Man I feel sorry for you, I can relate a lot to what you are saying. Here's my advice, hope it helps you.
First of all, take responsibility for your life. As another poster on this thread has shown, and as plenty of other people in this forum and what is known as the community can show you, you can change your life. But it's something you have to do. And it's something that you have to understand is possible (which it is) and that you believe that. Do some research and find out about it. Read "The Game" by Neil Strauss if you haven't already. That's the best example, but only one of many.
So you'll need to make changes. Also realise that these changes won't happen overnight. From your position you can't read about PUA, go out and suddenly be THE MAN. It's going to take time and effort from you, and it will ask things of you that you didn't know you had. But ask yourself this: would you rather try and go through the effort of changing with the chance that your life will improve, or remain as you are with your life as it is? There is a cost for change, but there is also a cost for staying the same. Which payment do you want to make?
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Well tonight let me just tell you,
Again I tried my hardest to attract women that I felt attracted to, again they shunned me and ignored me(same as always so why spoil the habit of a lifetime).
So it looks like you need to try something different. From another post it looks like you are just saying whatever you can think of at the time. There are specific things you can do to improve your chances. Do some research and find out what these are. Plenty of resources on this forum and elsewhere.
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Then the women I liked ended up getting off with someone else,
Bad things happen sometimes. You can sit there and replay them in your head time and time again, revisiting those horrible emotions, basing your story around how bad your life is. Or you can realise that right now, you are alive, you can consciously choose what you do next, you can practice any skill you want and get better at it over time, you can think a bit more positively. What would you rather do?
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and on the way home I walked to clear my head(same as always) and a few guys pulled up in a car shouting abuse reminding me how ugly I am.
How important are these people to you? Do you know them? Can you control what they do? I'm guessing it's a not very, no and no, but please correct me if I'm wrong. Given that, although it might have been shocking when it happened, it has no lasting effect in the grand scheme of things (unless you replay it over and over again in your head). Try and separate your emotions of this event from what happened. If that's hard to do then try, this is a good skill to have and if you don't have it now you might as well start somewhere. If you can distance yourself from it, ask what you can learn from it. You might be able to see it as a turning point where you use situations like this in the future to try and find out how to be calm and relaxed.
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So I said tell you what come out here and say it man to man and we will sort it, tell you what the 5 of you come out and say it to me I will knock the fuck out of the lot of you(I was hoping one of them would pull a knife out and stab me make it quick, end the hell that im living) but sadly the shitbags didnt fancy it and pulled away pronto, all mouth as per usual.
Well I don't agree with your response, but as you rightly point out these people are cowards, the five of them didn't want to take you on. So how much value do they have? Pretty much none at all by my reckoning. What do you think?
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Lets face it my life is pointless, fate has fucked me theres really no point for guys like me, things will never change.
How about if YOU gave your life a point, like, for example, learning to get good with women? Or finding out how to be sucessful in business. Improving your health. Learning a musical instrument or a new sport. Helping people in some way. Choose something but it has to be something that you do (and that you want to do). No one will do it for you, although you can ask people to help. Maybe you can help them in some way in exchange. But you have to choose something. What's it to be?
By the way, fate doesn't exist. And change happens all the time. Sometimes to you, sometimes by you. Which one should you worry about? (Clue: it's not the first one!).
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Difference is with me guys im 24 going on 25.
If things where really going to change for me they would have a long time ago
Would they? Abraham Licoln was a twice-bankrupt failure at 40 and went on to become president. Plently of other examples out there, look at Ray Kroc. I'm 31 and didn't get my first hot girlfriend until I was 27. Even then she was a psycho. I didn't get my first stable and hot girlfriend until I was 30. You can do this too.
And like another poster said, don't compare yourself to others, compare yourself to yourself. Watch your progress develop over the months. My brother was always better than me at school and work. My friends always pulled the hot girls, including the ones I was after. That messed me up for a fair while. But I ended up earning more than my brother eventually. And I'm starting to get even better with women, though still not as good as my friends. Does that bother me? A bit, yes. But I can see the improvement that I've made, and that makes me feel a lot better.
Have fun, all the best.