| I met this girl a few months ago, shes basically my friend Amanda's best friend. Before I have seen her around but didnt even know her name and never thought twice her. When we first met we clicked, I could tell she might have had a crush and getting caught up in it I began to find her more and more attractive, to the point where I just wanted to fuck her "extra hard". I asked her out and we went out on a couple of dates, she probly was thrown off by how much of a tool I was and I was always nervous and tried too hard bc i wanted to do everything right and fuck her, which I did everything wrong. She talked less and less, it got to the point where she just answered with 1 word everytime. I would try to text her or think of something funny to say on myspace but she still blew me off. We have mutual friends so when were around eachother she is cordial but not even close to how she was when we first met, I hate when people are fake and every time I see her I get depressed and it kills my mood for a few days, its just ONE stupid bitch so it shouldnt be that way.
I think why im stuck on her is bc I wanted to fuck her so bad and that was at the top of my goals and I probly feel depressed bc she makes me feel im not good enough for her, having some of the same friends I still have to deal with this bitch so in order to move on I figured that I need closure, I have read tips and they dont really hit me deep down, "Just get over her" is the most common and probly the best advice, something is blocking that in my mind or something. Ive tried going on dates with other girls and even if their a better fit for me I make up some stupid reason like "she dosent have the cute laugh my ex has" its pathetic, i need to move on.
First I was gonna send her a text but I knew that isnt the way to go. Today she called my work bc her bff amanda works with me and when I picked up she just said "hey can i talk to amanda" not even that "how are you" bullshit.
My second idea was to call her and apologize for talking shit about her hoping she would open up a little bit, At the end I was gonna say "well I really do think your an awesome person with a great heart and wanna be friends" and then ask her to hang out this weekend. The problem with that is she might just be nice and say yes bc it was unexpected and flake out later, even IF we hung out I dont think I would get any closure out of it bc she wouldnt let her guard down and have her bitch shield up the whole time, she might say a little more than she does now but inside is like "maybe if im a little nicer it wont be awkward anymore"
I then thought of instead of calling her waiting till I saw her at a party or visiting amanda at work, maybe she could see how sincere I was and lower her bitch shield for once, bc texting and myspace is the easiest way to talk to someone.
I know I wont get to fuck her and she wont look at me all sparkley, I dont think I would date her if I had the chance. I just dont want to dig myself deeper or seem desprate to outside people, I am mostly tired of feeling depressed. Should I just call her and ask to hang out saying I need to talk to her about something and then just do the whole closure, start over thing? The only way I would feel any sort of relief this way is if I really tell she is 100% genuine and not holding back but thats not even feasible.
Is there any steps I can take to being 100% comfortable with the fact she will always have her guard up and there is nothing that anyone can do to get her back? If you read on this far thank you so much I really need guy advice, this shouldnt be as big of a deal as I make of it.
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