To be honest i feel really stupid for what i'm about to write here but after all i shouldn't because i know i'm in the right place. Anyway my life is probably worse off than it ever was:

I am unemployed and always broke
I have failed at college
I am nearly 30 and live with my parents
I have 3 sisters and rarely ever speak to them
I gave up talking to my dad

The reason why i am unemployed is because i failed at a business studies course i was doing for 2 years, I thought i wanted to do this course but i realised i didn't really want to do it but still went ahead to do it anyway. All my lilfe i've been going around in circirls not fully sure where i stand in life. Yes i am not sure what i want, either with women or what i want to achieve in my life.

I set goals and i get excited about them but after a while i give up and start to feel sorry for myself. I'm really frustrated with my life to be honest. I suppose i'm looking for a quick fix and want everyting to turn out right for me.

I have known about the seduction community for 8 years and have read everything i could find on meeting women, Studied materlal from Ross Jeffries, David D, Derek Vitalio, Mystery, Among many of the other guru's, yet i still i end up with my dick in my hand when i get home from nights out on weekends. Not saying i'm a virgin cause i get laid maybe once or twice a year from average looking women.

I'm a fairly attractive looking guy and have a physique as good as Daniel Craig from Casino Royale cause i exercise quiete regularly. I don't get girls approaching me as often as they use to a few months ago. I am going through a bit of a depression and my self-esteem has gone down hill a bit. Whenever i'm out with some guys from the community i find myself in a nervous reck when i see them approach beautiful women with ease while i hang back not having any of it and hoping that any of the girls when talk to me.

I feel so unworthy about myself and i feel i that i don't have any value to give to women. It wasn't always this way it just the fact that i'm unemployed and feel unsure of myself as to what i want out of life right now. and because of that i kind of beat myself up everytime i'm a few feet away from girls and try to avoid them.

Just the other night i was out with the guys and they were approaching women in every direction while i stood back feeling like shit that i wasn't in the mood for doing the same thing. One of the guys tried to introduce me to one of the girls and i wasn't in the mood for talking to her. And she seemed like a fun girl and was in the humour for having a coversation with me. But i just stood there with a fake smile on my face and started looking around me hoping that she would walk aways. My friend away aware of my anxiety and jokingly asked me was i afraid of women or what?

Last year was a pretty good year because i wasn't half as nervious talking to women. Now i feel have to start revising all the pick up material because when i'm put in the position to talk to a girl my mind goes blank and i feel so fucking stupid!

I'm sorry for sounding like a loser guys but i have to get this shit off my chest and hopefully find what works for me so i can start taking action and become a better more attractive guy.

PS: I want to look back on this post in a years time and laugh my ass off!smile

AFC ME

Dude, I'm 33 and I know exactly how you feel. Lucky thing is you got a bod like the Casino Royale dude and you got friends who still go out with you. All hope hasn't been eclipsed yet.
I am 5'4", poor, and I have NO ONE to go to clubs with.
ALSO...
I have a job and yet STILL cant save since I make so little.
I live where I work and so I cant even get a better job cause I cant afford rent anywhere else - its a vicious circle.
I hate my whole family and dont talk to ANY of them
I havent talked to MY dad for TEN years.
I also failed at my college course...in a way

Fuck it man. Dust yourself off and move onward! I still dress like I'm "the man", I still tell girls I have TONS of friends, I still act like I'm filthy rich, I still act like I have high status. You have to fake it til you make it. I have been TOTALLY faking it. And in the last little while I am actually starting to see that I am finally "making it"

I suggest reading all about ALPHA males and what constitutes one. Then you can put your friends to shame. Learn to be a MAN. A man is someone who takes control and MAKES things happen. Dont whine. Make a list of your goals and check each one off as you complete it. Learn social dynamics.

By most girls standards...Im a loser! But my image is such that they see that one day I will NOT be a loser...and this is often enough.

As long as you are WORKING towards a goal, the girls will respect you. You can be unemployed or broke as long as the girls FEEL that one day you will be "the MAN"