This is my one true horror of my past which still haunts me. I want it out, over. I need to fucking do something.
4 years ago, I moved from london to nottingham (UK). I was severly bullied in school, I was not only an outsider, but I had no social skills whatsoever to make myself socially unretarded lol. I wasnt just bullied, I was fucking mentally tortured, abused physically and loadsa shit.
Then I moved to another school, further lacking social skills, now with a stutter from school, and guess what, same routine. Bullied, but only verbally. Not as bad as the first.
So then I found the community and switched it round. I made not only friends, but friends I had created a life time bond with. We still talk and that. Best friends.
NOW ive found out that my best friends are now at my (preffered) school college, WITH some of the main people who bullied me around from the previous school. Not only are they with them, they are actually seriously close friends with them.
On friday Im meant to be going into the sixth form to visit them. Now Ive found out those evil bastards are there. I always avoided talking about my previous school to the people at the next. Freah start yaknw?
Its sickening to think that my friends are now friends with the people who made me put a blade to my own wrists every night, trying to make myself push hard enough to really do it.
I dont really get AA anymore. This is a whole new level. What do I do??

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...the only thing I can say to you man is that you must detatch. Forgive, allow these people who made you feel so negative to carry on their existence without a spark of resentment.

You're better than them, you always were. Just pity them.
They did what they did because they were afraid, afraid of their own insecurities, afraid of what other people would think of them. Just feel sorry for them. They're like scared animals, children curled up in a corner.

Let them fear. Hopefully, they will have matured and won't be so afraid anymore.

Past is past, dust is dust. Whats done is done...now forgive.

It's been 4 years, you'll be surprised how much people can change in that time. You have no reason to be scared anymore, you are not the same boy who was once bullied. I would visit your friends and try to befriend and forgive those other dudes. If they recognize you, they'll either apologize or still be assholes in which case you should not take it. I've never been bullied but if at this point in your life you get pushed around like you once were, you'll never be respected.

fuck 'em up, idk i've never been bullied, tell ur BEST friends wat those dickheads did to you, ppl grow outa that shit, they would probably apologize to u in a second,

Jay my man, I am a tad drunk so I hope this is legible but I went through similar shit and ended up just kinda living and let live. I won't piss you about it sucks, you see the smug little fucks stomping around like they are the shit but at hte end of the day as people get older they mature and can turn into pretty decent people.
I went form being the guy that could take a kicking and not tell on anyone (kudos/protection for me) to the guy who is friends with everyone. Albeit because I want to fuck some peoples gf's. Anyways the closer you are to the enemy the more fun there is to be had.

Jason's final thought, you do well with a lot of women and by way of that I am guessing you don't do badly in most social situations. So fuck those guys hang with them, you still feel bad you are in abetter position to destroy them anyway.

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Jay lmao. Im lovin it
Sky, great advice man.
Not the same person anymore. ANyways heres what happened. I went in, at 2:30, thinking that the day would end at 3:05. turns out it ended at 2:30 on friday.Went in wondering why the fuck the place was empty, saw an old friend called leanne and said hi, she rung up my ex robyn who i saw quuickly, and that was it, no chance to even glimpse at my old enem- future friends i mean . But im going up again soon, just to see the old guys who made my life hell. I know my inner game will be the shit if I clear all these memories once and for all.

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