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Having all this knowledge does not bother me; this isn't the problem. What does, though, is that in any situation I now know what needs to be done to achieve what result and I feel compelled to always go for attraction. I'll back this up with an example.
I went to a friend's barbecue where my sole purpose was to relax and take a breath. As soon as I saw the first pair of new tits, I knew I could either walk away with her number or not. So what does my robot brain do? Analyzes. 4-set: one pawn, one dude and a HB.
Instantly I knew I had to befriend her guy friend and how to achieve that with military precision: point my feet towards him, lock submissive eyes, calibrate his energy and get into some stupid role play ('we should totally start a clubbing business... I'll be the magician, you'll be the manager and we'll hook up with the hottest chicks in the place'). Then I had to occupy him with another chick to get 1:1 time with the target.
[Ace - to pawn] Hey, tell RandomDude that awesome story about what happened the other day!
[RandomDude] Yeah, go for it, maybe we'll let you get into our super exclusive club if you're cool enough!
[Pawn] <insert random story>
Any time now.... 3, 2, 1, here comes the IOI...
[HB] So... How did you get into magic?
No fireworks here. Traditional M3 #close.
But this isn't even the point. Even with my friends, I think about how I lock eye contact, how I speak and how I pause to deliver a particular story. Everything I say demonstrates value in some way or the other. I can either be the old me - a funny, self-depreciating loser, or a social robot. There's no in-between.
Maybe it's part of the process, maybe that's what finally internalizing all this material should feel like. Perhaps I'm making a big deal out of nothing. Have any of you had similar experiences?
I think this should go away if you develope some inner game, then you become the object of desire, your not just putting on an act, and get some hobbies, find somethings you enjoy doing and do theml.
I go cayaking, tricking, free climbing, american football and I do martial arts, it keeps me busy and ensures I don't get wrapped up in one thing like you seem to have done here.