| Wow guys, I'm lovin' the feedback on this one. Now it's kind of jumping ahead, but this Hallows Eve I took out a couple girl friends to a bar I know. I'm into this one girl, have been for a while. Thanks to the pre-friendship I didn't have to open on these girls, but I practiced one anyways. I gave them "Do you think being drunk allows you to do things you've always wanted to do, or it makes you do thing you'd never do?" Good shallow opinion opener. I got "Both" in response. Lame.
First thing we did was hang out at her place and take her little... cousin? out trick-or-treating. Not the best time to PU so I saved it for later. But, I thought I'd get things rolling before we even got started, so I talked to my non-target girl all night. My target would jump in every once in a while, and I'd give that "Well thats good for you" look and say something unimportant, then go right back to my non-target. I may have mishandled that IOI poorly, and I did the rest of the night.
We headed over to this one pub with nothing but old people and nobody dressed up there, so we felt kind of out of place. And I could feel eyes all over my target. Now, how I positioned myself was [me] [target] [friend] and I talked across my target to my friend. Again, more two-cent comments from the target. This is where things got interesting. For me anyways, this is a big step from being a "we're good friends". My friend had to use the bathroom, so me and the target were alone. I got to Isolation without even trying. My sarging practice isn't hard enough on me. I figured, in my head, "Try to build an emotional standing and a comfort with her, then Kino". Once my friend left, she hit me. (I'm dressed up as Shaun of the Dead, a zombie slayer.) Went something like this:
[Why'd you hit me?]
"Cause your a zombie slayer, you should be on constant alert, and you're bigger then me"
[Oh... {look around as if bored then tap her on the knee} Maybe you should work on those reflexes (or something)]
"Oh! ChuMp! (not my name, but you get it){Chest slap}"
[Besides, whats me being bigger then you got to do with anything?]
We go on to talk about how its intimidating and she wants to defend herself. I told her that I wasn't gonna hurt her (or something like that in a surprised tone). I was about to hug her when my friend walked back to the table. I went right back to talking to my friend. Went right back to ignoring the target. I believe that was IOI's galore.
We eventually drove around to another bar and a band was playing. This was probably the downfall of the night. It was so awkward at some points. I had nothing left to say. To either of them. I had run dry. We sat in silence for almost that we were there. I'll admit we were standing awful close to the band, but no excuses. At one point we were moving through the crowd, I got behind and desperately grabbed the targets hand. It was demoralizing. I did the squeeze test and nothing back. We must have stood there a good hour and I made a comment about how bored they looked. And here comes the kicker, the target said "I am, no guys are hitting on me, they always hit on me!" and I said something like "Maybe it's cause you have a 6'7" ape behind you". So whats she do? Pushes me back. Playfully I think. Can't be too sure "Yah! get out of here, you're scaring the guys!" I must have had a look on my face that spelled "Ouch, right in the crotch". She instantly came back and hugged me into the group. I think I was back to being "just good friends" again. I said "I would leave you, but theres no one else to hit on in here."
We left after a while. I was morally bankrupt at that time, and I couldn't help but bring myself down and take her with me. I insulted her, I insulted myself. She invited us back for a movie (we do it all the time) and my friend said "Nah, I'm tired". Once my friend left I continued to bash us both down. I felt like a jerk but I couldn't stop.
We were in her basement picking up my camera and I said something along the lines of making up for just a lame Halloween. She said we should watch the movie I said sucked. Sure, why not? She drove me home, most definitely cause she wanted to get to her bf's house party right away, cause no one hit on her all night (ME, ME fucking ME!). We hugged in the car outside my house. Earlier that night she said something about her new tongue ring and she couldn't share germs with anyone, so I didn't even attempt it, even if it was bull.
I didn't write it, and I won't cause I'm fucking tired now, but I negged her all night, before shit went to shit. Often. But sometimes it's the only thing I can think of. Then I can't think of anything positive to counter it.
So, if you actually read all that, and you have any comments, concerns or constructive criticism, feel free. And these scenarios happen all the time with us, so if there's anything you think would have been more clever to say, lemme know.
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