This is the account of an extraordinary epiphany of my life:

I have taken some time off the computer jockeying to do some soul searching. I made a post about my first college party a few months ago but something at this party tore me apart. There was this girl (but isn't there always?) that got me thinking. This hb10 who was possibly the most slutty whore I have ever laid eyes on had LITERALLY all but 4 guys at this 90+ person party surrounding her at the beer-pong table (yes about 30-40 men were at this table including myself). She had light brown hair, piercing doe eyes, about 5'5 and 115lbs. She had a perfectly proportioned body and was pleasant to look at.

Something about her got the attention of the guys. I remember sitting at this table with her playing "never have I ever" When all the sudden she says "Wow, I fell like such a pimp! I'm surrounded by all these hot guys!"

Then it hit me... I turned around and came to the sad realization that ALL of the girls at the party were on the other side of this patio... WITH NO MEN AROUND THEM! Seriously. We were all around this one girl fighting for her attention. There was one AFC who was too afraid to ask her for her number so he was the only guy that did not get it.

What made her so attractive? Now I may have said some harsh things about her, but don't get me wrong. She is, quite possibly the nicest person I have ever met in my life. I decided that I had to figure out her secret.

She had one friend with her that liked me. I decided that since none of the other AFC's were paying attention to her, I would pick her up. Maybe out of jealousy, her friend gave me her number. The 3 of us and one of our mutual friends ended up at a local nightclub a few nights later.

When we got back to our friends place, I got some 101 time with hb10. Her being her slutty self started hitting on me. Damn! I must fuck her! But wait thats not what I'm here to do...

I had to pick her mind! How does she think!? This girl has the key to social success, people pay mPUA's thousands of dollars to learn what she knows (am I thinking to much?) she must not even realize it! I had to know...

me: When did you first lose your v-card?
hb10: I was... like 13... he was 26...
me:...wow...

Thats it, all my hours of studying PUA, and thats the big line. We were watching t.v. One of those shows rating the hottest male models.

me: On a scale of 1-10, 10 being the hottest what would you rate me?
hb10: hmmm, you are a cutie! an 11!

I know I'm not an '11,' I've been told that I'm attractive. But she fed my fucking ego. She got up to go do something. I was just watching her.
The way she talked, looked, walked, sat down. The things she said kept me listening like I was hiding from a killer. It was all so natural.

I wanted to be like that. I would do anything. So I started taking her and applying her attributes to me.

The Transformation
I realized the flaws of the Seduction Community. Look around on these forums and you see questions:

"She rubs on my leg, this an ioi?"
"What bout the October man sequence?"
"What is your fav. opener?"

Yes ALL of these are legitimate questions. But they all lack one thing. Confidence. Many of us lack confidence. Confidence, in healthy proportions is the "Weapon of Mass Pussy," for us PUA's.

I took my friend, hb10 for an example. Everything about her was sexy, she felt sexy inside, she never said "I only date hot guys," or some other elitist bullshit. She acted as if she was in the same league as the hunchback of notre dame.

I started really FEELING sexy. All those girls that rejected me in high school: Crazy. The rejecters from parties past: Stupid.

I realized that it's NOT GAY for a man to feel sexy. However, it is gay if you are being sexy for other men. But then again, I'm not a judge

Since feeling sexy. I have accomplished so much. Feeling sexy has done more for my game than all the study of books and web posts have put together.

Everyone, don't get me wrong... Studying openers, negs etc. Asking all those questions is the second most beneficial thing you could do. So what did me the most good? SARGE!!! Go out and channel your sexy energy to the world. I still am yet to get my beer pong table full of girls! I'm not writing this story to impress upon you how sexy I feel. If I had to pick one of endless morals I would tell you that what you that attraction is not a choice.


- DieselFuel aka Sportsman. (edited for clarity)

But, at the same time, you must understand that confidence doesn't appear out of nowhere. For most rAFC's, they have had mass amounts of rejection. On top of this, we are hardwired to fear approaching women in general.

Competence breeds success. Success breeds confidence. Therefore competence breeds confidence. So the techniques and advice here, do in the long run make those who apply them more confident. I totally agree. The ability to carry yourself, be content, and control one's inner self to appear as the alpha male, are the most powerful things one can do for their game.

But, at the same time, you must understand that confidence doesn't appear out of nowhere. For most rAFC's, they have had mass amounts of rejection. On top of this, we are hardwired to fear approaching women in general.

I was watching the discovery channel the other day, and the narrator said something like "Fear is a human emotion that has gone relatively unchanged since the beginning of evolution..."

Bro you speak the truth. Confidence DOES NOT come easy to most people. As a matter of fact I would wager that lack of confidence is the number one problem AFC's face. I know it was my innermost demon! Now that I have this confidence, I realize how much more I have to go before I am a master PUA! A journey of a thousand miles truly does begin with one step! lol I can finally apply that maxim to something!