To begin, you will have to please excuse my long-windedness, I fancy myself as a decent writer, and this is a chance not only to introduce myself into this community but also to put things “on paper” so to speak, and reflect.

I stumbled across seductiontuition surfing the net about a week ago, i started reading the articles on the site, and since then i have not been able to stop thinking about game, nor do i want to. I don't like to admit it, but I'm absolutely an AFC with ZERO experience. Before I came across PUAism I was getting the increasing feeling that something was wrong in my life, and my social skills were decaying, bad. I could feel myself slipping into self-flagellating depression. I spent my years in high school girlfriendless and practicing archery, nearly every day… practice that culminated into winning a few state championships and one national. Archery is as much a physical sport as a mind game, so to start, I at least have a decent understanding of the power one’s frame of mind has over the outcome of things. Finding PUAism turned out to be just the kick in the ass that I needed to remind myself of this, and at least get out of my head enough to shake feelings of depression and hopelessness. If there is one thing I hate, its feeling helpless. Thus far the game has only served to relieve me of the pressures of feeling completely clueless, but I have learned more about girls in the last week than I ever did in the last 19 years.

Reading articles on seductiontuition opened my eyes immediately to these new (okay well, new to me) concepts, technologies, and ideas, and i wanted to know more. Being a knowledge junkie, the next day i went to Barnes & Noble and picked up Neil Strauss's The Game. Just mustering enough courage to take the book up to the cash register and look the middle aged, overweight cashier lady in the eyes as i paid for my book on PUA's was task enough, but i had gone to the book store with the intent to go home with this book and begin reading immediately. I knew that if i didn't follow through today, i would hate myself all day and just have to come back to the store again later to actually go through with the plan. Stupid that i should have been self conscious about the purchase at all, but buying the book meant admitting i have a problem... taking the first step, right?

Now, 7 days later, i am about halfway through The Game and still reading through the countless articles on seductiontuition. Progress on extracurricular activities is painfully slow when one works 30 hours a week, takes 17 credit hours, and lives with a roommate who also happens to have become a best friend somewhere along the line, a best friend who is more addicted to smoking weed than he will admit... he is my enabler of all things that lack ambition and purpose, if you will - living with me in the confines of the 3 bedroom house we rent together. He is more successful with women than the average AFC, by the accounts of his stories I would guess his count is somewhere around 8, maybe higher; however he has found himself in an LTR of 3 years now, give or take. I have not told him of any of my PUA endeavors as of yet. I assume I will eventually.

Last Friday night I went to a party hosted by my one and only close female friend. I have been through a long period of one-itis with her, and I have gotten the LJBF speech from her, long story short I am content to keep her on a platonic level; not to trash talk, but she is an LSE, a little emotionally damaged, and has a natural ability to make life hard for herself, and that spills over affecting those around her sometimes. Part of my PUA endeavor(s) is removing myself from that. I have been very successful at this already. While at her party I was opened by one girl, (I was doing well at winning attention by demonstrating simple alpha techniques) however I was anything but interested in her. I practiced some game on her anyway, I got a couple laughs. The party was broken up before much else could happen besides me opening a girl that I later learned was a lesbian (no wonder she wasn’t interested). Point being, the party scene in my town is not idyllic; I need to step up my day game.

At this point, my goals in PUAism are to simply become as natural as I can at it, and to truly have the confidence and skills developed enough to pick up any woman I want. I’m a far cry, I realize this, but I’m sure with your help and the help of the many great resources I have discovered on the topic, as long as I am sure to continue to push myself to new heights, I can make something of myself not only in regards to women, and inner game, but in the real world as well; I have seen great improvements already.