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So, I'm Relius, I'm 19, and I've been playing guitar for 9 years, professionally for the past 5 years. I'm attending a music university at the moment and I'm getting my Assosciates, majoring in Guitar and Performance, minoring in Music Business.
I've had 3 absuive, "serious" relationships. I thought I knew what love was when I was younger, ahh how foolish you are in your younger years. Actually thought I wanted to marry a girl. Anyways, been single for the past 2 years or so. All of my relationships have been pretty much long distance. The girls in my home town really aren't into Blues, Rock, Funk, and Jazz, so they never really caught onto my guitar playing, and on top of that, I've always been a little bit of a social outcast and a social wreck. I've always had a large group of friends, but I was the "just friends" guy all of the time, I never really ever got to hook up with girls that I really had an attraction to because I was always that shy and nice guy who let everyone else walk over me.
It took me till my Senior year of high school to finally take some charge in my life, and I started becoming more and more confident. A friend of mine lent me a book on Pick Up Artistry, and it helped me become a much better and out going person. But I've been self taught for the past year now and the farthest I've gotten is getting to a first date without much contact, kissing, ect. And then never getting past that.
I moved out to the Hollywood area 7 months ago, and so far things are great, I'm just tired of being alone, I need someone to fill the void in me if that makes sense, but I am so bad at trying to pick up a girl, I seem to just get stuck as a friend, they never seem to be interested in taking things farther than that. The closest I've ever gotten was in a one week fling with a girl, we had a lot of chemistry for a little bit, we kissed, cuddled, held hands, held each other, ect. all on the first date, and it ended up she became disinterested because I cared too much, big lesson learned there I guess.
Anyways, I'm here to get help on becoming a better person and finally stop beating the shit out of myself for every failure. My friend Stan says "man, I think you're problem is that you keep finding the wrong women." And he might be right. Anyways, I really want to learn, and improve on myself, I'm planning on really taking this music career further than just bar bands on the weekend. And I really want to be able to get rid of my self-esteem barriers and be the great guy that I know I can be.
Anyways, that's my long ass introduction, nice to meet all of you. If anyone is in the Hollywood/North Hollywood/Burbank area, and are available to teach or go out together and learn together out in this big city, please PM. Cause I really need help heh.
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