Hiya guys!
This is my story of how I ended up here, standing before you at the threshold of a different life.
(If you feel I have written to much then please read on, ……no really do, does it help if I say 3 hours ago I broke it off with my now latest ex…..thought so….better keep reading hey)
One I might have sought for a very long time but was never been able to reach. I never even knew this tech existed until about last week, when I got a hold of a copy of The Game and funnily enough I have never read a book as quickly as I did that book. But then again considering the subject matter maybe it is not funny at all, in fact I am sold, and all due to a video I just saw on you tube where they were saying, reading is great, but you will learn more in a couple of sets than you will reading a whole stack of books, not to mention it gets to the hart of the matter straight away AA, kill it and be done with it! I LIKE IT. Anyways I almost feel I would have to give my score and such but the reason I am here and why this night.
I have been in a string of very long relationship that had started circling the drain long before they should, could, would have if it was not for my feelings of inadequacy that I could do better. Don’t get me wrong, the women I have been with, I loved and some I love to this very day, they might not know it but if they coma a knocking needing my help, there is not anything I would do to help. But still I have this bad habit of simply being too chillaxed, one because I smoke weed I really am pretty cool with any situation and don’t complain about much other than your usual shit, you know, everybody gets worked up about something but also grew up only with women, me being the elder brother and ‘man’ of the house.
Consequently I have become a “nice guy” and so relaxed that I simply get drawn into relationships. I meet a girl and then what happens is I simply get “sucked” into relationships, and before you know it I have moved in with her and her cats or crazy roommate. But because I am relaxed I am also lazy, that is the kind of lazy that stretches from procrastinating every mundane day to day task until the v e r y last moment to getting a hold of my life, because it is not uncomfortable as long as the “honey-moon” period is over and then plus minus 6 months witch depends on the woman, but the result is always the same, Shakespearian breakups (well felt that way to me……I was writing poetry for fucks sake
) to a simple logistics exercises. But the result is the same, more time wasted and so much more time older and nothing to show for it!
Well that is not true, I did gain something which was a lot of very good memories…and bad ones, but also experience in relationship’s and women and what they want (safety and replication) more lately the ability to recognize when something was turning into a relationship. This is a big step for me since then I have time to “eject” before I waste more time.
In any case I always wanted to be able to just walk up to girls and not fear the consequences. I can do it with colleagues and introductions, but then the hard part of opening is kind of dealt with for you as you are already in their comfort zone, but I was never able to simply do it to drop dead gorgeous women in the street, bars and other social gatherings, and lets face it, that is where you meet……eeehhhh…I mean see them well lets see if it changes now if I get the swing of this technology.
I want to have the choice to choose and not to take the first best fit.
My Approach Anxiety started from teen when I was really quite heavy (100kg at 11) and only got worse until my balls dropped and I realized that the chickies don’t dig the horizontally challenged look, at least not the ones I was interested in, so one summer break, 3 months in my case. I set out to the gym and simply pushed it until I had lost almost 30 kg at which point I had become buff, so I know there is a mean to an end, there always will be!
Anyway to make a long story longer, ok I wont
Tonight was the acumination of my lifetime of experiences and drained in the possibilities of PUA and well, this time, The Swede ended up choosing for me and so I am turning a new leaf, joining forums like this to check what can be done about joining any outfits running around this town. I want to get out there and try this stuff, girlfriend be dammed. There will be plenty of time for that later
So now that you everything about me let me introduce myself. I am Swede, I am pushing 30 and I currently reside in Amsterdam, the Netherlands. So if your ever here, well…means to an end. I have lived and partied in this city for almost 10 years so sure I can show someone the sights
So what is up guys?
/Swede
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