then I realized "Wow, I wish I thought more like him."
This girl that I currently "like", well liked, was my oneitis as I really liked her even though I wasn't having sex with her, let alone kissing her. The other problem with her was that she has been a friend that I've liked but she had a boyfriend so I've always laid off of her, then she broke up with him. The point is, to be a PUA you must detach yourself from girls and take the game just for what it is, a game. You meet a girl, you fuck her, maybe get to know her, and if you see potential for a future you stay with her. My problem has been that I get to know the girl too much before I fuck her.
However, I must describe my one success that I have had with a girl. I went out one night and she was acquaintances with an acquaintance of mine, so we met, and once we met we really hit it off. She was drunk so I was poking fun at her the whole time; I guess you can say that I was negging her. Anyway, I asked her if she wanted me to walk her home, she said no, I pointed at my cheek for her to kiss it, she kissed it, I turned around walked a few steps, turned around back at her, shot her a smile, she changed her mind. I walked with her, she was cold, I put my arm around her, she brought up kissing, I made out with her, her breath tasted slightly like throw up, I went back to her place. Had some LMR, freezed her out a bit, ended up getting an oral-close. The next morning she was so attracted to me, literally, kissing me, touching me, holding my hand, blah blah blah. I felt like the man; never have I felt so powerful. However, it all went downhill from there...
Basically I was impatient to get the f-close, so I became too pushy and fucked it up big time.
I really want to make the transformation, no longer do I want to be the one chasing girls, I want girls to chase me. I don't like girls, girls like me. I need a new mentality, a new persona. No more will I get "hurt". I will choose who I have sex with. I am glad to have you guys by my side as I make the change. If you have read up to here, I thank you greatly.
Cheers,
Smitty
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