Well, I'm reading lots of books about everything related on how to pickup girls, body language, positive attitude, lose shyness... etc... about 3 weeks by now... I'm more communicative, smiling more, more relaxed and comfortable... I'm even got out of depression, just by thinking positively...

Well, I decided that yesterday I would try what I learned for the first time. but, I was at a friend's birthday before that, and drinked too much...

and then, I messed up... miserably... actually i was too shy to approach even drunk... and cause I was drunk, I screwed everything when I finally got the guts to approach the girls...

the problem is, I live in a small town, and now my reputation is the worse... everybody knows it by now... since everybody needs me at my work in the college (to fix their laptops), everybody remember my face...


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Can I fix it?

oh... and now I'm too depressed to try again... and i actually don't like the girls that live here... with the exception of my ex-girlfriend (¬¬)...

just dont do it again......and as far as everyone thinks your this terrible guy, you sure you been thinkin positivly cause sounds to me your just a tad bit negative there, i highly doubt there saying anyting about you your just being self conscious and if they are saing things about you well that sucks but nothing you can do about it cept dont mess up again and dont worry about what people say

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How You Approach Is A Matter Of How You Feel "mPUA Savior"

You Live What You've Learned

if I were you, since you're so concerned about your reputation in a small town, I'd maybe consider moving to a more bigger city and making a fresh start. I mean, if this is gonna continue to affect your game where you live, its probably the safest bet. Thats just my two cents worth.

Nobody gives a fuck about you.

Repeat the above to yourself over, over, and over again . . .

You only "don't like" those girls because you think that they think about you in a particular way. Look, you're a man. Only women and wussy guys allow the perception of others to derail their chi. Are you a man or are you a wuss?

Again . . . "Nobody gives a fuck." Really . . . these people are not sitting at home and chatting about how much of a loser you are or anything like that.

Just start over again. Don't wait another minute. Go out and engage girls in conversation right now!!! You know what they do to roofers who fall off right? They send them RIGHT BACK UP the ladder before they even send the guy to the hospital. They do this because they don't want the guy to fear the ladder after a long break.

If this is a small town, you obviously can't repeat the same ol' routines to all the girls. Get creative. Start writing. Learn from your mistakes. Don't cage yourself into thinking you HAVE to follow the rules of "pick up".

Lastly, alcohol F'd you over so stop drinking. I'm not a member of some puritan PUA against Drinking group. Had you written, I drank so much, I blacked out but I scored a 3-some, I would have told you, "Keep going with what works buddy . . " However, this isn't the case with you.

madmax: I think that would be too radical... Anyway, I'm probably going to move next year.

mPUA Savior and kasabi:

Yeah, I know... people here like to gossip a lot, but better not care what they think... I have lots of good qualities and skills, what is a little uncommon around here, so i can keep that in mind...

I made up lot of openers, so this isnt going to be a problem, I'm creative...
you guys convinced me to think more positevely anyway...

thank you, I'm ready to try again!